I have a praise kink for mundane situations. I wanna be told I'm someone's good boy and hear how proud they are because I didn't buy cigarettes today even though I really wanted a cigarette. and if they wanna jack me off a little? as a treat?

Chappell Roan Makes Amends By Kidnapping 11-Year-Old Fan https://theonion.com/chappell-roan-makes-amends-by-kidnapping-11-year-old-fan/

Update 3/21: I had two interviews this week but haven't heard about either of them yet. also, my AC went out a few minutes ago, and maintenance won't be around to check it out until monday or tuesday. yay! getting re-acquainted with my single tiny desk fan for now. anything helps!

I'm not good at fcf but this is fun

blocking muscle bears with no gut who call themselves "fat and proud" is so freeing actually. like shut up! you can't sit with us!

Bluesky every Friday

These gas prices are going to kill the DL trade that can only travel and can never host!

I love whining and complaining and bitching

provel is delicious actually?

me: calls to follow up after an interview them, the exact person who interviewed me: answers the call me: oh hey great! you're exactly who I -- them: the person you interviewed with is currently in a meeting and can't follow up with you me: ...so, you? you're in a meeting?

Share a green character for 🍀 or else the rest of the year you'll have terrible luck.

watched it so much that I literally burned through the tape, got a second one, and almost burned through that one too

Update 3/16: I paid for another month! I thought rates were going up, but it's just the weekly rates. I'm still paying the same as long as I'm paying monthly. it still left me with "be very careful" amounts of grocery money, but I have two interviews this week, leaving for one rn. anything helps!

Dear Alan Cross, we can't possibly thank you enough for your wisdom and clarity on the subject, and I can't fathom why none of us have tried just...doing something! so simple, so brilliant, and it certainly won't cost anyone their lives. you really went outside the box with this one!

it was barely overcast 20 minutes ago and now we have hail and a tornado warning lol

hearing about series/movies getting sequels or reboots is so annoyingly common now, and like...I *love* certain pieces of media. I would still never ask for a reboot. I don't need it! I don't want it! I love recycling tin cans and paper, not media

you sound like you never aged out of 2007 internet speak and you're a pathetic loser. grow up

really starting to debate if moving to this city was a smart idea or not. can't tell if that's the depression/anxiety talking. logically I am safer, especially after finding out the biggest homeless camp in the last city was raided a couple months after I left.

I think one of my cousins might have accidentally outed my situation to some relatives and I'm not sure how I feel about that yet. idk how they even know as much as they do unless they saw the gofundme (I try to update there about as often as I do here)

Update 3/12: I found out my medicaid lapsed, *after* visiting the urgent care a few days ago. it's not an outrageous bill, but it's still more than I was expecting to deal with. I have a couple interviews next week, but anything helps!

Update 3/12: I found out my medicaid lapsed, *after* visiting the urgent care a few days ago. it's not an outrageous bill, but it's still more than I was expecting to deal with. I have a couple interviews next week, but anything helps!

remember when we (americans) said this about -- just one example off the top of my head -- pedophiles???

Update 3/11: I've scheduled 3 interviews for next week! I kinda hate that it still triggers that lil "you really like me 🥺" in my head, but I'll take whatever helps me out of a depressive funk for now. plus I can't afford to not be working for more than a week or two anyway. anything helps!

tired of wallowing in my shit tbh and tired of not feeling hot so here's proof that I'm hot

both my grandmas worked their entire adulthood. a CNA in a nursing home, and some kind of government programming job in the era where computers were first becoming household items. the CNA died young before retirement, but the computer whiz -- who is STILL more tech savvy than me -- gets fat $$$

I might otherwise be strongly considering inviting a guy over just to help me completely shut down my brain for a few hours (weed, butt stuff, whatever might work) but alas, the social anxiety

Update 3/9: unemployed again. logging off for a bit so I can process rage in healthy ways. in case I'm not back tomorrow, it's my birthday. yay. anything helps!

Update 3/9: had an HR meeting today about another employee's physical behavior towards me (and apparently one or two others, but I don't know those details) more info in more parts but I wanna keep this in the first one and there's character limits. anything helps!

went to urgent care before work because I was sore and I thought I was having another "your balls are acting up" scare. got an ultrasound, which is still the most uncomfortable thing I've ever felt. update: no visible symptoms of distress, which is in itself kind of distressing?

from the bottom of my heart: fuck pixar, fuck pete docter, and fuck the bad parents who are too cowardly to have a real conversation with their children. they might need therapy anyway if they're dealing with you whiny bitches.

I too would love to be $6 smashed (new)

Update 3/5: hours are getting cut again to accommodate new hires. they're doing fine, which is kinda cool. but I also don't understand why you'd hire more, when current employees need the hours you claim you don't have? hunting for second jobs, but anything helps!

Update 3/5: hours are getting cut again to accommodate new hires. they're doing fine, which is kinda cool. but I also don't understand why you'd hire more, when current employees need the hours you claim you don't have? hunting for second jobs, but anything helps!

me looking at people built like me: holy shit you're so pretty and sexy and how did you do that?? goddamn yes slay you look so good here me looking at me in a mirror: *I don't wanna advertise graphic self hatred but I know some of y'all get it*

Tanya Tucker's cover of "the house that built me"

I was a "only smoked when he drank" smoker in my early 20s. I bummed a couple from a stranger on a bar patio. I was quite drunk and complaining about my bf at the time, who was not present. the stranger was one of the guys from Ludo. as a St Louis native, finding that out later was trippy

Update 3/3: my store hired more people instead of giving hours to people who were asking for hours, so now *more* people have fewer hours. definitely looking for a second job now, I don't have patience for the inconsistency. I came here to move forward, and dammit I'm moving forward. anything helps!

I mean, sure, maybe conviction number 35 will be the one to do it. that sounds realistic. 34 and he's still in office, so yeah, let's go for 35. certainly a person can't get away with it 35 times, right?

Update 3/3: my store hired more people instead of giving hours to people who were asking for hours, so now *more* people have fewer hours. definitely looking for a second job now, I don't have patience for the inconsistency. I came here to move forward, and dammit I'm moving forward. anything helps!

it took almost five weeks at this job to have an autistic meltdown over people's intentional targeted behavior towards me, which is impressive, because it's happened a lot sooner at a lot of jobs

right before I left work a guy came to the drive thru window on foot. he ordered food and asked "do I like comic books" he had a satchel and he was carrying big fuckin' wolverine claws and the goddamn kunai from naruto

Update 2/28: back at work and regretting it lol I'm feeling a lot better! business has been crazy this week though. I assume it's because people are getting their tax returns and whatnot. I still haven't seen mine, but I'll see it before the 10th. anything helps!

Update 2/26: tried to go to work with a migraine yesterday because sometimes I can power through. this was not one of those times! I got sick in the bathroom and got sent home lol I'm ok, it's weather related, they aren't usually this bad. I just pushed myself too hard for this one. anything helps!

Please stop fetishizing cops

Update 2/22: my birthday's in a couple weeks and I'm feeling very "I'm 35" about it. slowing my brain down made it notice how easily my body gets sore these days. back on my PT exercise bullshit. the job is going well, but I might need a second one to actually have savings again. anything helps!

"walking to work ten minutes before a shift" is a bad time to learn I have a hole in my shoe =/

Update 2/22: my birthday's in a couple weeks and I'm feeling very "I'm 35" about it. slowing my brain down made it notice how easily my body gets sore these days. back on my PT exercise bullshit. the job is going well, but I might need a second one to actually have savings again. anything helps!

Five authors I've read at least five books by: Dean Koontz James Patterson C.S. Lewis Mark Z. Danielewski Robert Jordan