My brain has been sparkly as of late with two good buds as we get mutually creative and take our time kindling our own and the other's brain. I have thoughts and can visualize charas again... lately, it feels like I'm breathing within the winds. oh my fish I gotta go flip it.

A husk yearning how to feel and draw again. I haven't drawn much this year at all; am so far away from creative passion + drawing for myself that if I try winging it/sketching for the sake of it... it's static numb. I can draw for utility for group/admin work but it's still so numbing. One day.

@kissmekarma.bsky.social Have you seen this?! Let me tell you I was teary-eyed out of joy... this is how I've always enjoyed Zoids: raw, sentient machines however piloted by passion. Whooough! www.youtube.com/watch?v=3giI...

I have launched a GFM on behalf of @tsukurikake.bsky.social in the interest of preserving her life despite intense & prolonged treatment-resistant depression. Please consider reading about Kiki's situation, sharing, & donating if you are able. gofund.me/8a562185d

My good bud's gran is in need so I wanted to share this in hopes to help her out. ;; Thank you for looking. 💙🫂 gofund.me/e1abcdcc4

My good bud's gran is in need so I wanted to share this in hopes to help her out. ;; Thank you for looking. 💙🫂 gofund.me/e1abcdcc4

But really do not let this moment pass you up, call your reps and beat them over the head with evidence that ID verification will lead to uncontrollable sensitive information leaks and identity theft

Everyone tries to tell you apathy is cool, but the sooner you learn earnestness is strength not cringe and that all your quirks are what people will fall in love with, the sooner learn how to define your own happiness and find true friends who love youf for you

I really do miss when my brain would be so full of knowledge and articulated words that didn't immediately apply to my daily life but just everything else. Need to get back to that. In my 30s I feel so much better energy-wise but damn do I feel intellectually-lacking by a lot when observing others.

okay so my computer needs new parts, im opening a couple of sketch bust shots for 45 USD. they will be delayed to next week to allow time for the mail. PM me for a slot! (image is to show sketch quality, wont be full body)

I needed this today. Please watch, it's important. 🫂 www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDs2...

Haven't drawn (willingly/feeling creative) in 19 days. Ough this whole year is art drought but it is what it is. I just don't feel much (Big Good Emotion: it quenches my creative self so immediate; ie: goofy euphoria, crush/affection, etc) nor does much happen irl, just life routine. One day. 🌛💨

As you cancel streaming services, here is a casual reminder that only 16% of Americans read for pleasure anymore, and your local library has hundreds or thousands of books you haven't read. They would love to see you stop by and renew your library card.

I do yearn to see the apple in 4K in my mind's eye like some can; it would help so much with things I want to do as an artist. It is usually a void with blips of memory-like glitch. I can recall memory too well in most cases but envisioning something within my headworld or own charas it's so void.😔

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this is nightmarish and should alarm you no matter what your opinions on pornography are

Damn... I can see it. My formal/logic side tbh. uquiz.com/quiz/64v0cF/...

To put it bluntly, this is a fucking disaster. For consumers, for small businesses and artists, for everybody. The US is cutting ourselves off from the rest of the world and for what?? Even if this gets sorted out or walked back, it’s going to cause a major disruption.

Tried drawing small [typical/forest] Hoshibuki sketches last night before bed. Really want to get back into that groove of Hoshi' just being second nature again. I do feel great apprehension if I simply think about returning to those ways however...if it pushes me to fret, I should pursue it. Oof.

To my fellow EU people, Chat Control is a proposal made to scan all messages, photos, and private conversations without consent. We can stop this, mass surveillance isn't the answer, let's contact our reps ! fightchatcontrol.eu#contact-tool

being an artist is hilarious because it's like "yeah i can capture and depict the intricacies of the human form" and then 10 minutes later im googling some shit like "bed" because i forgot what basic things look like

Got to enjoy a couple hours at Barnes & Noble (a fav store) with a close friend 😌⭐ It was nice to browse books and not worry about time for a while. She obliged to get a book for me since tomorrow is my b-day (and she wouldn't be available otherwise) ;;; I was evil and got her a discount hehe. 💙;;

I've asked some close buds already, but I'm curious if any adopt-selling-artist friend/anyone here would have a ToS I may read through? Trying to grip understanding on what I need for the field again aha... these days I feel like I can consider the short list basics but the nooks n crannies, 1/2

I was drawing now/then and slowly churning progress towards whatever I've been keen for in terms of art and bringing my headspace back into the light. Not sure what happened but for two weeks the mental highway is jammed. Damn, I need to /feel/ immensely for creative thoughts! Someday again. Gwah.

I need to chomp at the bit and relearn my space as an artist. Thank you for your patience for several year long hiatus. Work in progress of a new personification vessel. They are a combination of currently existing truesonas I have only shared privately but applied to a species I help admin. 🌠

custom design commission for @nuletvide.bsky.social !! ✖

The yearn and ache to draw is so heavy and felt but is it like watching a plant grow? Yes. It is so mundane wriggling my way back into the art flow yyhhh (no thoughts; head empty unless a blurry blip like a hint... that is all I get to work with usually. need music fixation to return too for muse).

I'm gonna revise Hoshibuki and the Moon they reside on. It's had nearly a decade for an incubation hiatus... In my dome it's a scattered mess and I'm tired of looking at it (internally). Also though coming to this conclusion took ... months? Literally a SotC scenario waking up my brain. ...🌠

I miss being able to network easily and share interests with others; creating strong friendships, etc. As a millennial it just feels so difficult to make friends unless I work irl with them... it's not the same feeling as crossing paths online with someone near or far, sparking your heart and mind.

Me every day: I will draw and post again, come out of 7 years of hiatus (online art because I do draw now and then in private). My brain: [ nothing ] (defense mechanism) OTL please work with me.

This is one of the reasons I buy my music at band camp, instead of streaming it on Spotify.

Times are about to get more difficult. Please watch out and support your friends and artists. We’ll need you now more than ever

Trying to draw yesterday and today feels like I've lost the articulation with brain > hand translation. Having to think of anatomical logic, etc... when usually it's like breathing air for me. Hope it passes soon, ough. Drives me nuts when I know I know but it's one of those moments.

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Illustrations I drew for BLACKBIRD

I need to share sketches, my headspace, my world, I am just terrified and uncomfortable to re-enter such a communal public world of many unknowns which I used to soar in. Scars do ache as am keen to express myself again. Alas.

I will post something worthwhile eventually. 🪹