To distract from this hot mess called my life rn, Kin drew some persona 4&5 doodles and wanted me to show them off. @djcati.bsky.social

I got a card and sursie from @jenhaneve.bsky.social in the maaaaail!!! I’ll hold onto @nightincarnate.bsky.social’s until she’s here—we had some house kerfuffle happen and was postponed

Mom bought me a massage for Monday as a late bday gift and also bc I texted her in tears at 130 am and begged her to take me out (💀 not 🍝).

I love a fic that is too smart for me to understand🫡 For real, I’m like “haha I’m in danger” but swept up all the same.

Peak coparenting is both Bryent and I sending Kinley the link to hiimdaisy’s persona 4 dub because she’s spent 20 out of the last 24 hours playing the game.

Said “I’ll take a nap” at 3pm. Woke up at 945, thinking it was the morning. Only it was too dark and I was so confused I literally googled the time bc my brain could not wrap around the numbers on my phone. 🥴

Anyway, I'm sure it's because I have gone back into "sad fetal position" mode and think spending money i don't have would fix me. i'm not even using the playstation that much rn so it's FINE brain, calm the fuck down and write your fanfics

one of the most annoying parts of my brain is best explained by example: my playstation + expires in 2 days. I do not have the money for it. It is not an emergency, it is just something I like because I have very little serotonin. so i sit and ruminate about it, thinking of ways to get money (1)

The perpetual mud and water in the yard is now growing some sort of algae

Welp she never did message me. Neither did two out of three brothers. And yet, I’ll be a good daughter and take my mother to surgery on Friday. 🙄

My mom has not said happy birthday to me yet. I don’t think she’s going to. I’m pretty hurt tbh :/

My cat just threw up in the middle of the hallway. Happy bday to me 😒🥲

It’s like becoming a shrimp who can see more colors. #just38things

I fell asleep at 6 last night and woke up at two. Still up and desperately craving an omelet but I have no eggs or money so an uncrustable it is 🤣😒

It’s my birthday! It’s @nightincarnate.bsky.social’s birthday too!!

happy Mardi Gras/valentines day. Tomorrow is for birthdays, today for beads

Can’t see if tomorrow’s Mardi Gras festivities allow any sort of bag or just a clear one so clear one it is I GUESS >:((((

When you want to draw something not fanart but all you think about is Galadriel—just make the palette the same 🤣

Bringing back the Silm Valentines 💌

Don’t care about the holiday but it makes for some cute nails!!

Galadriel right before Gil-Galad sends her to Valinor (😌😳😠)

Okay so today is the day Scotland gained its greatest asset: @djcati.bsky.social!! My ride or die bestie since we were 16!! Another year, another…well, not dollar bc I’m poor af. I love you and miss you so very very much, Cati!! Happy birthday!!

I’m supposed to be asleep but I just realized ex husband went from 0 to divorce bc a) he’s a dick and b) HE ONLY TALKS TO AI ABOUT SHIT!!!!! Fuck him. Anyway, happy birthday @djcati.bsky.social I’ll make a sappy post tmrw while looking for my birth certificate.

Looking between two things I cannot NOT HAVE and trying to figure out which one is most important (I think my drivers license renewal is more important but also I do need my medication ugggh)

Thank you, my irl friend, for fleshing out my half baked new hit single

🥹😘😘😘

Spiraled for a bit remembering I met Clinton as a child, and he pat me on the head and he’s on a list and— My mom confirmed I was not taken anywhere but the post-presidential-pizza party my Girl Scout troop had (sans president) 😮‍💨

I’ve been watching this “I shouldn’t have survived” show where people survived things like shipwreck and plane crash and too much snow and every single one is either a man or a woman only in that situation bc of a man taking her there And so many of the men are Australian 🤣

Breaking: Tragedy at the Winter Olympics

I dream of having enough stability in our culture that anyone who wants to can pursue the arts, but the meaning comes from that pursuit, from translating human experiences through skills acquired over time. Art is labor, but it isn't just some commodity that can be pulped and reconstituted.

Every instance of "AI democratizes the arts, you're classist and ableist and a gatekeeper for trying to stop it" is a slap in the face to the literally centuries of poor, disabled people making art on the margins and a crass lie in service of a machine that strips down and regurgitates dreams

I absolutely must do laundry and shower today.

Just because good news is worth celebrating: There is now a Prep medication that is an *every six month* injection. HIV has, effectively, a vaccination.

From the front she is perfect cat! I’ve been giving her some homeopathic medicine and it seems to be working! She licks a lot less often and is letting hair sort of grow back and the biggest thing is NO MORE SCABS!! Precious creachur

nobody likes me everybody hates me might as well GO EAT WORMS

My paycheck today was $31. Emailed HR to politely ask wtf because this not only makes me unable to pay bills, it will set me back for rent too. I am tired and now I’m crying so hard I scared my cats away and I’m just. Over. It.

The girl longs for triple digit weather.

Next Season Kyle be like:

I feel no excitement for my bday anymore since I was so generously left by my ex husband the day after. Hopefully as the years pass I’ll feel like celebrating again 🥲

Playing with different brushes to switch it up again. Melian, Luthien and Galadriel. Gal and Melian have special Valinor eyes and somehow some extra sequins got on Gal’s hair that I JUST NOTICED. FUCK

My hands lately for no reason at all: (I have always had a hand tremor but it’s getting to the point I can’t do any fine motor control without at least one meltdown lol)

u/Impossible-Data-1831 on CPTSD and me being like “oh that’s my daily train of thought”

Me: I just need a little nap (Five hours later) 😭😭

"The document describes how the scanning company’s 'hydraulic powered cutting machine' would 'neatly cut' books, whose pages would later be scanned."

Some smutty doodles to wind down the day. Shout out to that one website I get my ideas from lmao

I'm gonna become the first guy to walk out of family court sentenced to death

L A R G E

***Commission Info*** I am raising my prices to $25 per half hour to compensate for the fact my life keeps sucking and I now owe taxes. So. 🫩 (Keep in mind most art takes 45mins to 1 hour so it’s not something too insane unless you commission something insane 🤣)

Columbia got snow yesterday! This morning the roads are melting so tonight it’ll all turn to ice. Bonus pic of me trying to take a selfie and then getting snow right into my eyeball.

I am an idiot, thought I got paid one more time before rent and I don’t. I am going to throw up and die because I’m short $500. I’ve reached out to two people who usually help but I’ll still be 2-300 short. I hate this. I am trying to not hyperventilate