that's me in the lower right! i wasn't sure how a themed commission was going to come out but leo's art is absolutely amazing and well worth the wait. easily one of my new favorites.

Bunlith show just passed 25% funded!! LETS GOOOO!!!!! Let's keep this momentum going! Tell ur friends!! www.kickstarter.com/projects/bun...

very happy with new tattoo, it's a continuation of the original design and it turned out pretty much perfectly. and it was no wait time at all, too, thanks to the specific timing of when i got to the shop. sometimes the universe's gears align just right. =w=

Some positive words on improving as a creative, especially as a writer, when everyone around you seems so much better at it than you from Mr. Eyepatchwolf www.youtube.com/watch?v=wL93...

this is the heart of it. "you don't need dysphoria to be trans" is both axiomatic and a truism by virtue of the fact that framing transition around negativity is unhelpful when the joy of euphoria is far more notable. when every day is full of grey clouds, you're going to be shocked by a sunny day.

rewatching vivy fluorite eyes today since one of my favorite authors has been posting about it. still holds up for so many reasons. looks and feels like ghost in the shell, but tastes a little sweeter my transhumanism has always - at least partially - been unexpressed dysphoria, i think

lrs: i have a variety of traumas but one of the keenest ones involves a sick little practical joke regarding motherhood and pregnancy that almost destroyed what was otherwise really good group chemistry. and not being out at the time i couldn't even be honest about why i was so upset about it

CW: infertility one of the many frustrations about being a trans woman is that if you are one of the trans women who dreamt of being a mother and for whom infertility hits really hard, you often don't get any sympathy or space to talk about this except w/ other transfems

i'll be honest it has been a bit up and down lately. today i lost one of my favorite earrings after some issue taking off my facemask after going out, and though the self-injection ultimately went fine, i had to remove the draw needle with a little clamp tool bc i couldn't unscrew it by hand

sonic had a rough transition

first injection, minimum of fuss playing in the big leagues now

I think one of the saddest things about being a millennial is remembering a time when technology was advancing in a way that made life better and easier and more exciting instead of actively, intentionally worse

wishing a pleasant no nuts november to all who celebrate

Every trans woman I know is riddled with guilt for like, existing, and sometimes asking for her needs to be considered. Meanwhile there's guys out here are going "HEY! I accept other human beings have value other than getting me off MOST of the time, PRAISE ME!"

those of you who are afraid of aging, please understand that one of the huge blessings of middle age is arriving at this exact station

I miss the days of early Bluesky when we all agreed that putting screenshots of ragebait losers from other websites on each other's feeds was totally Bad and Uncool and behavior Best Left Behind

struggling with severe dysphoria today that bled in from yesterday, but currently getting ready for electrolysis and a new haircut so maybe things will get better by this evening. really hope so. i could use a win. anything.

yet another must-read from an author who has repeatedly proven herself capable of wielding words with masterful precision, not only to entertain but to teach. i have never regretted taking time to stop and read something of ela's, and this is no exception.

if you haven't read this yet: do. bunny's previous works are comparatively darker and heavier; this is bright and featherlight and glamorous and messily leaking adrenaline from every bit of it, and i cannot praise it enough for everything it does to my head and heart and stomach. brilliant stuff.

finished* product: allegorical work that unlike most of my nonsense is self-contained, no connection to anything else. probably better that way. prose, ~970 words. platonic, vague references to Bad Things but no specifics. approved by all involved. leftoverfelix.blog/2025/10/18/w...

the handle change was either prescience or a self-fulfilling prophecy every word is another wasted. i should be someone's voiceless pet-thing, an ornamental object, a toy. not this hell of trying and failing to communicate

once i get done writing this miserable trauma fic i'll probably throw it on ao3 or something. it's not like i can go any lower as an author at this point proof of existence or smth

i think it's time to run silent again until i actually finish writing something of note. posting and looking at posts is only making me feel worse. sorry.

the first half of my new plot is about a woman who tried to build a perfect life for her daughter but got rejected. so she takes a trans girl and modifies her body into a flying deathweapon capable of killing her ungrateful daughter (now a pilot). not mecha, smaller scale. does this please you

Disabled people can’t “just move” to escape fascism. Moving requires resources, money and health that most of us don’t have. Many countries won’t accept disabled people, especially if they have universal healthcare. People are trapped, so we must fight for them.

i don't think i have enough friends who are actually interested in reading about terrible women to get the feedback i need on this story

513 words of toxic trans yuri and personal demons convalescence is forcing me to write more and i am absolutely delighted by it

i have an idea in the pipeline but mentioning the source of my inspiration would be a serious spoiler about that source. vaguely mil-flavored sf, toxic yuri evolving into wholesome abomination-of-technology yuri. something like that. still going no-painkillers so i might get some work done today.

i wrote a novel (by length) once, then deleted the post about it, as i do. it needs an edit, but i wrote it with love, if not skill. i'd be happy to have your thoughts on it, misshapen thing that it is. www.scribblehub.com/series/13118... archiveofourown.org/works/630120...

"what do you want to write about, then?" mommy issues, tbh. my xiv fanfic's next chapter draft has this line: "i need a mom i can trust when she says 'i love you'." everything i've ever done with cg/l and adjacent themes springs directly from the need to find or build a mom bc mine failed me.

holding off on the painkillers today because i want to write with a clear head, also for other reasons but those aren't relevant. pulled one of the old stories out of storage and smashed 400 words onto it. it's not the story i want to tell, but it's something. a side project is okay too.

Hitch and Hitomi updated refs 🏳️‍⚧️🐈🐁

first thing i remember after anesthesia is my slurred mumbles to the nurse about void stranger. the overhead lighting had a little mesh in it that turned the bright square into a 6x6 grid so that's probably why. hope i didn't spoil anyone while i was under. great trip so far, i rate it 0/2 balls

queer artists drawing bellies, drawing broad shouldered women, happy trails, the curve of arm fat, wrinkles, scars, stubble, girl dick and t dick, cellulite. I see so many things that we're supposed to be ashamed of rendered lovingly, with intent, not just "all bodies are beautiful" but with desire

feeling a little better today. the extra gay parts of void stranger are healing my soul. i really should play zero ranger one of these days...

in an awful quandary where i want feedback on my writing to try and improve it but i'm too depressed to post anything new and all the WIPs taste awful and i can't bear to look at them any more let alone share them or work on them the fascist regime has just about stolen my last shred of joy

good post, no notes

two years now. mostly thinking about more tattoos. trying to be positive but haven't had a lot to say. still alive.

one last post: success for me is reaching the point where someone hears my voice and doesn't immediately 'correct' their previous gendering of me as a woman. i have so far to go and i would like to not be punched in the emotions while i'm trying to do it thanks. good night

Haven't really drawn Grandad many times so, have these two for Gundam Day

meeting up 1/5

i've seen too much of my country to love it blindly and unconditionally, which is what americans generally mean by 'i love my country'. this is exactly the mood.

liking Unicorn is probably why I've been positively disposed to GQuX throughout it's run, tbh. I absolutely believe that it's possible to tell a story about the UC that is earnest and reflective and metatextual and non-Tomino. it's just that GQuX did not succeed at that task

When you’re chronically ill, you learn to play through the pain To push your body when you’re suffering You can’t rest until you “feel better”, because there is no “better” Non disabled people can’t comprehend this, because when they’re sick they have the hope that the next day will be “better”

finished reading MYRMIDON by @proletkvlt.bsky.social today. i might need a drink, but no regrets. thoughts later once they're better collected.

I miss when there were grocery stores open past midnight. Listen, I don't like lines and I don't like crowds. Walking into a grocerateria at 2 AM to buy discounted baked goods and sodey pop was good for my night owl soul. After COVID, everyone works normal human hours. It's bullshit.

my bedroom isn't /quite/ this pretty but i do have a blahaj, an eggbug, a toothpick, and a purple pet bed. and they are all wonderful. and so is pink! if you have the money to spare, you should really consider getting some of her wonderful art. =w=