Everyone online is banging in about The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron (it's on my list) but this is my next read. It seems a logical primer before tackling the actionable plan. Are you an #artist who's read this? What did you think?

Finished labeling, panning, selecting & making palette Index cards. Big #watercolour, small #gouache. More essential tasks done. A few of the pans will remain mystery paints & most tubes will have to be reclaimed as time goes on but for now I got the basics covered. #art #painting

A specific hill I'm willing to die on is that the JFK jur Autism/ADHD "it's just a trend diagnosis" skeptics would get silent REALLY fckn quick if they ended up evaluating US military personnel. Much like the other cans of worms I suspect they know well but won't dare nudge open.

Unclench your jaw. Relax your brow. Go get a drink of water. See if you've taken your meds Eat something. Doesn't matter what you look like right now, i think you look amazing. Because you do. You're a wonderful person. And have this. 🫂🖤 you did great today. You made it through

Another day, another street find. That'll be the next painting

I somehow managed to severly compact the nerves in my shoulder so I can't sit down for long sessions but I'm making good progress on this in shorter stints. Next steps: adding/balancing colours & contrast, then the next stage of details in metallic Kuretake and ink #art #watercolor #abstactart

Whoever it is who's having a severe midlife crisis in my neighborhood right now, I hope you're ok man

Ages ago I got a bunch of used watercolour supplies off Facebook for 20£. Crazy good deal. Hadn't touched my own in a long time. Now I feel a tiny, faint spark to paint again. It's an emotional process. Been cleaning up & organizing the mystery palettes & unlabeled pans. Now I'm ready to swatch.

Me: browsing for field drawing tools specifically for architecture. This fits all my needs 😂

Got diagnosed with severe dust mite allergies yesterday, the most troublesome of contact allergies imho - I already have severe pollen allergies + asthma. The Hat Man doesn't scare people with severe allergy diseases, that fucker owes me money

I'm not used to my government doing something right for a change - it's a specifically germanic flavour of the whole "sovereign citizen" one trick pony.

Bothered. Cracked skin. Unhappy. Off course. Unfocused. Withering.

Yes hello one of my autistic special interests is NOT GOOD for my mental health, please advise

Spring feels like nature trying to cheer up a soggy, rotting sandwich by throwing glitter at it. I'm the sandwich and it's working (just a little bit)

Was looking at assets for flyers involving metaphorical bridges and these... decidedly did NOT make think about Bungee jumping at first. But good to know if you ever need pictograms for when the next fash leader gets publicly "freed"

When I say I feel like a plant this is what I mean

"Turning point: The Bomb and the Cold War" is very good. To say I enjoy it would trivialize my anxiety over current events & their direct implications on europe but it's better to understand more about why things are happening.

General elections in Germany tomorrow. There has been a palpable uptick in pushback against critique of Z*n!st aggression as Antisemitism on social media, particularly in leftist circles. It's important not to ignore Jewish voices but this reeks of psyop. Genocide is Genocide.

It was one of my go-to's when I had to pull all-nighter for college. Dracula & the LOTRs too but there's something about Aliens I find so good as a nice, long background comfort movie. Return of the King made me cry at 4am in the middle of an assignment& that was rather counterproductive

Movie you watched more than 6 times, gifs only

Today I learned about Golden Tabby Tigers, a rare colour morph of the already highly endangered Bengal Tiger. This is Ava from Bangkok. Also pictured, heir apparent of mine house & certified good boy, Vision from the streets Gingers have my heart 🧡

I ended up starting again. The off-kilter colours of the first try bothered me so much. I treated it as a failed swatch & used the opportunity to adjust a bit. Much happier with the work now, it's coming along nicely. 1st now, 2nd before

It honestly irks me up how so many fellow ND's, especially Americans diss other ND's online. In germany "Aspergers" is sadly still widely & officially used to describe ASD, especially in adults. We know it's bad. But to communicate & get the needed accommodations we're still forced to use the term.

The finishing is always my least favourite part of a project. But things like blocking make SUCH difference. Pictured: crochet lace panel, intended as a cover for an unsightly utility shelf, pinned to black blocking boards. Part of the panel is blocked, the rest is still in it's natural state

My MH has been shithouse - so I'm trying to destress with some crochet. HOWEVER the colourwork pattern being off-kilter is proving to be a tough challenge for my pathological perfectionism, causing me more stress. I want to rip it up so badly 🥲

Can we not please

Talking about my struggles with authenticity, creative identity & how distraught I am by the death of David Lynch, last week I had to reconcile the fact that my counselour, about the same age as me, had no idea who I was talking about She didn't even know Twin Peaks. Not sure how to feel about it

Yes! I posted a couple snippets from this book yesterday, and it's an essential text for understanding the influence of the US on the Nazis.

I haven't been on any dating apps in years. How bad is it now? Have the straight men started to fuck each other yet? I feel like I'll spontaneously catch fire if I dare to download Hinge

Neen researching the permian/triassic mass extinction event for my story today and NGL this feels cosmic. Give me back my weird little bivalves and crinoids in exchange for the venture bros.

I've been so balls-deep in writing today that is actually scares me a little. It's a violent kind of inspiration, it just pulls you along. The day just flew by.

Excitement, panic, might throw up. I just started writing down thoughts a couple of weeks ago. It just started to flesh out & mutate until I realised what I originally had in mind for it doesn't fit the material any more. It's now starting to look suspiciously novel-shaped. Good lord.

I surprised myself lately by venturing into unknown waters - I started outlining what might become a book someday. But it doesn't feel like work. I'm so engaged in the flow, the time just flies by & before I know it the day is over. Maybe that's a good thing?

I'm deep in the existential trenches with the death of David Lynch. Maybe having laced my brain with intense readings of Simone de Beauvoir & Albert Camus in the last few weeks have primed me for his passing to hit me even harder. I want to smoke a cigarette so bad it's not funny.

I miss David Lynch so much already. My little weirdo heart is grieving a titan of art. Total GILF

Quick, spoiler-free review of The Fisherman by John Langan & an appeal to authors who want to utilize foreign languages in their stories: Authors, in the age of social media it cost you nothing to ask a native speaker for some simple grammar advice. You WILL have readers that are native speakers.

I watched "Exhuma" the other day (which I highly recommend) and kept thinking about some other movies that seemed to have a similar vibe to them: The Priests & Svaha: The 6th Finger. Humbled & somewhat chuffed that I sniffed it out when I saw it's the same director, Jang Jae-hyun 😂

It's a quiet afternoon & I'm in the mood for something familiar so I'm rewatching "The Incantation". One reason I adore Taiwanese horror in particular is because Taiwanese Mandarin is so pretty. Everytime I watch something Taiwanese I'm struck by how beautiful it sounds.

"ADHD is such a fashion diagnosis these days" Some 19 y/o Wehrmacht grunt in a Scandinavian forest in '41 who just slammed 4 Pervitin, feeling at peace for the first time ever:

Sometimes I seriously wonder how my raging AuDHD was missed for 35 years - not me approaching a level of feeling at peace/ somewhat normal after 200mg of caffeine. I will also block you immediately if you merely _think_ about uttering words akin to "Curing Dopamine addiction" in my presence.

Finally got round to watching "Late Night with the Devil" Haven't enjoyed a horror flick this much in a good long while. Dastmalchian -and everyone else in the cast- is utterly delightful

Clip Studio Paint is advertising aggressively on me right now and I'd lie if I said I'm not tempted. I just have a dinky little Dell Notebook though & my Wacom is almost 17 years old now so I think I'll pass this time 😭

Also, Happy Winter Solstice my fellow filthy Heathens 💫

I always thought I'd age into a graceful, ethereal cottage grandma that bakes award-winning german pies. Instead I find myself radicalized into a malicious noncompliant Molotov lovechild of Werner Herzog, Miriam Margoyles and Slavoj Žižek

CW: Rant about Body Dismorphia, EDs, body shaming I'm sick to death of mainstream Alt/Goth culture's obsession with conventionally attractive, youthful, "perfect", pin up sex-appeal. I wanna see old, fat, wrinkly goths. Flabby tits, flat asses, pores & stretch marks, normal aging bodies.

Finally remembered to put his lil guy on my jacket

I was not prepared for how good DANDADAN is. Mappa didn't have to go this hard man. And Otonoke is banger too

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It's my birthday week! I'm turning 35 and it's all so nice and round. It's been a hard but important year. I'm happy to still be here.