Oh my god my roommate told me she thinks Charlie came to visit me because a cardinal came by the house and was in the window I feel tiny. I miss my bubby

I am home at my house. I will be packing a bag. I will be on my PC. I will be processing everything I’ll be right back. I am not trying to claim victim hood. I am just. Wow. Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!???

I wouldn’t normally bring attention to this. I don’t want to. I don’t want to ask for help But today when I told one of my boss’s that i haven’t missed a day this month until all of this happened, he scoffed and said “You really blew that one didn’t you?” There is no HR I need help

One of my managers just laughed at me and said things aren’t looking good for me

I’m still sick. I’m on my way to work. Going to figure out how to handle today.

How am I supposed to do this without you?

This is all I could muster after years of not drawing. This was hard. Charlie I’m sorry it’s not the best, I’m sorry I haven’t kept up drawing to make you something better. I’ll work on it, I promise. I know you’d still love it. I miss you. I love you.

I'm going to miss you, you loveable fucking goofball.

the love you radiated is eternal. as evident in those that knew you. rest easy, my friend 💛

I showered today for the first time since Monday, so that’s nice. Pray I sleep before 10 or 11 and pray I stay asleep until I have to wake up for work. Thank you again to my friends that bought me meals. You don’t know what it means to me

🧡 @gooddaycharlie.bsky.social

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Also - mom’s birthday was today, I was in bed all day. We’ve been getting along so much better this last year. So I will try to have a dinner with her either tomorrow or sometime this weekend after class. My head feels less fuzzy as of like two hours ago, so I think I’m finally starting to heal

The notifications are starting to slow, but I’m still getting a lot of them (which isn’t bad. Just a lot) So if I missed anyone or anything, sorry. Thanks for your patience As for telegram, I will get with everyone when I can breathe

I have ripped off all of the skin on my lips with my teeth. I have to work tomorrow. The song they once sent me when I was feeling down has been non stop playing in my head, against my will I can’t get a solid 8 hours and I keep feeling like this is all made up More issues came up. So much

Charlie also, and I’m sorry. My heads been so fuzzy that I feel it’s important to mention this. I didn’t intend to not. Charlie leaves behind two nephews. They are very young boys and the oldest is very crushed. Will keep posted if there’s anything we can do

My meds, tests and food, liquids, comfort items like iPad, slippers sleep pants, and switch and headphones etc etc etc are all at my house and it is 40 minutes from where I am I will be okay. Just venting frustration. I think I’m only eating and sleeping because of how sick I am. Deleting later

The plan is to eat a meal my sweet friend bought me, sleep more, then try and drive to my house before the sun goes down to either get my things, and come back, or stay home entirely (I live out in the country so only Amazon goes out there and it’s further from work than my mom’s)

It feels crazy to me that I have to get back into the normal routine while I’m still grieving,but bills still need to be paid. I’ll be back to posting today and I need to open back up for new work for Feb.But please never forget Charlie, repost photos/videos/the GFM and love each other a bit harder.

I woke up the same level of sick. I don’t know if it’s Covid or just a really nasty sinus infection or what. I feel beyond terrible, I am pissing off my work with the days I’m missing (I called out a lot last year) and I am losing so much money I feel so. Lost. I don’t know. I don’t understand

I need to eat a meal without it going cold I need to shower I need to sleep I need to be off of my phone I still don’t feel good I am so sick

Struggling to draw and drawing is a safe space for me when shit happens. It’s making everything so much harder and I just feel constantly frustrated on top of the pain. Thank you to everyone that’s reached out and been so kind. Everything is hard and passing weirdly right now. I miss my friend.

Furry friends, IDPollution has also graciously put together plans for a charity art stream If this is an interest to you, please gather with them and support them

I have said a lot of “my uncle this my uncle that” for years lmao But I am from a large Hispanic family with 6 uncles + married in uncles. Each one has felt like an additional father to me We have, over the last decade, lost 3 of them tragically. I have lost a lot. Of people. This past decade.

When my uncle died, yall bought badges from me so I could fly to say goodbye to him When my ex fiancée had left me suddenly a day after saying “I’m not going anywhere”, yall stepped in, helped me fund a new apartment + storage money It is. Hard for me to receive help again. I feel I owe yall.

Sharky, from the Hellaverse Fandom and alike, had graciously reached out to me regarding this eulogy collective and has extended the offer to the Furry Community as well Please feel free to participate if you’d like to, and the finish product will be given to Ben

I slept a little. A lot of folks have asked me if they can send me money and that’s so kind of you But I feel like a dick receiving it. But admittedly I also need help Prioritize Ben first. I don’t know what to give yall for me. I don’t know how to do this

This is Ben Please be kind to him. Please give him your energy, your strength, your love and support I love you Ben. I love you forever.

I’m going to sleep now. I will try and check in later.

I am the weakest I’ve ever been. I will delete this later Please be mindful. This isn’t about my friends, mutuals and anyone who’s been gracious reaching out to me. If you reached out to me in kindness on telegram or facebook, this isn’t about you. I promise.

Throughout all of my loss, throughout my entire life, I’ve never felt so unsure of what tomorrow looks like From October to now, we tragically lost @strawberrymiche.bsky.social , my friend Tracy, and now God has taken my very BEST friend This isn’t about me. But WHEN am I /are we allowed to rest?

This is the last TikTok they sent me. It is gutting me over and over and over and over and over and over I don’t know how I’m going to do this. I’ve been mostly speechless. I don’t know. I don’t know. www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8f91aHs/

They let me go home. They were very kind. I don’t know how I’m making rent this month. I don’t know how I’m going to make thing happen. I hate money. I am praying that God above can make a way I am in shambles. I don’t know where to go from here. I’m sick and I just want to get better.

I’m on my way to work now to show them how sick I am, to let them know what happened I’m really sick and feel really terrible, and my commute is an hour and 20 minutes or so This is so hard

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To quote a song Charlie once sent me when I was down, "I've been on the brink of broken Stripped to my shadow on the floor Like the broken bones inside my body I will be stronger than before" I love you bub. I love you critter. I love you Charles. I love you Zenny.

RIP @gooddaycharlie.bsky.social — we didn’t talk as much as i’d like to, but i always thought you were very sweet and a genuine pleasure to talk to when we did… it was an honor to draw your sona and i hope wherever you are now, you can rest easy 😔❤️‍🩹💛

Everyone’s telling me to take care of myself But I don’t know how. My whole world has stopped. And I have to ask work tomorrow for time off that I know they’ll fight me on and I am just so full of rage and fatigue all at once. And I’m sick. And I need a new job. And I’m behind on rent. FUCK!!!!!

Let there be love, let there be light ☀️ @gooddaycharlie.bsky.social

REAL QUICK I know folks have told me to talk to Ben and give regards Could you please send them right here? I’m compiling them for him

Alright, Everyone Furry, ATLA, Hellaverse Anyone who’s lives were ever touched by Charlie’s love and light Please share this to help Benjamin www.gofundme.com/f/honoring-c...

We Love You, Charlie 💫

I don't have the words right now, but we lost the brightest light in our fandom. Thank you @theimpishkid.bsky.social for being my friend

Charlie, you were always looking on the bright side of things, always encouraging everyone to do their best and stay strong. I always admired that about you and wanted to be like you, pushing others forward. I'll keep doing what you always told me to do and just do my best. I love you, Buddy. 🌌

I was and am so sad to learn of @gooddaycharlie.bsky.social's passing. They've always been so kind and supportive. I remember getting to chat at cons and nerding out over dance together, cheering for each other, and admiring their art. I still have the gift badge they made for me on my board.

Ben and Charlie were married in 2022 But they’ve been together since junior high/high school days. Ben lost his entire life in one swipe. This is so unfair. Let him breathe and go through the motions he’s obligated to go through. And then be ready to surround him in warmth

Please be thinking of Ben today. Please. Please. Don’t overwhelm him, but don’t overlook him. Don’t flood or spam him. Just be thinking of him and be ready to love on him I have zero tolerance today. I have zero spoons. I am angry. Please be mindful. My best friend was ripped away from us

Please be thinking of Ben today. Please. Please.

Charlie ❤️

It's not so much how much time is spent. I think it's the quality of the time spent. You were a quality person. Thanks for shining your light in all the dark corners of this world. Good Day Charlie, and goodbye. Until next time. @gooddaycharlie.bsky.social