i dont see myself ever free of this disorder and ive been nauseous from hunger for hours now + my fucking eye is about to explode because of the migraine that started around an hour ago

i relapsed. hello everyone

i bet it feels nice to be physically repulsed by food and have no appetite at all

it took me several years of my life to realise that i actually severely dislike breaded chicken or turkey and that the animal protein leaves an extremely weird aftertaste in my mouth

25th birthday today i have become an unc

when i started developing an ED i always held on to this idea that if i got sick enough that life would stop and everyone would care about me, fawn over me, and all the horrible adult expectations of the world would just be replaced with everyone wanting me to get better. but its just not true is it

was that a nice interaction or did i just have an autism blunder: an autobiography by me

i feel like this image everytime i force myself to cook and drag myself into the kitchen and then overcook my gyozas making them look like 9/11 victims

going to bed on a vacuum empty stomach im so fucking normal about food and life.

IT PISSES ME OFF SO FUCKING MUCH THAT YOU STILL HAVE TO EAT EVEN WHEN YOURE INCREDIBLY BUSY AND/OR INVESTED INTO SOMETHING AND CANT AFFORD TO TAKE BREAKS LIKE WHAT THE FUCKKKKK WGAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKK ABOLISH FOOD NOW FOOD IS IMMORAL AND SHOULDN'T EXIST

revolutionary idea... what if i stop eating

vegan japchae

i really envy people with high TDEEs because my maintenance calorie limit is barely 1200 and whenever i restrict i can fucking feel it

im tired of going to bed hungry to the point of nausea and waking up hungry

i fucked up these 4 gyozas so fucking bad this image belongs to r/kitchencels

im ugly and i have zero skills and prospectives but i know for sure my life would be better if my face was thinner

food is just food it has no value for me neither symbolical cultural or any other one whatsoever its not important and i can waste it or refuse it (gaslighting myself) food is literally nothing

dinner

I recall seeing a few others doing this some days or weeks ago, thought I could try it (*´▽`*)

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i dont look like an emaciated teenage boy and im going to punish myself for it for the rest of my life

doing CIA level manipulation on myself to convince that im not interested in eating its undesirable gross and uninteresting and that i avoid it because its simply not for me

going out tomorrow with my new friend i hope she likes me. im going to eat whatever i want in a restaurant ive chosen and if im strong i will fast the rest of the day after a lunch

i fucking hate food eating and myself i wish i was hit by a cra

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nothing funnier than low carb diet makes you miserable and unbelievably angry at 2am

464 kcal midnight dinner

i got more or less to my old weight and im able to look relatively small in XS again (unless every single piece of XS clothing i tried was too huge) but i still feel like a whale

i love being a chud with an eating disorder what do you mean im one secodn away from ending my life because i felt immense hunger and ate a pain au chocolat at 1AM

ive really been into skipping meals lately. no dishes fridge empty going to sleep wide awake and paranoid

our speaker is like here are some wholesome optimistic sources for your preparation for PhD 😇 and on the slideshow black on white theres some article that says 'PhD SERIOUSLY DAMAGES YOUR HEALTH'

ive been finding it increasingly hard to restrict once the semester has begun i cant focus on anything im constantly dizzy and i swear to god every my fucking classmate hears mu rumblling stomach

the answer to all that is cocaine probbally ngl

tgey shpuld invent a type of diet that gives you energy to be an adult and do your tasks as well as suppresses your appetite completely and makes you lose weight

fasting today. i feel weak and a little bit unreal, i hope i will have enough forces to wake up in 4 hours (i have a train trip extremely early in the morning)

видеоигры позволяют воплощать в жизнь самые неисполнимые желания

I need to be fragile and effortlessly soft, something people want to protect and hold. I need to be the cold one in the room, with wrists so small you can hold both in one hand, with a body so light people gasp when they pick me up, so when I borrow clothes I look precious instead of greedy.

im having so much grievances with food its hilarious in a way. im considering failing my masters and killingmyself because i cant eat and function

fasting is very difficult, you feel dizzy and want to lay down 24/7

i know for sure i dont have body dysmoprhia because i know exactly how i look like and it makes me want to injure myself and commit suicide

i planned to only eat a light breakfast today, got very hungry and dizzy at 10PM and decided that if i want to wake up early tomorrow and clean the apartment i needed to eat so i ordered takeout (missed my chance to go grocery shopping today). it was shit it sucked and i lost a lot of money on it

i ended up overeating

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