i'm so good as asking people out, but i can count the number of times i've been asked out on a date i didn't have to plan on a single hand, and have digits left over, y'know what i mean?

after asking for advice that's peculiar to being single and actively dating in the trans surgery discord: "i don't have to worry about that with my wife" "between my partner and gf's i don't really have time to date or do parties" "it's impossible, i think, so im not bothering trying" lol. lmao.

so tired of waiting for other people to figure themselves out, like mere contact with me is a contagion for existential questions

she's a 10, but she's a sagittarius and doesn't understand what internal thoughts are

i want to be light and fun, why can't my life be light and fun??

i have a body i finally love, and i feel like im never going to be able to share it with anyone

i fucking hate dilating. i hate that i can't be spontaneous and just go with the flow how the hell am i supposed to explore deepening connections while staying comfortable in it is a choice between:

something about that news is making me very angry, and i can't shake the suspicion that it's part of the intended effect

EVERYTHING COMES BACK TO BODY AUTONOMY. guess what gender is? BODY AUTONOMY. it is about WHO is allowed to do WHAT with THEIR BODY. administration of exogenous sex hormones is value neutral; the core difference between this and a trans person is that one supports the fascist regime and one does not.

"i wonder what i taste like" and other perfectly normal 10:30p thoughts to cross my brain

LIVE BROADCASTING FROM THE DIVINE REALM ANGEL BEATS INCOMING

asymmetry when you're starting out from single again sucks i don't doubt the feelings, but i need more than i can possibly be given rn

transmisogyny is misogyny anything that devalues our womanhood devalues womanhood

eventually, every regular wonders what gossip about themselves has been spilled in the staff group chat

i need a bestie i can scream into the void with

sometimes i still think about the guy who saw me on the metro and decided he needed to write and show me a notes app message that said i had an amazing body, but i needed ffs i hope he got hit by a train

i wonder what my mom says when people ask her about her son

what if i blew my life up, quit my job, and committed full time to following a passion, like DJing?

i'm tired of self work, i wanna be messy and have other people clean up after me… hmmpf!

once again, i am noticing how the way my ex-spouse treated me towards the end is still setting up catastrophic anxiety spirals just because i want to get closer to someone *sigh* at least i notice and catch them before acting now, but fuck i need a hug

claim for mold in my place is now getting kicked to the liability dept, because my landlord sounds like they're trying to blame me for it i'm just so tired dawg

if you give a girl a cheese plate, she’ll ask for a glass of wine

at a certain point i'm just gonna have to admit that i have a pattern of attracting amazingly cool, unique and hot women into my life, aren't i?

Happy pride! Here are some types of nonmonosexual people I love: ☆ bigender poly antishippers ☆ Puerto Rican butch people living in diaspora ☆ abrosexual bigender furries ☆ femme people ☆ aporagender people who aren't out at work ☆ Black intersex demiromantic YouTubers

nice of graham to eat it on a day there's no world cup game, so the celebratory posting can continue unabated

i'm halfway through season 1 of she-ra and i think i understand the show

lowkey kinda loving texting less with people im just starting to get to know woman i had a date with on wednesday just decided to drop into our regular bar tonight. wasn't expecting her, she had no clue i was there, it was a happy surprise for both of us, and i kinda love this serendipitous shit

[pounding on the table] HAT TRICK! HAT TRICK! HAT TRICK!

i need a chill night in with friends, i think

the feels were i wish i were me in my 20s are strong this evening

that unease when you're feeling like you're in a new pattern, but the precedents are the same as the old pattern, and the new resolution hasn't landed yet, so you can't be certain your intuition is correct over the nervous system just yet

it's getting legit hot out, and i'm still not allowed to swim this is bullshit

i woke up this morning finally understanding why they call it being "in heat", and now i'm questioning if i've ever actually been properly horny in my life prior to surgery😵‍💫

mmmmph… might of yearning fuuuuck, been a bit since i felt this

there has got to be a word for expressing that a specific thing is good, but in general i need what it can't give rn

guys are easy. you just sit there and nod and they carry the entire conversation themselves, like, wtf? how can you not get a man? (i do not want this one pls save me)

a bit of absence is good, esp in the beginning of things, but lord, i am HORNY, and i need lips on mine at least

the gay beatles be like: cum together ….. right now…….. all over me……

realizing my "risky text" is like "hey, i'm at the same place we're both at frequently, and would like to see you if you're free!" and maybe i need to let go a bit and not consider that risky lol lmao

i've been seeing red whenever i've opened the app all day long, because yet again, people i am close to and care about are caught in the fire exactly because they want to be good and understanding people, and they get bullshit equivocation and minimization of their own abuse as a reward it's fucked

embrace not knowing & not controlling

there are sex pests and there are eggs. there are no grunglers.

so *now* can we talk about cis guys adding fake pronouns to gain access to trans women??? because i'm fucking tired of this shit, y'all

I was @ripperoni.com's girlfriend for 4 and 1/2 years. In June 2022, I attempted suicide. My mental health collapsed, and I desperately needed rehabilitation, but (In-person) Ripperoni became my sole caretaker. I was a blank slate to be molded, unmoving and spiraling for most of the day.

if your partner is financially reliant on you that doesnt give you a greater say in how they live. if leaving you would mean their destitution you hold a tremendous amount of coercive power. how are you using it?

also i think i just witnessed by new bestie for life (some girl i just met and swapped instas with) meet her new boyfriend (some guy she just met on the dancefloor), and i gotta say, they're kinda hot together lol

nothing wrong, but realizing men will just approach me now, and maybe i really *should* carry the pepper spray she got for me

this dj just played the halo theme into his own song lmao

thinking i might brave it and go home for the holidays this year

oh.