my stress is wildly overflowing to the point at which i want INCREDIBLY deranged fanfic of the anime men that are my stress balls but unfortunately there either isn't any and i have to write it myself or i've already read it.

the x2 prequel manga always dehydrates me 🤲 thank you

Nobody's promised tomorrow

"if you play this controversial game you will go to hell" "if you have crazy sex you will go to hell" "if you do one drug you will go to hell" brother, god is not here. i am

we are having a party on the sixth and originally it was going to be outside but it's supposed to be raining so now i am like. shit i gotta buy bulk slippers for inside or my friends will forget to take their damn shoes off

Fireworks. Inspired by some lovely cosplayers who I can't find now! If anyone knows please tag em #soukoku #skk #bungostraydogs #bsd #bsdfanart #fanart

me linking my friends the doc i just compiled with pbs of characters i grabbed from anime bc i can't draw and i refuse to use AI:

apparently the only album i listened to was akatsuki's single?? also WOW i was going through it this year

woke up with a whole otome game scripted in my head? that was bizarre. tried making it bl/gl in my head... doesn't work??? tried thinking if i could write it as a novel or even a series of novels... nope. so maybe i'll script that for fun sometime

the national guard just tried to recruit me... bitch you don't want me i'm disabled, chronically ill, and chronically someone else's problem

one test down, 2-3 to go, 4-7 days of school left depending on how well i did on this one

genuinely have no idea how well i did on that test and he hasn't graded any of my labs since like week 2 so I'm just praying I get above a 75 bc then i can pull off a B. that's all i need. i don't even need an A. I'll get an A next time. please

dressed extremely cute for class today complete with haru urara shirt on the principle of i can do it, wish me luck on my test. i have not slept.

(I'm Not Okay mcr playing increasingly louder as if from 200 radios all offset ever so slightly with a third of them being out of tune in different directions while i drink an entire pot of coffee straight from the coffee maker, still in the pot)

The way you can tell "AI" is the future is because one of the most popular searches is "How do I get this AI shit out of my computer"

i have an important test today and got 0 sleep last night! not even a dreamlike haze or anything. wide fucking awake for 8 hours.

oh look my fay flourite journal is almost old enough to vote also what the HELL i read trc ON THE RECOMMENDATION OF THE PERSON WHO IS NOW MY WIFE. IT'S BEEN THAT LONG? IT'S BEEN? THAT LONG? CRYING

sleeping in another room bc of the dogs (they've been keeping me up while we dog sit) and my little shadows are like. momther. momther make room. momther,

there's an owl hooting outside my window wtf

you know i feel like kyouka diving out of the train w the bomb should have instantly qualified her for agency membership actually lol like that is more than dazai did if we're being honest... the entire thing with the plane was unnecessary

frankly, just having to explain what i mean when i say "valuation" is hard bc the longer answer is "i tell privately held businesses how much their stock is worth by comparing it to publicly held companies and then doing math" and sometimes people are like. ok. but. what the fuck? BC MONEY IS FAKE

This is actually quite brilliant, up to and including the final sentence 🔥

these r my daily wear rings and the final one comes off a lot bc i can't write comfortably with it bc it sits on my thumb until i get it resized. so as you can see theyre pretty simple

place your bets on how far through bsd i get while studying for finals

was reading people complaining about people who don't take their (wedding) rings off when they cook/clean and how they must be "super disgusting" and i was REALLY confused (bc my rings are also on when i wash my hands) until i realized they all had rings w set stones

yall remember in like '01 when bush was doin the patriot act and shit and everyone was like "opposing this is unpatriotic" and then there were like 2 voices of reason going "this sets a terrible precedent for the privacy of americans"? man those people must be smug and despairing in equal amounts rn

god having a panel at 1230am saturday is going to be wild, i hope there is no expectation of sobriety. i feel like by 1230am running a bsd panel i am going to be taking shots straight from a bottle of vodka

Sure, they've made an environmentally catastrophic mass hallucination disinformation plagiarism Clippy that will destabilize the world, but also their other goal is to replace human workers entirely and let us humans starve. A boycott of AI is the most important boycott of your entire life.

my panel got approved for 1230-2am???? girl... i might have to decline that one for the first time ever bc that's way past your boys bedtime even at an anime con... I'll sit on it and see how i feel but I'm not even sure attendance would be great for a bsd dead authors panel at 1am

writers artists 🤝 getting our best work 🤝 done at 2am 🤝 🤝 criminals santa claus

korean is more impenetrable to me than Chinese is?? i see how you are spelling the words. and then. they are just. pronounced entirely differently. this is like learning gaelic (I'm not learning Korean actively but i usually have picked up more than 2 words by watching TV..)

just remembered i had a dream last night that i was passionately defending persona 3-5 as amazing but "hadn't played 1-2" which is really funny bc I'm pretty sure I've played more of 1-2 than i have of 3, and i fucking hate 3 (sorry) and would never defend it. what a bizarre dream

i feel sometimes like i don't get everything out of stories and i miss things and whatnot but everytime i open a reddit i am forced to acknowledge that people are so fucking stupid actually

I hate that more and more in fandom spaces I find myself asking people "so did you watch/read this" and get "no I read the wiki/watched a video" back

I think about this tweet a lot

my cat literally just shut my pc down in the middle of hw lmao

god, bsd is what got me OUT of my last burn out slump circa 2022ish.. i really really wonder if it'll be bsd that pulls me out this time or if it'll be xillia or something completely left field. i reread 07 ghost or some shit. i start writing gay porn but of my straight girl otomes

turns bsd on while i do my math homework to see if it reignites my brain which has burnt tf out this year bc of school. i really.. i really miss my hobbies.. i miss writing..

bc like. nah, bro

since i cleaned my office, i have a fanfic outline taped to my desk and now i stare at it every fucking day and i'm like man. writing sounds like so much fun. as soon as i'm done with my tests

今日のプレイ日記らくがき。 やっぱりね、ハ・ミルでの例のシーンは何回みてもアルジュ。 ジュード君が精神的に病んでるし、アルも病んでるし。宵闇の腐女子心が騒ぐのです……。 多分、ジュード君は言葉で言われても押し倒されてもまだ気付かないというかわかってない。 上着脱がされてから初めて気付いて「やだ……！」って声あげる。

did a bunch of cleaning bc i can't study while having a dissociative anxiety attack (you have to be inside your body to study, i think) so . time to finish the infinikki msq!

hit the point a minute ago (started at "i can't find (x thing), should i just give up an order a new one or clean the entire house until i find it") and ended with ("...and that's why i should drop out of school, cancel all my social committments, and be unconscious in bed until february")

"sorry, I'm really comfy, warm, and I've got snacks" is becoming more and more a valid reason to not go out as I've aged