I'm here again. Probably real fucked, as per usual... guhhhh

I'm here again. Probably real fucked, as per usual... guhhhh

anyone want to help a girl eat tonight? and not get in massive mounting debt? here's my Kofi, if you can help ko-fi.com/marstruc

I had to do it

I once again posit that at least 1% of the US DOD budget goes towards Furry Porn, ultimately. And that's a good thing.

i should math out what it would take to move out... I know what my budget could be after, but what are the costs of moving themselves? Start to end.

It's that easy. 🎨: Anne Elizabeth

anyone want to help a girl eat tonight? and not get in massive mounting debt? here's my Kofi, if you can help ko-fi.com/marstruc

Feel like this needs to be spread around. Artwork by @/simple_nicks on twitter.

I don't think I can take commissions ever again. I just... need to fix me. No pressure.

Something that kills me. Knowing that everything about my circumstances keeps pulling me back to zero. And that's including me. My anxiety, my need to help people, my refusal to take from those who need it so, much, more, when my life is just... It's a rock, unmoving in the face of time. Still.

this felt too informative not to share

fyi, doing my occasional 'here's an invite to my small Korps-adjacent server', for if you're interested in exploring the setting, getting to know folks, etc. discord.gg/SJQs7wYH

#mutualaid #bills

fyi, doing my occasional 'here's an invite to my small Korps-adjacent server', for if you're interested in exploring the setting, getting to know folks, etc. discord.gg/SJQs7wYH

So it hit, and by the end of the week I am going to be down £250 -at least-... just... fuck. I'm fucked. If anyone can help me clear that, I would be very grateful! I'm so tired of drowning every month in this... ko-fi.com/marstruc

So it hit, and by the end of the week I am going to be down £250 -at least-... just... fuck. I'm fucked. If anyone can help me clear that, I would be very grateful! I'm so tired of drowning every month in this... ko-fi.com/marstruc

It's, ah... that time of the month again. Gotta clear... so much of a negative balance coming up, and I ran out of my sleep meds. I sure love having to use private healthcare because the NHS won't cover it.

It's, ah... that time of the month again. Gotta clear... so much of a negative balance coming up, and I ran out of my sleep meds. I sure love having to use private healthcare because the NHS won't cover it.

like a 2

It's Science.

almost out of sleep meds, router is acting like a bitch, keep being reminded of my non-existent birthday and how everyone else's is better because people plan stuff and give gifts and show them they care. just... fucking end it.

Last night was handed a Raifu and told that we needed to go shoot hitler SO THATS WHAT WERE GBONNA DO Featuring @marstruc.bsky.social as our cleanup partner we dive into Sniper Elite 5 (never played it so this should be fun) Tonight at 7pm EST! twitch.tv/threefootpony

TIME TO GO STOMP ON SOME NAZI'S (and i think I have alerts working) ANYWAYS WE LIVE!! COME ON AND HANG!!!

why is there always this nagging feeling of being "other" in a bad way? of not being wanted...

guhh, that time of month again, and this time I have an appointment tomorrow and no way to get there. help a girl out with food/getting to the hospital? ko-fi.com/marstruc

i just dont like yinglets...

I made this meme for all of you. You know what to do.

Do NOT engage. Do not quote dunk, do not screencap. Do not @ with your witty zingers. Give them not one breath of oxygen here. Block, ignore, move on.

you ever feel like a portent of doom? i do.

i just want some ice cream, man

hey gang, time to throw my lil hat in the ring! surprise car work of a very necessary variety has asked quite a few dollars of me. any help is appreciated! gofund.me/6eefd5811

i can't let myself get so in my head again but at the same time i can't help but wonder who would notice.

maybe i should just stop. stop venting, stop crying, stop moaning. stop existing... couldn't even follow through with that if I tried

all i do is set people off by fucking existing. because im trans, because i live in a shit situation, because i just... exist. what's the point.

why am i such a shit person

i saw this and i’m not gonna lie i needed to see this. i hope it helps others not feel guilty that we can’t do more

trying to not feel lonely

wonderful, getting to that point of being out of money... again... fuck.

I don't really know what to do for food right now. Hungry, but got to be careful. Between money and having to be *real* careful about sugar right now, mmm... Fuck.

Chiitan has a dream. I hope that one day the term LGBT will become a thing of the past. I will continue to spread my message until we live in a world where everyone can love freely and is free from persecution and discrimination. Until then, let's all support each other🤍

Okay I said eventually, but I ended up doing them while I couldn't sleep

so not only has the last week sucked, but now it turns out I'm HIGHLY DIABETIC and probably have been for a year. its hard not to let my mood drop into the fucking gutter. im honestly angry at myself.

Note to self, LibreWolf does not like uploading to BlueSky...

Lanthanide, the result of the noctide brainrot I got hit with. Been sat on them for a few days, very much good shape to be in. Missing a couple of things here, but they'll be done eventually. Also definitely didn't result in a new headmate, nope, definitely not.

Switching to LibreWolf took me like an hour, and I will slowly but surely have to log back in to everything That said At least it's privacy focused

so, IOU and a scoff. great birthday presents