[smoking two cigarettes at once] Pessimism of the intellect, optimism of the will.

watching baby reindeer and this dude fucks up at every opportunity, huh?

clinic just called me and told me that they don’t work with my new employer provided insurance whatsoever at their texas location. what a fucking nightmare

Expect to see a lot of this classic Onion headline, from 23 years ago, over the coming weeks.

gotta say, life is a lot better without a slowly climbing fever

i think i’m going to scream. looks like a bunch of my claims for my electrolysis are continuing to go through wrong, and they’re counting them as out of network even though i got a fucking PPO waiver for them to be in network, putting that money to a massive deductible.

i think you’re allowed to separate the art from the artist only after they are dead and the living realm has thus separated them from their art

had an emergency surgery today, where my infection was drained and irrigated. i feel MUCH better, but that could also be the sedatives and pain killers from surgery. but my business is looking much less swollen and seems to be getting less red

watching season 2 of Fionna and Cake while i’ve been stuck in inpatient medical care with an infection that only seems to get worse, stumping my whole care team, sure has been an interesting experience

they stay sticking me

the cardinal sin of trans folks is that we are annoying to cis folks. you can see this repeated with pretty much any oppressed group and their relationship to their oppressors. i think when things are going relatively well for people, they forget that annoyance is the cost of admission of society.

if anyone in the austin area wants to visit me in the hospital, i would like that

my new hog is swelling so bad that it has a fucking stretch mark. i think i’m going to have to be admitted to inpatient

Public services cannot ‘lose’ money they can only ‘use’ money. Yes there are areas where they can ‘use’ money more efficiently, but their purpose is to ‘use’ money to provide us services. Money that we, the taxpayers have allocated as a necessary cost for the greater good. It is called Socialism.

i feel like i have the flu this fucking sucks

The full spiked 60 Minutes CECOT package, clean & subtitled. 1/5

watching the CECOT 60 Minutes segment that CBS suppressed, it’s striking that Weiss specifically called out as unnecessary some of the most rigorous investigative work in the segment, including an explanation of how it was done (by human rights researchers)

1. New federal rules were released last week banning gender affirming care for youth at hospitals nationwide. Those rules don't go into effect until public comment, months from now. But it appears Sec. Kennedy is using an arcane process to try to implement them immediately. Our latest story.

Narco Rubio is back.

i wish one piece/sanji weren’t so transphobic

my temperature is 99.8, and i’ve had gut issues the past two days, so i am concerned i have the exciting new complication of infection

i don’t think i’ll ever get over how we’re sending people to torture prison camps in el salvador STILL and those in charge of CBS want us to pretend it’s an old story that’s been resolved. people are still being tortured!

i am so so tired of being in pain and being wounded

ah, i have the fistula complication, even though one of my nurses told me not to worry about that and, “you would know” did my voiding trial today and… yeah. stuff is coming out a lot of places

why the fuck do i keep seeing skinny or fit santa clause’s in ads

my walking is worse because it hurts since they stole the skin off my leg for my other leg, but this regression is for overall movement forward. we progress, regardless! someday i will not have active wounds!

democrats are very capable of fighting to defend their core principals, like 'insider trading'

As new Epstein files are released, keep in mind that in his first term, Trump ate, flushed, and stole documents, and his Chief of Staff burned them in the White House fireplace.

Interesting to consider that if you were to go and deface the Kennedy center by removing Trump’s name, you’d be arrested and charged with a crime, but your act would be no more unlawful than what they’re doing right now.

ICE whistles work.

my surgery went fine yesterday. and now my right leg hurts a lot, but so it goes!!!! this was surgery 6 of 2025 and hopefully no more for about half a year

they’re redoing the part of my skin graft that didn’t take tomorrow! wish me luck!!

"Grindset" no longer belongs to men who do day trading. It is now the name of the aesthetic genre that encapsulates and is inspired by Jet Set Radio (Japan, Global) / Jet Grind Radio (US)

Hospital pen sketch

i am here to report that having a hole in your leg all the way to the muscle hurts if you don’t take pain killers

The exclusion of trans people from public and academic spaces, removal of protections by human rights institutions, dehumanising language used by state news media, judicial tolerance of trans directed hate crime, withdrawal of medical care: all of this is very familiar to genocide scholars.

Finally they got rats playing Doom ratsplaydoom.com

The handmade, human qualities of your work are more valuable than they've ever been. Don't doubt that for a second.

So it turns out an ice agent is much more likely to have an arrest record than an immigrant.

broth of bean

Without Birthright Citizenship, you too could be ripped from your home in the middle of the night. Without the Equal Protection, the Privilege and Immunities and the Due Process Clauses, you and everyone you love could be declared subhuman and stripped of your most basic and fundamental freedoms.

tried to jump my car wrong and i think i may have destroyed it to the point of needing a new car whoops

im coming up on the point in my recovery where i need to either ask someone to clip my toenails for me, or i need to go get a pedicure (aka ask someone to professionally clip my toenails for me). both those options feel a bit …. out of reach for different reasons

you can tell pedophilia is a straight people hobby by how epstein’s island was decorated

man i really don’t want to go under again to update my skin graft from it not taking right, but oh fuckin’ well, i guess

recovery is hard as hell!! every day i am a bit more mobile, but some stitches have definitely popped and i think i’ll need a revision from that for sure, and my skin graft is having some issues. phalloplasty is truly, truly no joke. on top of that, sleep is extremely hard to come by!

looked at a calendar and today officially marks two weeks since my surgery and that is surreal to me, because it feels like it has been a month of all of this

this recovery process is scary and miserable, but i persevere