A possibly controversial take of mine is that one cannot "reclaim" wearing makeup or shaving body hair. OF COURSE anyone should do things that they like and that make them feel attractive, but in my opinion these things can never be critically reframed as "woke" under any circumstances.

Me and my fwb becoming healthier people together is NOT something I had on my 2026 bingo card but damn if it ain't happening

ragged spiderweb; gossamer-snared dragonfly hanging in midair

It Ought to Be Enough Just to Live. Even if i Am Not Satisfied it Is Amazing enough that i Am Alive. I Wish to Remember this at All Times. ✨

I love the year 2026 because I can smoke menthol cloves baby

hoisted from the dark hollow, rearing face, wry and wrong; the mangled limbs that followed, clasping fingers still strong; dead, fledged banner of sorrow, a neck whose moans unswallowed and shaped hallowful song— shadow crested tomorrow; sylvan blighted bestowne.

The Goal Is to Break the Cycle of Pain, Medicine? Talk? Self-Discipline? Or i Rather Spend Time on Fun.

Spend all my money at the pharmacy

I am going to change

fixing my posture allows my body to better channel the celestial will and also makes you stare at my nipples

the tall grass wrought for itself compounded eyes out of fresh dew, as vermin resumed writhing inside the crevices of rotting wood they had already gnawed for themselves. lichen wads unfurled, hugging what they could, and milky stalks sprouted from the dead bodies in tiny clothes, still to be found.

How many jobs can I have at once while putting in as little effort as possible? Finding out.

Something can be more than one thing at once!! Two things can be real!!

Therapist told me to emotion wheel every decision

Interview went well

Interviewer was late so I'm twerking in the mirror at the gym I'm about to interview for. Hire me!

subtle bergamot; meditating over a solitary brew

perfect beautiful world

Job interview today

Gnarly sunburn because I live in the oven

I need a break from life

eating fistfuls of sediment

have you considered straddling slivers of shattered porcelain slicing their way into bare skin like skeleton keys? or the pockmarked pattern of smudged-red against their glazed surface? the flush caused by scraping friction?

its good to find yourself a little insufferable

One of my fucking problems is that I'm not competitive so I don't take people seriously when they act competitive but because they are competitive and take that seriously it makes them actually mad

I'm going to lose my shit

I'm experiencing difficult feelings

If it Is For the Best then Why Does your Throat Work against your Alleged Desire? You Can Tell us What you Want, No?

I can recognize and manipulate several resources important for my survival.

The only 2 reasons to become a dentist: 1. Inflict pain and terror 2. Find people who floss to fuck

I think we are experiencing a cataclysm. The wildlife is strange. The electricity is buzzing.

One of my bosses only lies and my other boss only tells the truth

Had an exhausting conversation but it's a good thing

Trying to keep your mouth shut? Try harder.

I'm about to start crying at fucking work! I hate this!!

Maybe I'm feeling triggered and sad about not getting enough attention? Do I want attention? I tend to isolate and that does affectme

I need a cigarette.

I am feeling so bad. My self help book says I'm triggered. So is it that or just the mood disorder? and if it is the mood disorder, there's nothing I can do about it ? Ugh. Hate being alive.

Sometimes people have everything they want or need and still aren't happy. I fear that might be me someday. I don't know if I have it in me. What is the point.

At my current job applying for new job.

Fuck I hate my job. My self help book says to try to acknowledge why. I think it's because I resent the expectation of having to do something? I don't want people to expect anything from me. Don't look at me.

every time I think I've felt everything, there's more

teethglimmer-beguiled, dizzy mothflight, spiraling a little too close

Man I gotta eat more. My fwb is always telling me about how she tries so hard not to relapse with her ed and I don't want to trigger her but it's so obvious that I don't eat well. I try not to talk about it.

On one hand I find it weird to have a type. On the other hand I definitely have a type.

Had a dream I was mean to my ex and she blocked me then the door to my secret chamber didn't work

Okay, there is supposed to be a difference between emotional repression and emotional regulation, right? So I have to figure that one out, probably.

I think I gotta get over the not feeling important shit it makes me not present when I'm doing stuff and like I am actually making plans and then doing the plans all the time and I feel like people can tell when I'm like this and I wonder why they want to be around me if I'm so checked out and that

do you ever relate to the sound of a train horn in the distance?

I think I'm growing new kinds of hair