A thousand apologies for disturbing you madame

Got into my mums phone. I thought it would be a Rosetta Stone into her life but it wasn’t. It was just ordinary. Another chance at reaching her, gone.

The funeral home was repeatedly (because you get asked the same things over and over while very important information gets missed) surprised when I said I knew what music I wanted for my mother, in fact it was the easiest part to choose, so I think people must struggle with it

Ordered groceries at 1am as I was falling asleep, let’s see what this baboon has set me up for

A fairy 🪴✨

She’s not letting me leave ever again

Grief horny is so weird, like literally not the time I’m gonna whack you with a broom

There’s a massive fire that’s claimed 6 homes about 3km from where my dad is rn

3 minutes away from getting home, after the longest hardest 4 days of my life, some fuckwit in front of me hit a cat and didn’t stop then I hit it too. I knocked on the closest door to try find the owner then rushed it to the emergency vet but it died I feel like I’m in hell

There must be a toothpaste shortage in Sydney cause I have smelled so much funky mouth in this airport

I suppose I am lucky that my brain is more powerful than my emotions, but it doesn’t really solve anything because when it bubbles up I reason it out and it simmers down but intellectualising it doesn’t make it go away. How do I make it go away???

Heading back home. I’ll be glad to be back with my baby but my heart is so heavy. Yesterday a weight was lifted and I felt alright this morning, but deciding what to take home of hers and what to leave was crushing. I’ll see it eventually but right now I just want all of my mum

It feels like next year is gonna be better. I don’t think I’ve ever said that before, since 2016 every year has been worse and worse and I’ve found it foolish to predict otherwise, but next year… idk just feels like it’s gonna be better man

I don’t think I’ve seen a higher age, but honestly I know what’s good so who cares Also you should listen to Madison McFerrin she’s FINALLY getting the shine she deserves, don’t be late

Proved all the haters (my father) wrong and crushed the eulogy, mum had a beautiful service and even though the last few weeks have been the hardest of my life, I feel so much peace at the send off she had Rest in peace my beautiful mummy ❤️ it’s all over now

Finalised mums eulogy. Funeral this afternoon. Then I have to go to her house, where she died, and go through her things, even though that was meant to be done somewhere else later. I feel like I’ve been shot. Over and over and over. I don’t know how I’ll survive this.

Off to go see the sunrise at the beach where my mama used to sit 💔

Someone just rear ended my dad in Sydney while he’s on the way to pick me up. I was already waiting here for half an hour, now who knows. And he’ll be furious the whole ride home. Also I threw up on the plane which has never happened before. I wish it had crashed

Someone just rear ended my dad in Sydney while he’s on the way to pick me up. I was already waiting here for half an hour, now who knows. And he’ll be furious the whole ride home. Also I threw up on the plane which has never happened before. I wish it had crashed

I’m not ready to say goodbye. It’s not fair. She deserved so much more.

My friend sent me the memorial video for my mum. I fly back tomorrow, go to places where we lived together, that she loved on Wednesday, say goodbye Thursday, then fly back Friday and collapse into rubble

Came out to get groceries (shit I can cram fists of into my mouth) and medicine (sedatives) early so I wasn’t crying in peoples faces, but the pharmacy wasn’t open yet so I had to hang around making chit chat with people whose lives aren’t blown apart

Bring back mourning clothes

Was gonna go get my brows and lashes done but the place near me has a bunch of people in the reviews talking about how they got injured there 🤕

She’s such a good girl 🥲 she walked right out into the backyard and hopped over the fence into the front yard again lmao, but she’d come inside if I opened the door again

Was supposed to mow the lawn but the lawn is full of clover and the clover is full of bees and I can’t take any more dying. When someone dies you’re supposed to let the bees know. They don’t come out in the rain or the dark. A year ago I planted clover and today it flowers

There was so much I was supposed to try get done today but my mum is still dead

My rosacea is clearing up despite everything going on, if the solution turns out to be just cry for 10 days straight I’m gonna be so mad, I spent so much money on ointment

Accidentally left the back door open and my sweet girl didn’t take advantage of it to go roaming, just sat in the back yard and came straight back in when I walked into the kitchen 😭 best girl in the whole world

Facebook algorithm is really weird I’m now just getting a bunch of random death notices??? Like this is an interest of mine

Feel like I’ve been set on fire and told to Irish dance and I can’t Irish dance and I’m also on fire but they’re shooting at me feet so I am have to anyway!!!!!!!!!!!

Doing a rewatch of The Sopranos, it will either cure me or send me into psychosis and if that doesn’t work I’ll watch the season of RHOC where Vicki’s mum dies

Mums cat Phoebe has been trapped and is in foster this morning 🙏 Steve is in his forever home, but Phoebe still needs one I’ll make a proper post for her soon, but for now I just want to thank everyone who helped get her safe. It would have meant the world to my mum ❤️

Every morning I wake up and my mum is dead all over again

Had to leave a message for the funeral director to call me back, the guy asked “what is it regarding” like what do you fucken think mate

Had to delete a post about my mum because someone fucking retweeted it, I hate this freak site with no private accounts

The insane woman who delayed trapping of my mothers cat by being insane and made last night the worst night of my life, above the night I was told, has now used a fake Facebook profile (7 friends, one is her, they have a matching picture) to contact me to try get the cat after I ignored her

Unfortunately Phoebes forever home has fallen through. This is devastating at a time when every bit of relief means the world and every problem is absolutely crushing Please help me find Phoebe a forever home 🙏 she has a good foster for now but she deserves a home after all she’s been through

I tell you what the new Beyonce album better be fucking amazing

It’s never been more unfair that bluesky doesn’t have private accounts

My horoscope didn’t prepare me for any of this shit

It’s been 60 hours since I was told my mother had died. It feels like oceans upon oceans of time. It feels like I have aged a million years. The world on a completely different plane now and yet sickeningly the same.

My mums cats still need homes, they also need a foster on the central coast in the meantime. If anyone can help at all, even just asking around, please do 🙏 This is the last thing I can do for her, and it would mean everything if I can just make sure they’re okay 🙏

The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City Season 6 Episode 10 “The Higher The Hair The Closer To God” will forever be what I was watching when the cops came down my driveway to tell me my mum was dead

Called the hairdresser to let them know my haircut next week was for my mums funeral, because I didn’t wanna tell them while I was sitting there. Didn’t tell them it will be my birthday though because that just seemed too much

Changed my Lock Screen picture for the first time in nearly a decade. Used to be a naked cat shitting in a toilet but now it’s my poor beautiful mummy 💔

so so tired of crying about this constant struggle. currently dehydrated, hungry, exhausted and don’t have the financial or physical means to take care of myself right now and need all the help i can get www.paypal.me/svdavies96 💚 goal: $0/400

Thank god for daylight savings because it feels like the night will swallow me whole

If anyone knows anyone in NSW, ACT or VIC who wants two cats please let me know, I need to rehome my mothers cats, can bring them to you Any questions please ask, it would help a lot to have this one thing sorted 🙏

Two cops came down my driveway and I went out there to shoo em away but then they told me my mum died