i think "cozy" should be a genre applied to games by reviewers, bc when devs apply it to their own games, it almost always means "we're just copying some other thing we like"

i felt less demotivated to sell things online before it felt like every single platform was cheapened through shein and AI garbage-- people are so constantly being shown complete crap these days that putting my stuff in that market feels bad

fuck it im posting this with [almost] no context bc its too hard to explain my post game thoughts quickly but im too proud of this so. fellas is it gay to rip out your spine to sever yourself from the embodiment of amarnat you made out of guilt so you can be with the person you always favoured most

sh/b does like, the same soft nationalism that all fantasy by imperialist nations does, where the main crux of squelch as a "sympathetic villain" is the idea that every human being understands Us vs Them if "their people" are being "threatened" and i don't know why ppl try to engage in genuine--

people who walk around with their backpacks unnzipped and wide open give me immense secondhand ocd about something falling out of there

one thing i like about the niche VN community is that it's full of people who just want to make things for themselves, without the air of "my main goal in posting original work online is for me/my oc to be treated like an e-celeb" that more mainstream online spaces have. it's abt the work itself

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here's the first of my #arcadion magazine covers!! featuring your favourite girls wearing Rick Owens. details below ⬇️ #ffxiv #art

i need to work on actual projects but all i want to draw is my moe warhammer elf

[ #7.4spoilers ] Yeah their dynamic absolutely delights me 🤭

i need to get back into trying to make outfit adoptables. i feel kind of bad about charging money for use of jpegs but i also feel like if people want to pay money as a courtesy for my designs, that's one of the least destructive ways to make money...

if i made a band, i would name it something like disappointing orgasm so i could make people say things like "hey, have you heard of disappointing orgasm?"

when people who don't hang out with other queer ppl IRL at all go "i can say anything at all about gay men bc they're all catty and annoying" im like bro just write your yaoi, you don't have to pretend you know any gay men

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new game at my job is determining which piece of art in each gallery we would eat if we had to eat one, so now im scouring the museum for the most swallow-able objects

i think the main reason i dont want x/iv fans to get into warhammer is that x/iv fans cant accept that x/iv is silly, and i can't imagine the mental hoops you'd have to jump through to imagine wathammer is deathly serious

i want to like the ynnari but i have to imagine yvraine in a better outfit

any time the lore of a series tries to convince me an entire species has no interest in sex bc it's supposed to make them scarier or more tragic, im like that's deeply stupid, sex is neutral, and not having it is not scary/tragic, and ppl can have interest in fucking even without libidos/genitals

trigun is still one of those things to me where i feel like caring about the yaoi is 80% of it and i haven't gotten into a /popular/ yaoi ship since i was like. 19

part of my distaste for the entire phenomenon of big name fans is when i've been talking to ppl in the past as if we were peers, and then later learned they were seeing me as some sort of adoring hanger-on just bc that's how they see everyone, when i wasnt even aware they were Famous Online or w/e

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though im also thinking about how sometimes cishet writers accidentally write beautiful gay/transgender subtext by imagining themself as an underdog, expressed through fantasy oppression narratives, and i do think there's an almost taboo sort of pleasure in taking those literally lmao

i dont think a fictional heightened reality where gender dynamics represent something other literal is a bad thing, it's just more interesting if you understand what your building blocks ARE instead of repeating a specific mode with none of your own thought/input

i think a lot of yaoi is boring to me bc it's basically torturing men by subjecting them to a fictionalized version of misogyny while simultaneously claiming that yaoi is a playground free from misogyny because there are no women (because women experiencing misogyny is Too Real) & im like ok pick 1

i think the current political/economic times have basically killed most of my interest in making fanart, but i'm so feedback-driven with art that i havent replaced that interest with anything meaningful yet bc its hard to get feedback on projects id like to be doing instead

this is the otome no sewing set i really want to make first, which is also... just pajamas...

ok my actual goal this year is to sew a garment largely from a premade pattern every 2 months, starting with the vintage 80s nightgown pattern i already have all the fabric for

this image keeps showing up in my mind

i constantly think about how one of my favorite bands, the hotelier, essentially broke up bc the lead singer said he made more money from poker than from being in a band, which is in my mind a huge indictment of the conditions that keep people from making art

& like, i HATE being cooped up in my house & i love to travel, so i would one day love to live somewhere i can genuinely get around long distances without a car. thinking about how much better this was for me when i was in the UK genuinely makes me want to cry sometimes, bc america wont have trains

it's dumb to say i feel like i have ptsd from being rear-ended by a dump truck, but now im basically hypervigilant about even being in a car, and flinch when other vehicles get near whatever one im in. i have to stop myself from gasping when my is driving very normally and safely

This is what my display name is from btw

i also just dont enjoy drawing fanart or narrative art as much as i used to, i like spending my time on more abstract fashion illustration, and i wind up feeling like im not contributing very much in fan/narrative art spaces when... that's just not what i wanna spend a lot of my time drawing 😔

i dont think i'll ever go back to drawing as much as i did when i was in art school, because i did think it would be a job i could do then, and that was motivation, but it is more of just a means to an end to me than it is to people who really enjoy the act of drawing

learned that popular italian food chains in japan serve squid ink pasta for like 7 dollars and im withering away at how bad americans' taste in cheap food is in comparison

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deleting 100 old posts in a row is like an orgasmic experience

i think people forget that games can replace labor with algos without even touching art-- coding is also part of game design, and probably the part that's actually most likely to be undetectedly affected by the rise of AI usage. and i think this is what larian's idiot CEO is now dreaming of lmao

aethlyn and i are trying to play re:outbreak and getting out asses kicked 2 minutes in every time

i get a lot of targeted luxury fashion ads bc of stuff i google, and fortunately this is the worst way to make sales on me bc i cant afford a $600 skirt even if i want it

i think "every site is owned by a dickhead, so i might as well use twitter" is a really cynical view, because i do think there's a different between like, murky centrism and open nazi propaganda

people keep asking me if ive played dispatch and im like. the. the straight superhero game?

the main issue with trying to tack social deduction onto random unrelated genres is that you've gotta have the traitor betray efforts to do something self-evidently necessary for reasons that are hard to comprehend and wholly their own. mmorpg raiding, for example, does this organically

"actual authoritarians in power who want to utilize and maintain that power by turning poc, queer people, and women into more acceptable targets than ever before" and "online queer people who dont like darkfic" are two entirely different groups, & having them discussed in the same breath is jarring

You're ambivalent about that, aren't you? You neutral boy. #nothingplay

illustrators who work in editorial sharing their incomes at 40-70k a year and my jaw is hanging open gobsmacked bc when i had a good fulltime job that let me buy pretty much whatever i wanted, i was making 28k a year at most

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i like over-the-top horror in exactly the same way as people like musicals-- when the feelings are so strong, you have to sing them, but in horror it's like, when the feelings are so strong you have to commit acts of extreme violence and depravity

i may be a snob on this account, and maybe i shouldn't touch the hot stove of reading things that annoy me online as much as i do, but i cannot imagine actually responding to online strangers in aggrieved ways