I am done with all this noise. Hiding in my bedroom now to lower my anxiety. Will try to work again later.

Today we play 2k Drukhari - reapers wager On a special map!! #paintingminiatures #warhammer40000 #hobby #drukhari #minipainting #battlereport #paintingwarhammer #warhammercommunity #40k #nerdlings www.patreon.com/Minipaints_uk

organizing a protest against u.s. imperialism in Montreal. Please show up! j’organise une manif contre l’impérialisme états-unien à Montréal. Venez! organizando una protesta contra el impérialisme estadounidense en Montréal.¡Vamos!

My fav music when I write for Mothership: Metroid OST. :3

No lil baby pickle with my grilled cheese?? :o

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Ev unit is eepy unit today.

Give my friend Absentia a follow, she is a good artist, her characters always have interesting vibes. :3

We all know how there will be zero repercussions toward any evil perpetrated by the US. The media machine will activate, diplomatic strings will be pulled, corrupted leaders will say weak words. The evil regime will meme and gloat like 12 year olds.

Bitterns from Brehm's Tierleben (Swedish edition), found at the birdwatchers' cabin. I feel inspired to up my game more than usual.

Small diorama. It was initially inspired by 08th MS Team's opening shot, but veered off course a bit. 40mm base, slightly modified train people.

Today I worked on my microraptorians and I ran a voice chat session of my Signalis game. Good work yes but not useful work. I need to be more careful and focused. Tomorrow I need to work on my commissions or at least ion something that I can finish, print and sale. Ok. Getting some sleep now. 😴

glep paints minis too

Four generic playing pieces/characters for Munchkin (or whatever). I couldn't find my light box so I used my phone light to draw the backs.

I want to play old SEGA original console games on a couch with a friend.

Ok, deep breath, I need to focus back and do some work. I will take a small timed nap, make coffee and try to work again.

Back home and to feeling useless. I am the worst.

Anekakli pods, designed to work or fight on ship hulls, these are small enough to fit in ships’ main corridors. Operating with (-), except in human ships who have enough space for them to operate without penalty. A good pilot can do crazy parkour with them.

Do they teach how to dumb down everything you write, lick boots, and be servile at Journalism schools? They must be repeating again and again, dont have any integrity if you want to keep your job, kill that inside you early, always try to please your corporate masters and write for them first.

Sometimes I think my view of journalists, a class of ass holes fixated on the elimination of trans people, securing the legacy and wealth of the already wealthy and powerful is to harsh. And then they release this. "The autocorrect released a statement"

I like world building too much for my own good. I design games like I draw, always adding little details that hint at stories within stories. Which burden allll of my designs attempts. See my Signalis game. 😑😑🤷🏻‍♀️

Fucking Glass Walkers.

When the coffeeshop owner try to give me a bro fistbump or high five, I always response in the most delicate effeminate way, barely touching his fist with the tip of my fingers. But somehow he dont get the message that bro hand gestures are not for me.

I am so sad that science now point toward Hycean worlds not being a thing.

Finished writing about the Anekakli’s home system (the microraptorians). Now I am writing about their history and how they had to share their world with 2 other sentient species (one is now extinct). And their first contact with cursed human tech (that they retro-engineered to get space jump tech)

Had some good sleep. This morning the barista invited me to pop packaging bubbles wrap with them to get rid of 2025 stress hehe. They have really nice people working here. :) I will try to write while the coffee shop is not noisy.

Took a stab at drawing @evlynmoreau.bsky.social 's Microraptorans. Cybernetics on the resonator combs for modulated birdsong encryption. Needler holster on sternum. Fatty deposits under pseudo-pygostyle reflect a more sedentary lifestyle in absence of flight. (Non-canon) #TTRPG #specevo #dinosaur

Trans communities warned for years about the NYT's transphobia, but the specifics of how this was ordered were often shrouded behind corporate hierarchy. No more. Sweeney lays out specifically how the highest ranks of the NYT rigged coverage in favor of anti-trans bigots.

Well that was January first. I did some small bits of art and house chores, not too bad. I felt overwhelmed again by this stupid loneliness but I sailed through it. I will try to do things again tomorrow. Getting some rest now. 😴😴

Working on a quick drawing.

I am trying to act combative today but I don't think that I will reach the end of 2026 without something significant changing in my life. As soon as my thoughts drift toward the year ahead, all the loneliness come back as a big wave of hopelessness.

Oh my God I was all locked in on the Grimalkin in Dolmenwood being my favorite player option but then I saw this art of a woodgrue look at him LOOK AT HIM

Would play a RPG in that ghoulish setting: youtu.be/zmMbfUM1qbo?...

Not easy to remain positive all day long.

Maintaining friendships without common activities is not always easy.

Back in my bedroom to gain some eat from my blankets. Resting a bit then I will try to do some writing.

Salamanders Space Marine painted in a Rogue Trader era camouflage scheme, 360 view. #salamanders40k #wh40k #warhammer #warhammer40k #minipainting #miniaturepainting #40ksalamanders #spacemarines #roguetrader

Thanks youtube for putting your crappy shorts in the sidebar, I hate it.

Pixel is greeting the new year with full high octane zoomies. I'm actually shocked this picture is in focus.

@nickoten.bsky.social's short series about jennell jaquays dungeon design pathikablog.com/2025/04/26/h...

Time to listen to Eye of the Tiger. 😤

I am having a lot of fun designing the mircroraptorians for Mothership. Their main weapons are needlers and sonic blasters and a stun staff they use as an acrobat pole. Their Advanced Battle Dress is a small walker pod. And their robot helpers have a roller ball mode. They are fragile but agile.

Feeling positive somehow this morning. I guess that I needed all this “ugly” crying yesterday.

I am wearing colours today. :o No black! Brown, beige and grey lol.

First day of the year. Let’s go.

Started the year by crying a bunch. I want to live too, not be condemned to eternal loneliness. I want to have hopes and smile from time to time. Not always expecting resilience, letdowns and nothingness. I will feel bad about posting this tomorrow but these are real feelings. I will try to sleep.😴

2026 let's go. "closing down my power armor helmet"

I did my daughter duty and called my mom to wish her a happy new year. Got my first deadnaming of 2026 too. I will never be allowed to be free from that name. But hey it is done, now I can relax a bit before going to bed. 😊 💜