Apparently winter tornadoes are going to be a regular thing here now. 😒

Another reason I’m down for taking a semi-hiatus, is I’m pretty sure I’ve angered The Algorithm to the point I might *actually* be shadow-banned. All my stats took a plunge a few months back and have never recovered. Even for new games. Likes and views also frequently disappear/get deleted.

Beginning to understand why youtubers have been crashing out these past few months from the whole viewership thing. Because a 54% drop in click through from SUBSCRIBERS for no apparent reason is nutty bro. That's like cancelled levels of bad.

lv 1 priorities #ffxiv #finalfantasyxiv

I've genuinely been attempting to get back to FF14 since October (the weather is definitely cool enough now). But it's just been impossible without both dropping other projects, and also with how frequently I've been in the hospital (bi-monthly, if not *weekly*).

I don't want to make an official announcement yet, but after I finish streaming Xenoblade, I might take a break from regular uploads for a while. My health and my environment just aren't getting better. I'll still record timed games like FF14 and Hoyo stuff, but without the stress of a schedule.🧵

MRI scans are done, just gotta wait on results. I got injected with glucagon twice, as well as was made to drink 51oz (3 sports drink bottles) of sorbitol. So I...may be out of commission until at least tomorrow.

It feels like every streamer I've tuned into for upcoming trailers has shown nothing but bitterness these past few years to new IP's. Even if they're otherwise fun people. And to that I say, if you're always waiting on sequels, you're going to miss out on so many great experiences. Try new things.

It's incredible how streamers are still so dismissive of the Chinese game market. I get that it was the cool thing to dunk on Chinese video games for a decade, but it just reeks of casual racism now. There's some really great studios putting out wild stuff these days.

Just a reminder that while not perfect, YouTube *does* have a soft block feature. If you choose to hide someone's comments, it throws them into a one-person echo chamber. So they can *technically* leave comments, but NOBODY ELSE can actually read them. You included. Save your mental health.

Quick health update, I don't have a diagnosis yet, as I'm still undergoing tests (I have some more imaging scheduled for next week), but so far I DON'T have the biopsy markers for Celiac Disease, so I can safely eat gluten. So at least I can still have bread (which is good, as I like to bake). 🍞🥐🥖

Was warned that Kingdom Hearts: Fragmentary Passage was more challenging than usual, so I did the first run in my own time. (I might do this more often in the future to provide more insightful commentary). The LP will thus be in Critical Mode, with most optional side objectives already done.

I did it. Got the Platinum trophy for Kingdom Hearts: Dream Drop Distance. 🗝️🎈 Plan to edit the video into boss highlights and get it up soon.

I’m back from surgery. Had my stomach, and both large and small intestines biopsied. 🔬🏥🩹 Might need to rest for a few days.

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So...I may have secretly been working on the Platinum trophy for Kingdom Hearts DDD behind the scenes. Levels and Flick Rush are both maxed out, so all that's really left is maxing out all spirits skills/affinity (which I'm about halfway done with), and then streaming the secret portals/bosses.

If there's an upside to any of this, I was able to box up a lot of still-in-date donations of stuff I can't eat anymore. Canned soups, pastas, sauces (as well as lots of hot sauce lol), spice blends that had onions or garlic, and pre-made soup broths/cubes. Might as well feed somebody with it.

So I might be allergic to cheese, but oddly enough, I don't seem reactive to other dairy products. I can eat ice cream, yogurt, and forms of powdered milk. But I can't seem to have any sort of cheese. So it might be something in the creation process like rennet or an additive. Or the high histamine.

Getting about 1 inch of snow every hour, so winter is officially here.

All voiced story portions for Genshin 1.0 have been restored. I'll still work on gameplay video restoration in-between when I find time, but I'm moving on to editing story portions for 2.0. Now that the weather is cooler, I can work on restoring longer videos too, such as for HSR and ZZZ as well.

Forgot to put the updates here, but Bayonetta, Kingdom Hearts: BBS Final Mix, Pokemon: Shield, Psychonauts, and The Legend of Spyro: Dawn Of The Dragon playthroughs are now fully back online. I'm almost done with editing Genshin 1.0 too, it's just the remaining parts require...a lot of work.

Pink drink. 💖☕️👻 (I can’t find the matcha one anywhere though. 🍵) #PokemonGo

sometimes it ain't that deep

Not sure if I'm going to stream anything specifically for Halloween this year. I've been too sick, and haven't really had the time, either. Might play a demo or two (my PS4 storage weeps lol), but that's probably about it. Was originally going to play Bayo 2, but it's kind of late for that now.

I’m still keeping my upcoming gastro appointment, but emotionally I’m so distraught to not only have been gaslit about my handling of reaching out for specialist scheduling, but now also have “non-compliance” permanently on my record when I’ve done nothing but attempt to move this diagnosis forward.

Well, I’m probably going to switch PCP’s because that was a horribly invalidating experience. “It only took this long to get you scheduled because you didn’t advocate for yourself.” I have documented, reached out, and called REGULARLY. I think my mom was ready to go feral in my appointment.

Checking into the ER because I spontaneously fainted and fell into the bathtub this morning. Probably low blood pressure or anemia from a *year* of all my other unaddressed (aka backlogged) symptoms. Been trying to see a specialist for said year now, but I guess my body just couldn’t wait anymore.

The fucking invisible wall

A big symptom of LP/livestream burnout for me is that I can sit down, get all of the programs open, but not bring myself to go live. I'll just...stare at the title screen for like an hour (...or three) before I have to shut it all down because I no longer have enough time to accomplish the task.

I absolutely can't stand that Windows 11 treats sleep mode or an idle PC as permission to blanket update itself. My absence is not consent, Microsoft! Not only did it mess up the data I was uploading (causing me to start over), I now potentially have the SSD killer firmware. I want to fucking cry.

My keyboard is dying and they don't make this model anymore. I've been using this one for over a decade, so I'm *really* reluctant to change. So many boards anymore are uncomfortable, loud, distracting, or weirdly not meant for typing at length for long periods of time??

This week has been rough. Three family members had to go to the hospital (two were ER - one for a possible severe infection, another for Covid + pneumonia), renovations were scheduled the following day, and now I'm also having a really bad autoimmune flare (doing my best to also avoid the hospital).

DH: Outbreak is going to take a bit more grinding than previous games in between episodes, as so many standard enemies have either complete physical or magical resistance now. And when each dungeon is a gauntlet that can easily wipe out half your inventory, you need to grind for that too.

Baked a chocolate zucchini loaf. 🍫🥒🍞

Fridge decided to give up the ghost despite only being 4 years old. 🫠

Well, I'm in the cue to be able to MAKE AN APPOINTMENT. Not to GET an appointment. To have a CONSULTATION about getting an appointment. What a headache. And it's 2 months away in October 2025. For. A. Scheduling. Phone. Call.

Harvested a good garden bounty in the rain. Probably going to bake some zucchini bread and make some marinara spaghetti squash for dinner.

Latest Windows 11 is corrupting various SSD's, so best not to update for a while, or to uninstall the update KB5063878 if you have it (and then proceed to turn off immediate auto-updates until resolved). It seems to mostly affect people downloading/transferring (creating?) large 50GB+ files.

drifting 🪐

Good news is I've been quite productive behind the scenes schedule-wise. Bad news is that none of these games are currently streamable. Do...I take up a 4th game and mess up my schedule further? I doubt several weeks of Switch demos would really be to anyone's preference.

So good news, no cavities! 🦷🪥 I just have super sensitive enamel and I subconsciously clench my jaw when stressed (which is always these days), apparently to the point of bruising the ligaments in my jaw. But my X-rays came back spotless, so my treatment is once again...relaxation. Lmao.

Finished recording everything for Sly Cooper and the Thievius Raccoonus. Started recording for Dot Hack: Outbreak. This one will be a blind playthrough, as I've only read the light novels past this point. So I may know some story elements, but gameplay will be all new for me.

The wildfire smoke has been really bad here the past two weeks, so sorry I've been K.O.'ed for streaming and editing. Stuff will probably continue to come out late for a while, or be sporadic or short. But I am still trying. Please bear with me. My autoimmune system is very unhappy.

My Ratchet & Clank (2002) playthrough is complete, and all videos have been edited and uploaded. I finished the story, saw all cutscenes, obtained all gold bolts, and purchased the R.Y.N.O. www.youtube.com/playlist?lis...

Unfortunately, I and other creators cannot control what ads appear on our Twitch channels whatsoever. And we don't have full control on YouTube either. HOWEVER, for fellow creatives, we CAN try at least to block specific ads so long as we know the URL, or what categories bad ads are coming from.🧵

As someone who mostly listens to a lot of game/anime music on loop in the background while I'm doing other stuff, I'm especially not trusting of an AI to sort whether or not I'm an adult on their platform. Sorry for the youthful whimsy, I guess. Don't make me charge my 2005 iPod Nano. I'll do it.

oh jesus fucking christ FUCK OFF WITH KOSA ALREADY JFC

*TAPS THE SIGN* also, below is a thread of action you can take, from petitions, to emails to phone numbers (with some scripts you can copy/adapt) as well as ways to support affected creators. do as many as you can. try to do them all. 🧵 1/12

Bleh. It's 85°F (30°C) with 85% humidity today. The corn sweat is making it feel like a tropical rainforest this year. It was 91% humidity this morning when I woke up.

I am also recording Genshin and Ratchet & Clank in the background. I want to have more of Natlan accessible for Genshin's summer event, since I don't know what area it'll be in or if it'll have unlock criteria. And I'm almost done gold-bolt hunting in R&C. Then all that's left is the final boss.