The Guy growing up as an orch dork in the Bay ❤️‍🩹

I’ve made it through four back to back 12+ hour days juggling my email job, my church job, and three separate freelance projects. Thank you to my husband for doing all my dishes. Thank you to @elizabethvanos.com for keeping me afloat through an evening of chaotic madrigal sightreading 🙏🏽

I’d honestly just cook, eat, sleep, exercise, relax, and gently work on my technique and repertoire. It would be a total godsend after burning the candle from every end for so long.

Off to sing an open dress rehearsal after six hours of opera staging. This week is going to be so fucking brutal 💀

She loves marshmallows?!?? 😹

attention: new but also medieval queer opera in new york next weekend www.alkemie.org/eleanor

Why do the Japanese like their buns askew (2026)

She wants chicken too 🥺

The most common way I see people write shit opera is by shoving lyrics into a rhythm that fights the actual pronunciation of the words. This makes simple music horrendously difficult memorize while also rendering it unintelligible, and I don’t understand why composers insist on doing it.

Chugging airplane coffee to score study on a transatlantic flight home. Musician life is nonstop glamor 🫠☕️

I am fully aware it has only been four days, but I get to go home and squeeze my Momo today 😭💕

Me: I love to travel! My work: we’re sending you abroad on business! Me: Actually I’d rather die.

Increasingly I keep being told by normies that they would “love to go to the symphony someday” and it’s starting to drive me crazy because if you want to go, you can just go! It’s not a once-in-a-lifetime thing! It’s not expensive! You don’t have to know anything! Just buy a ticket and go!

I am once again reminded that English coffee is a crime

Staying in an awful business hotel after a sleepless redeye across the Atlantic and coping by ordering fish and chips to my room to eat in silence while waiting for it to be late enough that I can finally go to sleep 😭

“Young Americans are Having Fewer Children. We Asked Undecided Voters in Ohio Why That Is.”

I missed this from @phineas.bsky.social when it originally came out but it sure feels relevant at the moment. Also, you can buy this as a print from the artist here: www.inprnt.com/gallery/phin...

Revising my political beliefs to include “military spending is fine so long as it’s a tank that mows this thing down.”

Coping with an absurd workload by watching a period drama best described as “Palace Polycule My Fair [Chinese] Lady”

Lately I’ve often found myself wishing my family had just stayed in Asia and that I’d been born and raised there. I don’t know if I could’ve coped with the beauty standards, but at least I wouldn’t be paying taxes in the U.S. in 2026 🫠

Starting rehearsals on another project the day after Easter:

Happy Easter to him 🙏🏽

Bluesky is dying bc there is nobody out here posting about Zhang Linghe and I have to go scroll on rednote instead 🙂‍↕️

I have about ten minutes to get off my ass and head to my late night Good Friday service. No idea where this energy is supposed to come from 🙂‍↕️

How many times today will I accidentally sing cavalry instead of Calvary? Only time will tell 🙂‍↕️

Glad I don’t use Spotify, because I have listened to Zhang Linghe’s runway song on repeat for weeks at this point, and I don’t need an app to remind me that I’ve lost my bananas

Another day, another Zhang Linghe mug to get me to go do work 😭

Me: I watch Chinese dramas to stay in touch with my culture and exercise my language skills because I have no mandarin-speaking friends in New York Also Me: 張凌赫🥹😭😩🫣🤭🫡😪🙀😩🙂‍↕️🙃😌🙂‍↔️😢😤🤯🫠😮🫨🤒

I think my new audition strategy is to be so fucking mentally drained that it doesn’t fucking matter anymore because I’d almost prefer just not landing any work 😹

I am absolutely plagued by the wildest intrusive thoughts lately. I can’t so much as scroll past a photo of a serrated knife without vividly imagining it sawing away at my tongue. What kind of mental illness is this?!?!

I could never spend my entire work life grinding away for 40 hours a week at some office doing things I don’t care about. That’s why I’ve dedicated my life to making music so I can spend just half of my work life grinding away for 40 hours a week at some office doing things I don’t care about 🥰

I just learned that Zhang Linghe was born in 1997, and I… I am Bluesky user years old 😿

Still not 100% on memorization for my audition Monday so I just asked the admin if I could play for myself while singing and they said yes. Like and follow for more audition tips 💀

This Joyful Eastertide scans the same as Jingle Bells 😹

Can’t wait for the US to lose its cultural hegemony to China so people will have to watch period Chinese dramas with me

How have I only just now learned that lower back pain is a period symptom? 🫠

I was going to memorize more music tonight, but I just got our tax bill from my accountant, and now I will simply have to take an edible and dissociate instead 🫠

Did I procrastinate all weekend or did I improve my focus to memorize repertoire by harnessing the power of 🔥panic🔥?

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings obliteration. I will face my fear and I will permit it to pass over me and through me.” -Me booking studio time for Friday and an audition without having memorized these damn arias yet 🙃

My inner squirrel is on high alert. Like… perhaps now is the time to buy a Big Bag of Rice, stock up on flour, and freeze some pork shoulders.

When your choir bestie is the Cathedral librarian and he texts you “girl you better warm up forreal this Sunday”

Staring down the barrel of the urgent monthlong task of learning and memorizing a new opera, so I guess it’s the perfect time for me to braise some pork and fill in an expense report for this week’s out of town singing 💀

For $200 I would rather eat dirt than sing neumes, but unfortunately nobody will pay me to eat dirt ☹️

If any of you are keeping up with the batshit ludicrous Chinese period drama that is Pursuit of Jade, please tell me. It is the silliest soap opera nonsense I have ever beheld with my own two eyes. I am obsessed.

Gonna put on my wedding dress and make my husband wear his tux and drop stupid money on fancy dinner with me when It happens 🥹

Using my Vietnamese coffee-fueled superpowers to summon the favor of the airport gods so that I may be bumped from the 8:30 to the 6 o’clock flight home 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

This banh mi spot in New England hooks it up with TWENTY OUNCE CUPS of Vietnamese iced coffee, but now I can smell my heartbeat and I fear my eyeballs are about to vibrate out of my face 👁️ 👁️

Taking the train 🚊 to catch the train 🚂 to Vermont 🏔️ to rehearse the music 🎶 in New Hampshire 🪨 to record an album 💿 with string 🎻 quartet in Boston 🍻and fly ✈️ home 🗽 tomorrow 🍀 to teach music 🎼 and sing a vesper 🌅 service ⛪️ and learn another new opera 🎭 Music life is both amazing and cursed 😹