call us old fashioned but, if you've built a machine that makes child porn, we really don't care if can do anything else. unplug the machine.

Top tier trip to Portland today. Gave my friend a car (old, but free and running), ate my favorite pho, made some new friends, laughed our butts off, stopped at In n Out on the way home. AND I GOT KNOWLEDGE FIGHT BUTTONS! (which is only exciting if you're a podcast nerd and guess what, I AM)

I can't believe I'm actually at a Knowledge Fight live show! A moment 7 years in the making. Heaps of thanks to my poor long-suffering partner for indulging this!

We do not need this story. We have the internet, we've met more than enough men like this...and they don't even advance the plot. Or sing.

Inconceivable

I was trying to use the bathroom silently and as I snuck out (badly) my partner piped up from the darkness "Hi, love". I froze, put my arms out, and mimicked Kronk's secret agent bit from Emperor's New Groove My partner is a patient and unquestioning supporter

Happy 100th birthday!

Dick Van Dyke is 100 years old tomorrow. Or today, depending on where you live. What a gem

My kids said "Mom LOVES terrible sci-fi and horror" and I'm just.... Awww,I didn't know they were paying attention 😍

Oh, I just finished @nnedi.bsky.social "Death of the Author" and ...hooo buddy, can't recommend it enough. 3 books in one, captivating, heart wrenching. Treat yourself to this treasure, post haste.

Just sacrificed my pride and sent a DM to every single band I escorted my friend to since his diagnosis. I will prob end up as just another random message, but on the off chance he gets any extra love it will be a success

I've gotta call it, @themountaingoats.bsky.social fans are the MOST pleasant fans I've ever seen. Everyone was chill, no pushing, no whining, and even in the merch line it was low key and patient.

I am on the light rail. I am going to the concert! (They sent the other ticket to my partner so I'm not going alone, which is kind of cheating, but at least I'm out of the house)

Another vendor invited me to a concert with them tonight, but now they're having car trouble and don't know if they can make it. I suppose I could go by myself. People do that, right?

Call me crazy, but maybe society shouldn't continually reward the least scrupled amongst us with money, power and influence simply because they're unafraid to be terrible.

On this International Day of Persons with Disabilities I'd like to give a special shout out to the agency who sent my partner home from work on his first day with his service dog and hasn't allowed him in his work space since then. It's been 2 MONTHS since he was allowed at work.

This is SO good!!

I learned that @seananmcguire.bsky.social was at the show I was selling at last weekend and it feels like a whisper away from meeting royalty. Then the show runner told me @alyankovic.bsky.social was at the show a few years ago and I somehow didn't notice? I'm so oblivious to the coolest things!

A friend just sent me FOUR frozen, gluten free, deep dish pizzas just because 😭😭😭 I do not deserve the amazing people in my life!!

My friend texted today about a concert that he knows I will love (@thebandcake.bsky.social) , even though he knows he won't be alive to attend it with me. I don't think I'll ever attend another concert without shattering a piece of my heart for him. Fuck Cancer

I promise you, trans people have existed throughout human history. We have the records; we have the stories; and shameful as it is to use this as a marker, we have the slurs. Humans are GREAT at slurs, but we usually develop them because they have targets. If the slurs exist, so do the people.

Nothing says "everything's fine" like a short notice all-call

But then I got to yell at someone sneaking up to cut down our pampas fronds in the dark. "I would let you have them if you asked! You're a bad neighbor, be better!" I feel a little better now

Neuro-oncologist told us today 2-6 months max. My supervisor has moved me to project support so I'm not solely responsible for carrying anything and granted me maximum flex scheduling. Tender mercies, or whatever...

I have online friends that I can't even remember how I met. Years of friendship, never in person, but they're still walking me through the impending loss of my friend

Another queer friend just told me they're leaving the country. That makes it over a dozen now. I'm so sad we've come to this

Government is up and running, legal is back in the office, and *suddenly* the agency communication with my partner is more prompt and congenial. One might think management is realizing what a massive cock-up they've created 🤔

Today my friend said he's leaving his guns to me, which might not sound thoughtful, but I come from an Alaska hunter family and rifles are passed down through generations so he knows it feels personal to me. I don't really like this part so much. It's so...final.

Joyce Carol Oates should say he can't do backflips off the roof next

Absolutely heartbreaking call from my friend, sobbing. Long story short, they're moving him to hospice care as soon as they find a space. That fucking tumor grew so fast it's like they never even did surgery. I know it's cliche to say we thought we had more time, but we really did.

A government that refuses to meet the basic needs of its people must be overturned. The lovely gentleman who played DJ on Roseanne on why SNAP matters. @reelfishman

Two appointments where a doc says "Checking in, are you okay, see you in a year" and they cost me $50 a pop. Which is fine for us...when we're getting paid. $100 + gas when this could've been an email

the internet wasn't a complete failure

Democrats are currently ahead in 63 (!!!) races in the Virginia House of Delegates. If this holds, it would be one of the largest state legislature swings in the last 4 years. Its an absolute bloodbath for anti-trans Republicans.

this zine may come in handy cdn.crimethinc.com/assets/zines...

Tough conversations today. Got to take him outside to visit his dog. He wants burgers when he starts hospice care. Red Robin specifically. He was holding our hands and kissing them randomly. He's trying everything to show love when his words are failing.

Slowly crumbling under the pressure from all sides. I need to schedule time for a good cry to relieve some of this stress.

One of the nurses bought @therealelvira.bsky.social cookbook after she saw the picture in my friend's room. Just spreading the love, like he does, lol

Visited my friend and brought some room decor from my last show as a "reward" for getting through his care team meeting today. Bringing a note from @therealelvira.bsky.social to him made his face light up like it used to and his care team thinks he's the coolest kid on the floor now.

8:30 pm My partner just left to get me taquitos because my uterus is once again trying to kill me and taquitos are the only thing I want to eat. And he made dinner so I could take a warm bath to ease my aches. There's nobody else I'd want to go through this bullshit with.

Coordinator from one of my regular shows just sent me a contract for their next show, fully comped. They didn't want me to miss early booking because of funds so they just....covered the cost. PNW alt-craft community is the very best place to be y'all! 😭

The show this weekend wasn't quite as successful as any of us hoped, but I made enough to get us over the hump for November bills and I have 2 November shows to lean on for December bills. Every year I get so tired I want to quit and this year I'm happier than ever that I don't.

Usually October is my absolute favorite. My birthday, Halloween, fall appears... October 2025, however, can fuck all the way off.

And I forgot I had a jury summons for today...

Anyway, it's my birthday, and it struck me that bawling while friends send cheerful messages and I have a laundry list of tasks that need to get done today is a quintessential adult experience.

This morning's update was not good. Significant tumor growth in the last month and it's too entangled to resect as much as they hoped. Less than 5% of GBM4 patients survive more than 5 years, he's at 4. I hate this. I hate his pain and his misery and the slow dimming of a soul made from pure love.

On his way out of the OR. They were only able to get about 80% of the tumor because it's a hot mess scramble in there. The last two weeks have been a drastic decline so hopefully this will present some relief.

At the hospital waiting for my friend to get out of brain surgery. He's been in for 5 hours. Everyone keep your fingers crossed

Wait one damn minute‼️ I know Lisa Murkowski isn’t up on her high horse talking about the lack of trust between Republicans and Democrats after she cast the deciding “Yes” on the so-called One Big Beautiful Bill and slipped in backroom deals for Alaska. She’s part of the problem & needs to own it!

"If you don't show up for work tomorrow WITHOUT your service dog, we'll charge you with a terminable offense" Are you sure about that? Like, REALLY sure? This might get ugly, but I'm pretty certain how it ends, and so is our lawyer