im so tired of hearing everyone around me talk about exercising and losing weight when i literally can't. im even on meds to help w the binging and in therapy and nothing helps. and ofc everything else in life sucks rn too. i wish i could just die

They're tear gassing us and going HOME TO HOME. They shot a journalist point blank with a concussion grenade. They're refusing to let our elected representatives do oversight. Idgaf what the overall purpose of this acc is WE'RE BEING INVADED. CALL YOUR REPS AND TELL THEM TO DO SOMETHING! WE NEED YOU

since im actually obese rn im thinking about trying to get weight loss meds but idk if i can afford it rn

i love my partner but ik hes so tired of me being depressed about my body. he always tries to help but i can tell hes sick of it. and the only other person i can talk to about it doesnt care. i feel so alone

i know i shouldn't compare myself but it really hurts hearing friends talk about exercising regularly and losing weight, being healthy etc. meanwhile im maintaining/gaining bc im stuck at home w my baby alone for 45hrs a week & never have time on the weekends either. im so fat & disgusting rn

i should really just stop trying to make things better and be happy bc some shit always gets in the way. fuck it

i feel so alone

may the spirit of locking in possess me as january 1st approaches

i honestly just wish i could kill myself. im just a burden and i know i'll never really be happy. i feel so guilty and disgusting. worthless

forever complaining about being huge but never actually stopping stuffing my face

i used to be so skinny and pretty someone euthanize me please

having 60lbs to lose before i will even look skinny and then 15 more lbs after that to be at my ugw is so heartbreaking

one thing that i really miss about being skinny is that i could take pics at any angle in ugly clothes & no makeup and still feel pretty

REAL

can't believe i have to spend christmas fat and ugly like what's wrong w me. i could have been skinny by now, fuck

i miss how good i used to be at restricting. i hate myself so much

so i accidentally got pregnant again 5 months postpartum and just had a medication abortion. needless to say, i gained so much. im scared to even weigh. i don't think I'll ever be skinny again tbh. ive been binging and i can't stop.

getting my brows, lashes and nails done on the 25th and planning to buy bleach and dye (hoping to go blonde) soon so that maybe I'll feel human again lmao

thinking about getting some cute clothes so i can at least feel less disgusting even tho im huge

ive made no progress in almost 3 months. im such a waste of space

gained 5lbs since last time i weighed 2 weeks ago

jfc im a cow

can't stop thinking about k!lling myself lmao

I either need to start restricting properly again or workout harder cause I feel so fucking obese

nothing is ok anymore

I feel like such a failure

haven't been active for a few days and if you guessed it's bc ive been eating like a pig.. ding ding ding! you'd be correct!

im so disappointed in myself. i could weigh so much less rn

finally back at the weight i was before binging for a few days

i did get a gym membership again yesterday tho, and im gonna try to go today and at least 4 times a week from now on

also my bf is 5lbs less than me now bc he basically doesn't eat. he works all day and then has a sandwich for dinner. he doesn't even have an ED. i feel like such a disgusting failure. i hate being a sahm

well im back at my first gw. im so sick of losing weight ive already lost

WHY DONT I JUST STOP EATING FFS

im alone constantly and no one cares. i wish i'd just stop waking up

its not even worth weighing myself today bc i know ive gained or maintained. even if i lost it doesn't matter bc its weight ive already lost before

my bf is doing so much better than me at losing weight lmao kill me fr

if i wake up tomorrow and i haven't lost ima kms lol tbh im still constipated tho so 🙃

im so fucking hungry too

ate over my limit again tho i was able to burn some of it off, but my net cals are still too high. i'll never lose any weight at this point lmao

i really just wanna d!e like it feels like i'll never be skinny again. i feel so stupid for allowing myself to get this fat in the first place. im back where i started and it's even harder this time ffs

well. i binged last night and this morning so i gained 3 fucking lbs. someone just shoot me pls

ive been losing weight so fucking slow too

gained a pound bc i ate over my limit yesterday. kms

got violent diarrhea this morning and now im almost at my first gw 😎

only had ~715cals today, my limit is 800 so that's pretty good i think

ofc my period would start right when i decide to lock in again 😮‍💨

my goal is to be 155-158lbs or less by Halloween and 148lbs or less by Thanksgiving. im just mad at myself bc i would weigh so much less rn if i didnt get off track for so long :/ oh well. im just gonna do what i can

we have our first vacation since having our baby planned on Halloween, i need to lose as much weight as possible by then

alright ive been gone a while bc ive been eating like normal bc having an infant is hard af and I have no good coping skills lol im back tho and im gonna lock in bc i can't stand my postpartum body and i feel like im suffocating in my own skin 🙃

Wear a face mask when you go out in public- if for no other reason than knowing that they want you too sick, too exhausted and too burned out from dealing with back to back respiratory infections to speak up for yourself & your community. You deserve to protect your health.