30hrs strong 🫡 Surprisingly not hungry? I may pull this off chat

Just watched 'Th3 P3rkś 0f b31ng a w4llfl0w3r' for the first time and im so emotional 😭😭😭 People were NOT joking when they said it made them bawl. I didnt cry but my eyes defo got moist a FEW times 🥹 Im changed forever. Immediate top 5 movie entry for me 🥺🩷

Why does 1m0g3n h34p music feel so e3de3 coded/core/aura? Does this make sense to anyone but me? 💀💀💀💀

So i been wearing baggy clothes, hardly b0dych3ck1ng, consistently staying under 800cals (apart from like 4 days in 4 weeks), not weighing myself and pretending im enjoying res and not depriving myself....and its kinda been working? I havent rlly fully stress binged? Gonna test this with fasting :D

need to drop 3.5kg by the end of the month need need need

With a soundtrack to my maddness i fear bmi 15 is no match for me 😤😤😤

Yk chat...ive never actually made an e3dee playlist before..ever I am now in the process 🫣 We LOCKED INNN locked in

Its almost 4:30pm and i havent eaten yet so ig its a fast day for me :)

I found a fizzy drink i can have WITH Invisalign in LETS GOOO 🗣️🗣️🗣️ Sugar free cream sodaaaa 😤😤😤😤 Its clear No sugar Just carbonated water and false flavour LESSGETTIITTT

Why do scabs forming hurt SO bad? Like omfg. The way its tightening the skin and pulling on my nerves as it does so is SO FLIPPIN PAINFUL. I could actually scream. I wanna cry chat.

I literally ate like probably 2000cals yesterday so why on this earth am i so hungry my stomach hurts and is growling and i cant sleep????? How does that make any sense???

Okay tl is quiet. Guess I'll attempt sleep again 🩷🩷 Love you guyysss

Note to self: Maybe dont take nap until 5:30pm if you dont wanna be awoken at 2am 💀✋🏽 (i will definitely do this again)

ok so i took a nap and it's 5pm

repulsed by food again and even the thought of eating is so sickening. only problem is it hasnt been long enough for me to be skinny. I hate the waiting game, but it makes me more determined to keep pushing. from roughly now to halloween last year gave myself a thigh gap. I can do it again this year

Ty random guy i have to block now 🥰

I went and looked at the cals of how much salmon i actually ate today bruhhh So even tho i went and got a little more soup, two mini cake squares and some choco marshmallows (those gave me an allergic reaction), i just rq purged them icl 🤧🤧 I should fast or apple mono tmrw

Why i wanna just keep eating 🧍🏽‍♀️

THE NAP I JUST NOOPED 😌✋🏽 Literally slept til past 5:30pm 😭😭 day done gone

Literally ate ALL that at 6am and went back to sleep and ive woken up and i STILL feel weak and lightheaded and like my stomachs empty 🥹 WTF IS HAPPENING

Brushed and back in bed. Drank water and my heated blanket has fully warmed up too. Im sooo cosy and sleepy now ☺️ Ty food :3

Ykw chat I hope by the time i go to thailand in exactly 30 days, I'll look and feel skinny enough to take bikini pics and not hate them. And the TAN I will get will add sm definition too omg 😳 PRAYING for -4kg Is that possible in 30 days?

Chewin cherry guummmm

Having to brush after eating anything pmo so bad. I dont wanna get out of bed after my wonderful snack 😩💔

Ate an extra pastry and a mini cake slice so im probably already at 1000cals for the day 😭😭😭😭😭 Metab day it is loordddddd Tho salmon soup prob wont reach 700cal a portion so i might actually still be below maintenance which is technically restriction 👀😌☝🏽

One thing I've noticed since res relapsing last year when i made this account (and now even more so with my aligners) is i eat sooo slowly now💀💀 I take so much longer than i used to. Which is a plus tbf! Means i feel fuller on less food!

My ribs now stick out and my stomach is starting to concave without sucking in so CLEARLY im restricting enough. I just want it to feel like enough :( I want to be rlly uw so bad

Nomnom Early early morning snack :3 (And hopefully a sleep aid)

Okay think im gonna get some grapes and a pastry and then when its living hours I'll make my spicy salmon soup! I probaby wont even reach maintenance if i just eat that :) Depending on how much salmon i have i guess 🤣

The way i wanna get snacks or sumn to eat 😩💔 Like AAAHHHH Thinking maybe I should not count cals today and just eat at maintenance? If the hunger is getting to me this bad, i dont wanna push it and stress binge :/ But I'll feel so fat idk :(

Why am i awake at 4:47am?

Now why would you ever come on my page with this energy 💀✋🏽 Just cranky asl

Rlly wanna fall asleep next to somebody :( Whyyyyy is crippling loneliness such a huge symptom of depression?!?!!

Made it through another day not eating outside of my omad! Resisted the hunger. Proves it really is something i can just not give into. Pls stay this way. I just want to be uw by January :(

Bitchless AND I cant eat???? Im so mf bored i need to start commiting crimes or sumn

Why my left tiddie hurt 🫩 I hate my life rn

I was gonna make a spicy salmon soup to eat tomorrow. (Literally a spicy broth with cubed salmon and some mushrooms and kimchi) But im so tempted to make it now and eat :( Why am i suddenly so hungry :(( Like noo go away. Be able to ignore it and not feel it like you have all week!!! Like why??

Im literally so hungry chat. Its kind of pmo. Like sooo hungry.

Bros My mum just ordered chicken and chips. I hate myself 💀💀💀💀 Cannot eat it. Just cannot. But the fact its in my house is making me so mad 💀💀💀💀 It was on my craving list like YESTERDAY. But i dont even want it. Cant eat it.

No more food ever 😭

I love everyone doing the 'me core' thing 🥰🥰🥰🥰 cant believe i was able to start something (〃ω〃) Hooray! (⌒▽⌒)

TW⚠️: indepth sh TALK (no photos) I hate never feeling like ive gone deep enough :( Like it doesnt matter what layer i hit. I changed my bandages again today and just felt annoyed at myself that these stupid small cuts took like 10 mins to stop bleeding. I only got a couple full bæns and styr0s and-

Me core feel free to add yours too!

So idky ive got run belly again. I havent taken lax or anything 🧍🏽‍♀️ (Maybe its eating apples first thing? Idk) But i pewped and then i got lightheaded and weak feeling again 😭😭😭 Chat whats WRONG with me? Am i dying?

Just bit down so hard on a popcorn kernel oh my lord 💀 My teeth are in the process of shifting from the aligners so the CRONCH i just heard oh my goodness 💀 I saw the white light 💀🙏🏽

Idk if i just had too much fibre or WHAT but omg my intestines just started boogying

GOOD MORNING POOPIES!! Ily all 🥺🩷🩷and wish you all a great day! And if your day is going bad, remember that youre loved by me 🥺🩷🫂🫂🫂 I started my day with coffeee and i was able to poop HOORAY!! Theennn i had a morning walk! And got some fruit and popcorn to watch a c4s30h stream :D

I cant lie chat, im SO hungry 💀🙏🏽

Fell asleep on my mama watching my ultimate comfort movie p0ny0 ｡･ﾟ･(ﾉ∀`)･ﾟ･｡

My mama coming to spend time in my bed with me and watch a movie because of my relapse yesterday 🥺🥺 She deserves the world 🩷🩷