weight of the world

I’m so popular (I scream delusionally as at most I usually get two likes on my poems) Also sorry but “yummylicious” is actually the best compliment I’ve ever gotten on anything I’ve written LMAO 😹 I actually want to do a chapbook so it’s funny someone else asked about audio recordings.

You’d have to stop the world just to stop the feeling

I need to bluetooth connect to someone else’s soul soon bc the voices, (aka loneliness) is getting to me.

My hobbies include oversharing on the internet. ✨

My niece (1yr old) running ppl over with her walker is actually the funniest shit ever. She always looks so proud of herself afterwards

reply with an emoji and i’ll give you a letter to list your 4 favorite characters!! I got M! And for some reason immediately blanked on anything I’ve ever watched, oops 😵

There’s this guy I went to church with as a kid who had a secret crush on me (we’re the same age I think??) & he still hits me up on Facebook sometimes & no matter how long I take to reply he always replies instantly. I left this man on read for a while fucking year & when I finally replied? :o

My Roman Empire tonight is the colonization of twerking 😩 You guys I have been twerking since I was 9 and it does not have to be sexual it can just be fun.

Me looking at apartment listings AS IF I have a job already. Called me sister to have her tell me to “stop tripping” bc ugh but I just want to skip to my 30s when everything is okay, or I inevitably end up in psychiatric care bc I lost my shit. Either or I need to know NEOW where my life is going

Realizing that as I get older, I keep having to adult harder & harder. This is a tragedy 😩

Life when I finally say “no I’m not helping” and stand on that shit: 🌠✨🌈🥰

I can't rlly scan this one... It was for my daily art journal, 🌿 confident and determined!

Well… yeah I guess in a lot of ways I’m avoidant poomang.com/en/t/animale...

It should have been a happy month but I only realized the ppl around me don’t know how to celebrate me. And that, that’s not fun at all. Now I have my licensure test in a couple weeks. I was supposed to study all month. Instead I’ll be cram studying for one week. I paid a lot of money for this.

It’s my 24th birthday !!!! 🎊🎊

I feel an overwhelming amount of existential dread today but this was actually hilarious to wake up to 😭 Apparently I’m turning old

Tomorrow is my birthday & I feel very… depressed.

let a part of you be destroyed and it will grow back for you, in a perfect cycle and i, not like you can avoid some pain but i get jealous, i wish i could get a taste of what you have your indifference makes me all the more resentful how ungrateful we are capable of being #liiloc

GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE MENTAL STABILITY 😭

Not really surprised tbh. Also full disclosure I never finished Hannibal uquiz.com/quiz/7fBSAJ/...

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At times, I have wanted for the men I like to see me in my prime but I only end up clinging to male crushes when I’m at my worst. And most times I don’t even actually like them… just the attention / distraction they provide.

My white grandma calling me “exotic” unprovoked and not realizing how racist that is made me rlly reflect on how & why my mother is the way she is.

Guys I’m ngl I think I’m pretty close to getting kicked out of my parents house again. Just a bad situation that progressively gets worse and worse

I hate that “triggered” is such a buzzword that was popularized and stigmatized by mass media. So now I have PTSD and every time I’m like “yeah I’m triggered” I cringe a little thinking how that phrase has been used. And tbh sometimes misused.

This family is actually killing me.

i love you women, you guys are the best

Type ' my character ' on pinterest and the first four are your new assigned kins Well… I’m familiar with all these animes but I’ve only fully watched Kamisama Kiss 😹

Y’all know that one song by Paris Paloma… really feeling that “you make me do too much labour” pretty damn strong rn. Because why am I being pulled into appointments for toddlers who aren’t my kids, getting vented to by my dad, and coordinating meal plans. Well I guess at least I showered today.

Reporting to the doctor what I’ve been feeding this toddler (when we have food insecurity) triggered my social anxiety in a way I don’t like. Because it’s like I already know what’s missing from her diet like damn mb 😭

Guys I’m going to be 24 in 6 days. Somebody get me out of this house 😩

only my sister understands me

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Put yo yo gabba on for my niece bc I kept singing “there’s a party in your tummy” but needed her to have context. Lmao she loves this shit almost as much as Mrs Rachel 😹

Yeah this about sums it up. Especially bc I noticed I struggle to casually or “naturally” make eye contact with people I’m uncomfortable/unfamiliar with

I have not slept past 5am for the past 3 days, and I’ve been getting like 5 hours of sleep a night. Ridiculous. This is supposed to be a celebratory break for me, but it’s not bc this family is always managing borderline crisis.

Babysitting my sisters kid, I am learning motherhood may not be for me. Not because I couldn’t do it, but because I wouldn’t enjoy it.

You treat me like shit & act like nothing happened. Why do I keep helping this family? Well it’s not the child’s fault, I know that, ofc I help. But my parents make me feel like shit. All the time. Over virtually nothing.

Commencement Weekend Photo Dump! I am officially a MSW. Take that Carmen Canvas!!

I feel unwell & might do a vent post tmrw, or at some odd hour tonight. This day, this weekend was so long, like some kind of survival day I wasn’t meant to survive. If I have typos in my replies it’s bc I have a migraine & only got 5 hours of sleep, barely any food, lots of stress & 5 hours of sun

I actually hate my family. Like can you imagine? It’s ok to sacrifice things until it comes to me. It’s always me who must be the convenient child bc of everyone else. ME ME ME. And he thinks it’s soooo funny. No one listens. This whole time I’ve been saying the same thing.

My 2nd niece deciding to come into the world like 6 hours before my commencement like bruh IT’S MY WEEKEND GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING 😫

Thinking about the lady who told me I don’t have a midwestern accent 😵 Yk when my parents teased me for having a valley accent I didn’t take that shit seriously BUT SHE SAID I SOUND CALIFORNIAN 🥹 Hyperaware of my accent today 😭

Why I let my dad talk me into drinking with him 1am when I knew I was graduating this evening was actually crazy 😫 Then this mf start talking about dark shit like omg I’m already anxious maybe don’t tell me about a family member who experienced police brutality at the ripe hour of 1:30am 😭

I actually feel like that girl! Now only if it wasn’t going to rain all weekend… (scared)

I am actually too anxious to ever interact with any stranger ever thank you. Tbh being around my family most of the time I forget I have social anxiety for the simple fact that: idgaf what they think of me

Anxious