My white grandma calling me “exotic” unprovoked and not realizing how racist that is made me rlly reflect on how & why my mother is the way she is.

Guys I’m ngl I think I’m pretty close to getting kicked out of my parents house again. Just a bad situation that progressively gets worse and worse

I hate that “triggered” is such a buzzword that was popularized and stigmatized by mass media. So now I have PTSD and every time I’m like “yeah I’m triggered” I cringe a little thinking how that phrase has been used. And tbh sometimes misused.

This family is actually killing me.

i love you women, you guys are the best

Type ' my character ' on pinterest and the first four are your new assigned kins Well… I’m familiar with all these animes but I’ve only fully watched Kamisama Kiss 😹

Y’all know that one song by Paris Paloma… really feeling that “you make me do too much labour” pretty damn strong rn. Because why am I being pulled into appointments for toddlers who aren’t my kids, getting vented to by my dad, and coordinating meal plans. Well I guess at least I showered today.

Reporting to the doctor what I’ve been feeding this toddler (when we have food insecurity) triggered my social anxiety in a way I don’t like. Because it’s like I already know what’s missing from her diet like damn mb 😭

Guys I’m going to be 24 in 6 days. Somebody get me out of this house 😩

only my sister understands me

loser daughter core ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆

Put yo yo gabba on for my niece bc I kept singing “there’s a party in your tummy” but needed her to have context. Lmao she loves this shit almost as much as Mrs Rachel 😹

Yeah this about sums it up. Especially bc I noticed I struggle to casually or “naturally” make eye contact with people I’m uncomfortable/unfamiliar with

I have not slept past 5am for the past 3 days, and I’ve been getting like 5 hours of sleep a night. Ridiculous. This is supposed to be a celebratory break for me, but it’s not bc this family is always managing borderline crisis.

Babysitting my sisters kid, I am learning motherhood may not be for me. Not because I couldn’t do it, but because I wouldn’t enjoy it.

You treat me like shit & act like nothing happened. Why do I keep helping this family? Well it’s not the child’s fault, I know that, ofc I help. But my parents make me feel like shit. All the time. Over virtually nothing.

Commencement Weekend Photo Dump! I am officially a MSW. Take that Carmen Canvas!!

I feel unwell & might do a vent post tmrw, or at some odd hour tonight. This day, this weekend was so long, like some kind of survival day I wasn’t meant to survive. If I have typos in my replies it’s bc I have a migraine & only got 5 hours of sleep, barely any food, lots of stress & 5 hours of sun

I actually hate my family. Like can you imagine? It’s ok to sacrifice things until it comes to me. It’s always me who must be the convenient child bc of everyone else. ME ME ME. And he thinks it’s soooo funny. No one listens. This whole time I’ve been saying the same thing.

My 2nd niece deciding to come into the world like 6 hours before my commencement like bruh IT’S MY WEEKEND GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING 😫

Thinking about the lady who told me I don’t have a midwestern accent 😵 Yk when my parents teased me for having a valley accent I didn’t take that shit seriously BUT SHE SAID I SOUND CALIFORNIAN 🥹 Hyperaware of my accent today 😭

Why I let my dad talk me into drinking with him 1am when I knew I was graduating this evening was actually crazy 😫 Then this mf start talking about dark shit like omg I’m already anxious maybe don’t tell me about a family member who experienced police brutality at the ripe hour of 1:30am 😭

I actually feel like that girl! Now only if it wasn’t going to rain all weekend… (scared)

I am actually too anxious to ever interact with any stranger ever thank you. Tbh being around my family most of the time I forget I have social anxiety for the simple fact that: idgaf what they think of me

Anxious

It is what it is, but what it is, is shitty.

i shouldn’t have taken a nap. waking up from a nap is so hard… i want to nap forever…

Just discovered commencement and evening of recognition are two different things. I only signed up for commencement. What do you mean I might not get hooded by some old white bastard? I thought I was joining a cult 😣 Pissed off that my school until the very end makes everything confusing

May is meant for joy, love, community, and abundance. This is the month we flourish

Why do I feel so depressed after spending all evening outside?? 🥹 Do I need to somehow inject nature into my veins to feel at peace? Goddamn u mental illness !! I have one quiet moment and my depression starts playing fucking peakaboo with me 🙄

Finally put my piercings back in and if I do say so myself, I am glowing !! 🌟

I wish I didn’t care what you thought of me, shit.

Mentally, emotionally, in a bad place.

I’m going to start a music thread on here like I’ve seen other ppl do.

The Hamilton soundtrack lives rent free in my head ngl, catchy as hell.

*meows in depression*

He is so fucking pathetic. The pattern is the pattern.

Leave it to my dad to ruin my whole day with a couple sentences. His attitude is unmatched. Almost called him a toddler on the phone bc he has the emotional regulation skills of one. Just a big ass baby who expects everyone else to manage themselves around him.

Why did I get high when I have to do the dishes tonight? Fuck

It’s finally over 😭 No more essays No more Gantt charts No more late night crams OMFG 🫨 I just finished the last assignment of my masters degree

One more major assignment between me and my masters degree. I really do wish I had finished today. My cap & gown even came but like… I always procrastinate in my needs assessment/ program development class. So I guess old habits die hard. I plan to do the whole thing tmrw but idk it’s a 3 day ext.

Speaking of Earth Day somebody please pay off my student loans

Please shoot me. Why did I save this entire paper for one day?? 😭 My brain actually needs to be studied bc bitch what do you mean you’re 7 hours in and wrote 22 pages and counting. SCREAMING, CRYING, THROWING UP. ON MY LAST BIT OF BAJA.

At this point I’d rather die than write this 25 page capstone paper… that is now late and I have to complete in 3 days or flunk the class haha, wtf me? What are you doing girl

Very interesting. I never watched Korra so I don’t know much about Asami but she looks badass 😌✨ uquiz.com/quiz/kUQOQe/...

I stayed for only half the class. Just getting rlly hard to care that much + my 14 month old niece is in the hospital & I’m going to a funeral on Friday like bruh, can I catch the break? Universe? Anybody? Damn.

The fact that I haven’t missed this 9am class not once all semester but I am contemplating skipping today. Like I’m tired 😭 Why I went to sleep at 3:21am when I had to be up so early? I don’t know!

is it okay if i have no idea what im doing ever