How to make it as frustrating & humiliating as fucking possible for me. Thank you so much for NOT checking your goddamn email & having the AUDACITY to tell me my paper is missing when I did EVERYTHING I was supposed to like no everything is not okay. You have no idea what it took to even get it done

Grad school has made me a lightweight. Staying sober to keep a clear head so I can keep up with my studies but had a couple drinks tonight since I’m on “break” (still have homework this week). Plus I need to get a flu shot and my mom said something about making an eye doctor appt like fucking great

lol ok uquiz.com/quiz/Rbbq07/...

You know what’s hot? Being a good fucking person.

Going to be late today (only like 15-30 minutes) bc what do I look like running for the bus for an internship that doesn’t pay me when it’s likely I’m already going to go over my hours and will have to stay late today?? Yeah no fucking thanks.

Always… tired.

Welp, finished my paper. Technically the Dropbox is closed & my teacher has yet to see my email asking for an extension but the dates are there. I asked for it the day before it was due so she has to bc well, accommodations HELLO? I submitted the paper through email tho so that it has a time stamp

Got 4 hours of sleep last night, decided to just stay up, spent 5.5 hours doing my paper today. Now have to do another 6-8 page paper tmrw (if I’m even motivated) so that I can finally finish my fuck ass midterms. Next week is “fall break” but I’m still going to work lol even tho I didn’t need to 🥲

Stomach hurting, ouch…!!!

feels

I realize this every time I have to go to my internship 2 days of the week like bruh if I had to do that Monday to Friday, I’m purchasing a gun 😭 I refuse to believe there’s not more to life than working at some job that makes you miserable. I actually don’t think I’m built for work at all chat.

favorite activity is lay in bed and daydream

LMAO On brand I guess. One of my sisters has started calling me zombie and I do bore easy 😭 poomang.com/en/t/sticker...

I need someone to inject this song into my veins !! on.soundcloud.com/gbhl4S51JxWU...

Me: thinking I’m sleepy because of the rain My period: 👁️👄👁️🩸

lol another thing to dissociate from

Keep making small mistakes at work, I may actually cease to exist

I do sometimes wish I was enjoying my life. Don’t even get to lay down when I do go home today, in another grueling 3 hours, LE SIGH!!!! 😞

POV: how my abusive dad ruined my nervous system & still continues to terrorize an entire house of ppl with his antics I was woke up at 4am bc apparently he thought that was a great time to wax the floors. I went to sleep around 12:30am. I have to start getting ready for work by 7. He’s screaming

Sometimes I want to talk about my depression in the context of self-neglect but I doubt many ppl would understand and many may even be disgusted. Like a lot of times my motivation to take care of myself is rooted in social anxiety that I only get if I plan to leave the house. And if I don’t well…

I genuinely feel some type of way about this and like my childhood nickname was monkey. Not in a nice way but like not in a racist way either?? No idea why my dad started calling me that dumb shit. poomang.com/en/t/monkey_...

Two new blisters on my ankles but at least I don’t have to go back to work for a little while 🥲 (until Monday)

My stomach hurts. I’m tired of this place. I only ever half know what I’m doing.

I don’t want to do this anymore

I want my professor to stop making us watch old ass films and then write about them. No degree has ever worn me down this bad LMAO, and I’ve been through some SHIT.

Me and my friends boyfriend chatting about my school life and plans for the future. Dating comes up and he’s like “I mean what are you gonna do just be a nun” and I was like “yeah I’m being a nun.” 😭 Then I asked him like what are men looking for when I do join the dating scene and he told me (1/2)

TW// violence, child abuse?? Idk how to tag this

Been thinking about this song lately bc well my sister was telling me, me showing her PTV saved her life 😭 But also just like goddamn!! WHAT IF I CANT FORGET YOU 🗣️🎶 youtu.be/2pr-ZQ3pXzg?...

Sleep schedule situation is crazy

I used to think writing lyrics was hard, but I’m so deep in the maladaptive daydreaming all I had to do was imagine a character who was a band character which I mean bruh the ppl I’ve met… there was one guy who used to literally have me analyze / edit his lyrics 💀

Tylenol made me like girls

Mornings are the worst. I find myself enduring again. I don’t think it should feel this bad to wake up.

Downward spiral. Down. Cant afford to feel this bad ahaha too busy dealing with other ppls pain. Terrible idea but here we r next morning. I need to stop telling myself bad things

When my dad asks me if I’m ok I know I’m acting up 😭 But I think it’s also bc I snapped at my mom and she probably told him that. Going into work on 2 hours of sleep because I clearly fucking hate myself.

capitalism needs slave labor to survive, and it always has. you cant be anti-slavery and pro-capitalism

I called myself selfish and my sister started singing this, help it’s stuck in my head !! 😭 on.soundcloud.com/jA1bFwMN9Kjj...

I knew this country didn’t give a single flying FUCK about ppl of color, but this is getting down right fucking ridiculous. A remembrance day seriously?? Ofc they did!!! Ofc they did!!! UGH

Realizing how little catharsis i experience. My mom asked me if I was doing homework & I go: no I’m venting to my computer about doing my hw. Typing away but then I started talking about how it took 6 hours, & it’s only worth 10 points. lol I was just being dramatic at 1st punching my mattress but…

Me when I told myself my paper was easy (so I procrastinated) when I should have told myself it would take a long time anyway. Like lmao spending 7 hours on this as if I don’t have to also do all the homework for my other 3 classes this week by Saturday 11:59pm. Just beautiful rlly 🤦🏽‍♀️

Costar is giving me mixed signals this month which is very real cause idk what I want either 💀

I did not plan on babysitting today 😭 My niece is the cutest baby ever but whenever she’s around I literally just want to nap! She’s also started doing this thing where she just randomly screams when she gets excited?? Like girl ur only 7 months why are you so loud? 😹

I’m anxious about the thing at my internship, but that anxiety rlly could be better used if it motivated me to do my homework instead. Although my masters program started like this virtual study hall thing twice a week. Ofc the study halls would be when I usually have class / commute. Ofc 🙄

This is true for the most part, but I am not a social pro I’m just an introvert who likes to yap 😭 poomang.com/en/t/valenti...

There’s this heavy feeling in my chest and I’m thinking maybe she’s right. ATP it’s me ruminating on something I shouldn’t torment myself over. I wish I was still asleep. I felt okay ig, for a little while. I just can’t handle the weight I guess. Maybe I’m just bad at this, maybe I was just anxious

I feel terrible 😞

It is what it is. It’s whatever.

I love how I just exist in his vicinity and my dad is mad. Grown ass man who regularly throws fits btw! Throwing fits before the clock even hits 8 bc I asked to get past him and suddenly it’s the end of the world bc I needed to get my lunch bag out the fridge

This ironically is my favorite color :o poomang.com/en/t/keyword...

I yearn. And I yearn. And I yearn. And I fucking yearned again.

Oh also the earth sent me an omen. Look how pretty! 🦋