FINALLY FINALLY FUCKING FINALLY !! I finished my last paper for the fall 2025 semester 8 minutes ago 😎

I <3 trauma dumping on the internet

One of my younger sisters actually used to call me her plant. For me pretty depressing reasons actually but anyway it makes me like this checkpoint card even more.

I need everyone here to know that “a running house faucet” was in my top 50 songs this year bc urine drug testing is extremely unaccommodating for ppl with anxiety disorders. I will die on that hill. The second peeing felt like a goddamn performance I suddenly couldn’t do it ._.

Being intelligent is lonely. Being educated is even lonelier. Do you all think you can be loved without being understood? I’ve been contemplating this recently. Maybe you can, but love without understanding just makes me feel lonelier. I don’t want to constantly explain everything to someone else.

men when someone fem presenting are visibly uncomfortable and are trying to be a people pleaser so they don't die: wow ... I think she's in love with me

I want someone to care about me for once and not just what I can do for them.

on.soundcloud.com/yCmDbILSCEDQ... Tbh this song is a mood lately bc idk wtf is the air, but it’s not cute at all. My ***** what?? Get tf out. I’m actually pissed. I want to punch this man in the face. Go ahead & message this number wild shit since he wanna give out his number so damn bad.

Me making typos on here is killing me inside. Edit button when?? WHEN??

This is not helping with the parasocial connection I have with Mitski at all. Feeding my delusions SoundCloud 😩 Also I’m sorry but Megan and Mitski are two sides of the same coin. I’m a sad lover girl through and through.

My supervisor: you were here until 6pm? 😳… yes like bro. 15 minutes per progress note —> 45 minutes. My last appt ended at 5pm. So that’s 5:45pm then I had to email admin bc I kept making documentation mistakes. So… there you go 15 more minutes plus packing up all my shit etc. This woman omfg

I was upset bc well it’s my finals week, I didn’t stick to my schedule so now I have to cram all my finals into 4 days. My internship treats me badly that has never been a secret I’m excluded from things all the time. I wanted to leave early bc of safety concerns: I take the bus, it’s dark, icy etc.

I am not okay.

About to document all my afternoon appts 🥹… hoping to somehow finish in time to make the next bus. Watching my supervisor leave like happy holidays demon 🙄

Not only is my boss not letting me leave early but I have 3 appts back to back. All same day documentation and I’m on break from my internship after this. SCREAMING SCREAMING SCREAMING BANGING MY HEAD ON THE WALL. No not actually. I am the face of calm, in this corporate climate.

I love how me and a bunch of my mutuals are at work 😭 This day could be winter whimsy but adulthood enters the chat so now it’s just misery

My grief is that even if I bled out I would still give ppl my bones if I thought for even a moment I was reducing the suffering of others. I have made myself a martyr and I’m not sure the reason is noble when repeatedly the cost has been my mind, my body. This is not love, it’s destruction. Sick.

i am so loser core

Finally let the religious ppl by my job pray over me. My lip twitched the whole time. I respect others beliefs BUT they don’t know what demons I’m fighting. To call my light god’s light? To say I strayed from him? He abandoned me. Anyway photo dump cuz look how cute I am finding joy despite the odds

Me thinking I would get to leave work early just for my last client to reschedule to the last possible hour for appts. I fucking hate it here T_T

My youngest sister (who is very greedy) suspiciously gave me a pudding cup. This pudding cup tastes like lotion if lotion was edible. I am suspicious. She wouldn’t actually feed me lotion… would she?? It’s even thick like lotion 😭

I hate the career I’m in sometimes bc I swear I would call out of work all the time if I wasn’t ppls therapist 🥲 Finals week & I did none of them early like I planned to. Hell I haven’t even signed off on my own learning agreement for field. I am nauseous! What do u mean the semester ends 12/6??

I love this song. on.soundcloud.com/SdlPi2pMzB5h...

Us girlfailures love getting baja blasted so true

⋆˚✿˖° 🧵 qrp of art I love so much ( artists your hands are made of gold🫶🏿):

true story bro x

quote with your fav sanrio character 🤍 honorable mentions: chococat & gudetama. however aggretsuko has my whole heart !

A random past classmate from 2018 decided to text the high school sophomores group chat. I just opened my messages to see like 50+ missed messages but I’m too anxious to talk in the chat. What if they try to plan an impromptu reunion? 🥲 I did too much embarassing shit in high school noooooooooooooo

I have the rest of the week off minus some homework I need to do but I woke up so early and I feel kind of lonely. Like damn a lot of ppl would probably use this time to hang out with friends and stuff but my whole life has just been school. I am so disconnected 😞

men vs accountability

I fucking hate it here. Terrible day and I’m starving.

Barely took a lunch bc I was trying to figure out my eval project, had to do therapy until 5pm on the dot, documentation took 30 minutes then ran for the bus just for the bus to be late. Then talked to the religious guys who do volunteer service on the corner only to almost get roped into MORE work.

Late to work on the day of my performance review ahaha wtf can I just go on break instead of being subjected to this scrutiny 🫠 I mean I’ll be done this time next year early May. I might finish my internship mid April. Trying to stay strong.

My friend has a blood disease post partum. I am convinced the world is conspiring against me.

Ha, I get it. I’m not even an afterthought eh? I must be a joke to you.

I know most ppl won’t get this or even the deeper meaning past the surface level lyrics but I love it, it makes me feel things beyond my usual suppressed emotions & dissociated state 😭 Also TW idk how to tag this but there’s a grotesque sexual theme: on.soundcloud.com/qZovYSC49CPF...

I love how I’m just up at 5am and my friend just so happened to give birth so now we’re just both awake. LMAO the urge to ask her to call. I got to be apart of 3 ppls birthing experiences this year. It’s kind of nice 🥰

My classmate casually trauma dumping in class and not having the social cues to realize that it’s inappropriate to do that during a Zoom class is… 💀 Like I have secondhand embarrassment we did NOT need to know all that.

Watching my teen sister crash out because of how conditional our parents love is, is like watching a rerun of a show I can’t turn off 🫠

So my mom doesn’t believe in knocking, just walked in on me butt naked like ma’am 🙃

Ppl say “always an angel, never a god.”What do I do when I’m always a god, never an angel? What if I am the one who wants to be saved for once… from things I can’t seem to escape?

My dreams not registering as nightmares until i write them down ummmm ok, like let’s not do that again. Stayed in bed an extra 20 minutes then missed the bus. Telling myself waiting another 30 minutes for the next bus in 30°F weather is just me practicing TIPP 😭 (I need more therapist mutuals lol)

I am in a lifelong battle with my anxious-avoidant attachment style 🫩

I like endorphins 😆😆

I did not go back to writing my paper. I took a nap umm… but anyway there’s always tomorrow 🪼 on.soundcloud.com/GiK98n2bOkEs...

Procrastinating to the point I did a paper that’s not due for another 2 weeks instead of the one literally due today at 11:59pm… that’s supposed to be 6 pages… that I haven’t started…

putting my 2 cents in got more expensive since they stopped making pennies

I miss my niece bc there’s not much joy in my life, but I think her life brings me such deeply rooted love and compassion it just bursts into hope and connection. Because if I can hold out hope for her maybe I can do the same for myself.

Ok my current to do list for tmrw: 1. Email my academic advisor for a letter of good standing for licensure purposes 2. Start my 8 page paper due Saturday 🫩 3. Catch up on my supervision logs for work / input missing time sheet hours