Flicking the ruler over the button like Konata playing track and field in Luck Star.

Not finding bookshelf speaker stands I like more than the idea of four concrete blocks and a gallon can of paint.

Much like my caller ID I expect to have half of North America muted before too much longer, yay word filters.

hooray, I could play a pvp game and have a positive kdr. That's a huge milestone cuz I haven't had the time or mental/physical ability since the spring I think!

It's gonna be really fucking funny if I do this one consultation for my doctor and I don't have ADHD/ASD as a test result. I have ALWAYS been the other in the room with little green antenna sticking out my head it seems.

Two years on that magic blue pill! Wish is was all 10 years earlier but I needed a roof over my head and to put thing straight.

Well since I’m a free agent now I might as well look around when I’m ready. Burned SO hard yet nobody was going to say stop as they’re worried if I could safely drive home or use a screwdriver. Lunch/coffee dates for now.

NE regional again for follow up appointment.

*smuggly looking at tracker a day late* Damn right you out for delivery. But really we’re like oh gosh y’all work too hard and get screwed over so fast.

I'm not scared of needles. I just politely look away whenever i get blood drawn. So that the phlebotomist doesn't get nervous.

I love all my friends. From my old life, now life, even the ones I don’t know well but still want to meet one day.

SMSL SA 300 and Micca MB42X G2 are pretty satisfactory for me. My ears and sources are not fantastic anymore and apartment means no sub.

Also worried what my next move will be. Even if I go back, techbro CEO acquired persona makes me uniquely suicidal by proximity. So even a custom role would have to be hugely insulating.

Not much to post with being stuck in abed or couch most of the time. Too much brain fog for harder games. recovery is sloooow.

Ruger hasn’t shipped me my replacement rifle yet after the cracked receiver. Very transphobic. Also taking suggestions for glass.

This dysphoria hoodie is like 20 years old now and the comfiest fucking thing right now. cardigans at in the wash and I blew through meds.

Tiddy up a little. (brain fucking melts down and lose balance) mkay collapsing here and waiting for 6pm dose.

Woo CTA and refer to neurosurgery for an opinion.

Going by the numbers we only make about 40-48 mistakes per 8 hour work day. Out of 16,000 decisions.

Take a bunch of portraits, absolutely hate my face, delete all portraits, depression continues.

While I appreciate the replies it doesn’t point me in a gainful direction with a new disability and disdain for the choices I set in motion 20 years ago.

If you were gonna completely leave manufacturing, engineering, etc what would you do?

Really hope that 18x21 lesion in my brain goes places. But doubt is will.

Take a huge nap, wake up with some sleep paralysis, alarm, then down lorazepam and estrogen to really perk myself up.

Everybody wants 3d printers but not the WEDM extrusion dies for the channel or CF rod. Not the metallurgy in the nozzles or turning to thread them. Precision rails but no hones or hydraulically stabilized grinder beds to make those. The 1950’s gear jobs updated and robot loaded.

If you were gonna completely leave manufacturing, engineering, etc what would you do?

Yay greenlight for 12mg a day. Take that catatonia.

Struggling, I wanna be designing factories and doing automation integration, and process design for first products. Not mostly stuck dealing with health shit. At the same time I really fucking hate manufacturing here and IDK what do to anymore. My family is here an I want to stay.

Been messing with a cane a lil bit, and, yeah pretty nice improvement so far with hip pain and my awful balance these days.

I want someone to beat me black and blue so hard I can’t notice my disability for a whole weekend.

Goofing with a friendly little project box. I have a cast aluminum double outlet kinda like this from way way back.

I seem to be attracting plural lesbians. I mean I am plural lesbians, and I’m dating a plural lesbian. But why is my DMs filling up with them too lmao.

"who radicalized you" Nothing radicalized me, I was born with basic empathy. The world decided that was radical.

My cane. Certainly making travel easier.

I don’t need to be an expert in your field to realize you are not an expert in your field.

New cane is lovely. Traveling for the first time with it. So still trying to get the hang of it. But my hip and balance don’t stand a chance today. I do identify the need to do PT exercises later.

HOW TO FEEL ALIVE

Well, hell. Looks like I'm going to need to drink more coffee. Dick Cheney died and I'm going to need a full bladder for the funeral.

bless the dolls that go from locktober straight through nnn, you’re all braver than any u.s. marine

mentally ill ppl can just see thru the veil this a label put on us by neurotypical ppl who can't see shit

Walking stick and cane users, if I may...when and why do you use them, at what point did you finally start?

Walking stick and cane users, if I may...when and why do you use them, at what point did you finally start?

weeeh first time since early August I’ve had full command of my body. Still a little heavy on me mentally since my tolerance has moved over two months but that’ll level in a couple days.

@kallidorarho.bsky.social You've heard of Femboys and Firearms, now get ready for Women and Weapons (by Marcus Gray Arts)

Weee on-call says I get to up to 6mg per day. That’s a start. “We like that sort of 8 hour interval it makes it easy” “oh you get a 2 hour burn time, yeah that’s a bit of a problem” Placing my bets at 12mg/day Ativan. I have enough data on myself to back that up.

Mmm yeah withdraw headaches just point and laugh at rizatriptan+gabapentin+Emgality huh

I finally got my migraine injections a week late. Special order. Needs PA. Get sent back to supply house. Get PA. Needs shipped in. mfg coupon not applied, refund and rerun. $3000 of meds for $35. And I about cry every time this happens.

Mkay let’s see how the half life of this dose goes today. I still think it’s going to fall short for even sedentary life. My mental notes from when I was working point to a lot more of a more effective drug.