one thing I've been really excited about since embracing womanhood is exploring masculinity in a way that doesn't feel alienating, cruel, or vicious. And, for that matter, I now have the perspective to examine viciousness and cruelty in a different light than the terror of a child touching a stove.

it is hanging in the middle of the wall in my living room, with absolute pride of place. I love looking at this print.

I'm gonna talk about the game I've been getting into and the decks I've put online and what I like about them and go over some of the other ones just because I like Sorcery and the art is gorgeous and the game is fun and the cards feel excellent and the foils are full art on the back and embossed

oh and the last pip was apparently just a warning one, failing it put me on this new final one and it's not going great I'm pretty sure I'm getting fired in two weeks

still tired of being scared but the sheets from this shoot turned out dope as hell. the night portrait worked out to wash my face out in a way that looks super spooky. my favorite portrait ever taken of me is in there. did you know you can crop a 4x5 scan? it's legal, nobody will stop you

I should get my prog refilled, it was surprisingly helpful for staying asleep through the night

Good morning, my team is unionizing! Super excited and hoping that Hasbro and Wizards of the Coast will voluntarily recognize us! I'm so proud of my team for coming together to advocate for our needs.

which way, walking disaster

just kidding I'm working on some heavily dope shit for threeasel, puppeting an anime girl with my face can wait

𝙼𝙾𝙳𝙸𝙵𝙸𝙲𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽

dunno what I ate to cause it but my guts are squelching loud enough to sound exactly like a lil frog going "rabbit" every five seconds or so and I'm afraid to change my posture because frogs are cute and I like thinking about them

strongly considering streaming a weird new rhythm game tonight. I expect to be bad at it, and also for it to be somewhere between very funny parody of Online and immersive horror about Online

GEICO Agent: YOU HIT A WHAT

fixed vtubestudio plugging into obs. broke rocksmith.

remembered another fantastic rabbit junk song about a bicycle today and the immediate follow up track on this album is "death of a bike thief"

ok yeah we've got some gas to cook with for sure, I gotta see if I can get the palette thing working but either way there's some excitement in the photos I'm working on (got my film scanner working on Linux)

fuuuuuuuuuck, i think my dishwasher's circulation pump is dying

it's super fitting that the straight pasta is called spaghet

holy shit I missed a new truckfighters record, it's been ten years since the last one

oh this time the looming deadlines are a source of paralytic dread instead of making me feel energized and driven, that's not good

kind of want to set up VMs with various versions of Red Hat Linux from the mid-late 90s to search for a game I vaguely remember but I have way more important things to do

mission failed, passed out under my desk trying to get the scanner plugged in for two hours having ice cream for dinner and going to bed

TODO for today: - be sick - scan film to see which pictures i want to get prettied up as representative of my perspective as a photographer - write primers for my other couple of sorcery decks that I have played enough to be comfortable pretending at expertise - sniffle and cough - nap?????

strongly considering applying for a security role at figma but I'm not confident I'll be able to avoid saying figma balls

you shouldn’t learn about bands from shady TikTok manipulation, you should learn about bands by hanging out with a girl you like but are also extremely afraid of

oh no graphics driver update broke steam

it must feel really good to have someone just blind run `sudo vkpurge rm all` after updating the kernel

you ever think about how Stockholm syndrome is some bullshit that a cop psychologist made up about why hostages in a bank robbery disliked the incompetent, dangerous, and excessively violent police response to a robbery by blaming the victims to run cover for the incompetent, dangerous, violent cops

holy fuck it's amazing to look down at my feet and feel cute instead of oafish this is incredible I love being a woman

okay yea it's actually insane to see a studio logo i made on my bedroom floor with some insanely jank rigs in a feature film trailer im so excited for y'all to see this movie oh my god, everyone fuckin killed it youtu.be/rpoZljpHGL4?...

today i am going to see these guys

sum total of the day: - gave a friend 2 gifts he was *extremely* excited about (including a region 2 copy of Face/Off on UMD for the PSP) - Set up scrobbling on my office laptop - Pushed the branch of my "ppinvert.py" script that seems most promising to github for further testing - played bass

Broke as Fuck: Welcome to womanhood, girlie 💅 Consider Instead: AWAKEN MY CHILD AND EMBRACE THE GLORY THAT IS YOUR BIRTHRIGHT. KNOW THAT I AM THE OVERMIND; THE ETERNAL WILL OF THE SWARM, AND YOU HAVE BEEN CREATED TO SERVE ME

oops my last.fm API secret didn't go in the password manager so I gotta magic-wormhole a config to myself

oops today is also a "forget breakfast" day because apparently if I go to work without eating I just don't eat

my big thing about economists saying that "everyone is doing okay" is that absolutely nobody agrees on what "okay" means

also this hasn't happened since switching from Cinnamon/XORG to KDE on Wayland even with explicitly GPU-accelerating Wezterm and Floorp so what the fuck

oh my vyvanse got upped and filled so I guess today's a Posting Day while work involves a bunch of hurrying up and waiting for computers to talk to networks and be mean to each other

I have a HEALTH song stuck in my head (HATEFUL off of RAT WARS). The segment of the song looping through my brain feels resonant in a way that has me feeling ready to embrace the catharsis of crying, BUT the song does NOT feel like I will cry to it and I am not sure what other song I could cry to.

cybersecurity is a scam. "oh you need to have a password that;s hard for a computer to guess? Let the computer come up with a password and remember it for you." they have played us for absolute fools

fell down a rabbit hole, apparently the most thorough guides for Baldur's Gate 1&2 are written by a woman who has been thoroughly blogging all her video game opinions since the 1980s. she gave Baldur's Gate 3 a 2.1/10 rating and scathingly calls it a reddit RPG lilura1.blogspot.com/2024/01/Redd...

you know for a game called StarCraft there was surprisingly little crafting of stars in it

holy shit HEALTH and Carpenter Brut was one of the three loudest shows I've ever been to

I forgot the scan film part of this I'm gonna try to get the code done

I think I'm gonna stir fry some tofu and broccoli for dinner, scan some 4x5 negatives, and then get back to figuring out code for quantizing a color scan and applying the resultant palette to the inverted black and white negative. I've got a new idea for it that I think has serious potential.

finally asked my immediate team at work to call me Anathema, or Ana for short so I'm out to more than just my boss, ex-boss, and grandboss now. probably putting that name on the "about me" slide for the big Thursday knowledge share call while I'm at it.

none of the 15 or so drafts this morning we made of this bit could have been cooked into a better quote than the one they actually just said out loud on the money channel with a straight face

there is a surprising amount of variance between cities regarding annual numbers of victims of traffic violence and deliberate (criminal; police violence is a whole other number) violence but thousands to tens of thousands of injuries per year per city is outrageous and repulsively negligent.