And yes, this includes my pen name :P (I've known what it's gonna be for ages - hence TBA not TBD - but I've been holding off on revealing it until I sort out Logistics:tm:)

🎶🎵If he drives you to the criming he’s a fed If he drives you to the criming he’s a fed If he drives you to the criming And his posts are gross and slimy If he drives you to the criming he’s a fed🎵🎶

Reviewed the thumbnail for Book 1's cover I am beyond excited! (My housemate's likely gonna have to peel me off the ceiling <.<) Artists are freaking wizards; my janky MSPaint stick drawing, a notepad description dump, and like four reference images are being transformed into pure awesomesauce!

Woke up from yet another round of nightmares (pretty constant this time of year, gimme ~1.5 weeks and they'll subside) Last night's set of nightmares featured fantastical variations on themes of loss Then my brain hits me with the [obvious in retrospect] stinger 'Is this loss?' I woke up fuming

There's some *options* for my old high school A prominent sitcom actor, director, show host, and commedian (died 2022) The primary student behind the lawsuit that netted the US Supreme Court ruling re: public school-sanctioned Bible readings being unconstitutional

The whistles I requested from the Leftist Supply Depot/Whistle Printing Alliance Chaos Vortex have arrived! (Pics to come once I am less-deadzo, but they're bitonal mini-kitkat-sorta-sized ones, green + black) Post-Bloodpocalypse, I'm gonna hand them out to my neighbors linktr.ee/3Dwhistles

Book 1 cover commision is a go Book 1 is getting edits, I have like 2 more weeks before those are due back to me I have a clear shot at doing both the beta reading I owe one friend and drafting another large chunk of Book 2 Uterus: Fucking lul, *Bloodpocalypse intensifies*

Given a kitchen, stock pot, stove, + freezer space... Rotisserie chicken --> chicken broth I'm allergic to heat and can't stand by the stove, and can still do this every few months So feeze that carcass until you're ready; do not worry about thawing it, and even freezer-burnt works just fine

So the old predominant pronoun labeler got deleted This one is still spooling up but seems promising, if folks have any other pronoun labelers I'd love to see them and make sure I'm subscribed

"We would have lost so much if we'd driven him away" is the justification. But we lost all those girls. We lost the women they would have become. We lost the work they would have done. Why was his future work so much more valuable than theirs?

This had never occurred to me before, and the more I think about it the more terrifying it is Nopenopenopenope Juggling an incredibly neurodivergent cast is already plenty

In retrospect, one of my earliest clear "I wish I could be like that" moments is associated with the Olympics When I was in middle school iirc, the Winter Olympics coverage was mangled by NBC such that it was impossible to just watch a damn event start to finish Except Curling, on USA network

Loot that drops after defeating me: - A Chirp wheel - A half-eaten plain bagel + cream cheese - A Brita water bottle that probably needs to go through the dishwasher - A Yellow Submarine - A trove of fun factoids and puns likely to make your audience lament language's existence - Too much cat fur

When I think of a lot of my formative works, it really kinda boils down to this And that's the energy I hope my own work ultimately brings to the table

Yeah, two sleeps with clonidine and the ever-present hives + flushing are ~90% gone This is goddamned medical sorcery and it's freaking awesome Only notable side effect I'm feeling is a little drowsiness? That's nbd, we already stan naptime here, and I won't say no to falling asleep faster

Two doses of clonidine in, and I can already say a few things 1. Probably gonna need to titrate the dose up quite a ways and/or trial it in patch form 2. Holy mast cell stabilizer, Batman! (My baseline flush/hives level is already fading some! My housemate even independently commented on it!)

So ~1.5 days later, I can confirm that I am ow Also, I looked back at timestamps and it was more like 2 hrs of laughter (no wonder my everything feels like I got hit by a bus) It was very much needed I could just go for a wee bit less pain (both achiness and myalgia) + fatigue on the back end

The whistle plates are feeling temperamental in this unexpected Alabama freeze, so instead of the cracking videos, enjoy 40 seconds of pretty colored whistles falling from the sky. 😂 174,765 shipped since mid December. ❤️ Get whistles/support us at linktree.ee/3Dwhistles 💕

Was hanging out with friends in a voice call Someone started sharing memes and then the floodgates opened and next thing I knew it was an hour later and my entire torso was sore from laughing so much I needed that, but I will definitely be all kinds of sore in odd ways tomorrow

This is such an excellent example of the kind of energy that helps holds the darkness at bay for a little while

Curled up and cozy as this 'Snowpocalypse' envelops Pittsburgh It's the perfect day to sip a warm drink while implementing one of the last rounds of feedback/edit notes for Book 1 Also, I finally 100% sorted funds for my cover art, so I can get that ball back in motion again!

We love a responsive doc! He okayed stopping the minoxidil and is swapping me to clonidine! (Notably, clonidine is a mast cell stabilizer and should also play nice alongside ADHD meds etc.)

Turns out failing off a med is doing wonders for today's productivity XP (I 100% understand why; brain decided to try and ignore the MCAS rxn and other strange/unhappy sensations by picking a dozen little action items and powering through them)

Insurance refuses to be bullied about the Zepbound XP And I haven't seen any indication that doc has tried writing a script for a PDL GLP-1 option So I took my first minoxidil dose last night, and I'm already like 95% sure this med is gonna be a fail due to it setting off MCAS rxns

The quoted interaction reminds me of this Xkcd comic in the best kind of way Congrats on being one of the lucky ones! And thank you to *everyone* who writes solid alt text!

So I got a pregnancy pillow last year for sleeping support to ease many pains It's mostly been quite successful However My two cattos have decided during this winter weather spell that the space between the pillow and my body makes for a top-tier cat bed My brain loves this, but my body is ow

today my therapist was talking about how adhd and ptsd can set each other off because it’s harder to regulate trauma responses when you’re already disregulated because you’ve forgotten to eat or drink all day so like idk who else needs to hear this but go drink a glass of water

Time to go poke my doc again about switching the GLP-1 script from Zepbound to something from the PDL Then moar fixing the start of book 2 (I've edited ~13.5k of 22.5k words, more on that in a sec)

when you are petting a cat and the purr descends in register from “love it” to the louder slower “oh hell yes now that’s the stuff” purr, that is a blessing in this world

damn it my ace ass has lived this

Oh my god she uploaded a slow motion video and it's amazing. He's just like me fr running as best he can and still going backwards over and over!

Back on my bullshit (bullying insurance) Doc prescribed Zepbound as my GLP-1, which is not on the preferred drugs list (PDL), so we're gonna try to force through a prior auth on one from the PDL Hopefully we can yet this all resolved such that I can pick it all up with my other Rx'es next week :P

We have an update on Charlie’s newfound love of printing.

Charlie has figured out how to make the printer print test pages and now it’s all he wants to do.

Got home around noon, immediately went and napped in my own goddamned bed and have been mostly curled up with two very cuddly cattos since then

Insurance has now called me twice, oh so helpfully telling me my Prior Auth has been denied, without ever indicating which thing was, y'know, denied :P Anywho, heading home tomorrow, then I get to go on the documentation warpath and bludgeon insurance assholes with a plurality of large trout

Wtf Bluesky I keep trying to like posts, it registers, then like 5-10 secs later it undoes the like?

Oooooh, pharmacy notifications indicate the cromolyn prior auth made it through <.< So two to go, GLP-1 and T (I honestly think what's most likely with the GLP-1 is they reject the one my doc prescribed and make me trial a different one first, but so long as one gets covered I'm not too fussy)

Basically Jack Reacher has sex with The Law Enforcement Officer Du Livre as a break for the author exhausted by choreographing constant violence. Whereas a Regency duke has a full bare-knuckle boxing scene as a break for the author who really cannot think of one more synonym for penis.

Kingdom Hearts 1 Pokemon Emerald Final Fantasy X Fire Emblem: Path of Radiance

Well my bet (option 1) was wrong Option 3 won! Y'know, the BP med that is in no way a first-line pick :P Anywho, I've armed my doc with more documentation, and am aggregating literature (largely compiled by @rahaeli.bsky.social) to bludgeon insurance with when they reject the PA reqs

My parents are starting to grasp the scope/extent of my dietary fuckeries as I attempt to sift through MCAS triggers and determine my sensitivity levels (Dad's handling this better than mom is) I also get to call my pharmacy tomorrow and see which 3 of the 4 new meds pinged as needing prior auths

A small yet valuable action item for Discord users: Voice your vehement opposition to AI integration! (They backed off when everyone yelled at them in an analogous survey regarding blockchain integration; they *are* bullyable) Last question is free response, so there's room to pop off hard

EVERYONE DO THIS SURVEY MAKE DISCORD PANIC AND REGRET AND REVERSE COURSE DROWN THEM IN YOUR HATRED FOR GENAI

Good news! Doc still a mensch! - Presumptive MCAS diagnosis (mild), trialing cromolyn for flares - Trialing low dose T (insurance may not cover) with the understanding that if it goes well I'll see an endocrinologist for further care/modifications - We're bullying insurance re: GLP-1 med

Doc appointment tomorrow On the whole, my PCP is a mensch, and has done an excellent job of listening to me and providing really good care And yet I am anxious, cuz there's so damn much to cover, and I have way less safety net than I did even 3 months ago, and I am so over my body's BS

i know we're all busy but i just overheard a plumber say "parlez-vous français ? non ? you motherfuckers don't even speak french, do you" to a pair of french bulldogs

Finally got to watch Sinners And holy fucking shit, no wonder everyone was talking about it

Made it I am ow I am Bloodpocalypse I am severely overheating at the temp my parents keep the house And cuz dad had the big work truck, I am "shaken, not stirred"