the meds keeping me sane are also making me fat

0 days sober damn

ok my soup + protein powder & a slice of bread is exactly 500kcal

found one that isn't based on a month which i like caterpillarsky

i think i will be ok if i stay under 500kcal today & chicken + rice soup will do the trick(i hope)

I've managed a 20 hour fast so i may have some soup bc the low blood sugar anxiety is getting to me

yeah the number didn't go down 😭🥀 didn't go up either but like, I've been working so hard to res 🥀

need my blood work results to come back this waiting is excruciating

caterpillarsky used to be so poppin but i hope people r recovering bc this disorder fucking sucks

ive drank a lot of liquid already but i wanna weigh... idk tho i NEED the number to be lower than last time..

here’s my music too. streaming my music helps a TON! i get “royalties,” so if you don’t have the means to donate? or you don’t feel comfortable enough sharing my GoFundMe to your irl’s? (which i completely understand) listening to my (now very old) music helps too! 🩵 open.spotify.com/track/2iMmlS...

ｏ o ○ ○ ╭◜◝ ͡ ◜◝ ͡ ◝ ͡ ╮ ( low bmi ) ╭◜◝ ͡ ◜◝ ͡ ◝ ͡ ╮ ͜ ◞ ͜ ◟◞╯ ͡ ◝ ͡◝╮ ( tiny waist ) ( high grades ) ╰◟◞ ͜ ◟◞ ͜ ◟◞╯ ╰◟◞ ͜ ◟◞ ͜ ◟◞╯

smaller smaller smaller smaller i need to be smaller

I need to hurry up and get skinny bro Its embarrassing being this big💀💀💀 It looks so bad on me Odd body bitch

Ive basically just stopped buying groceries bc I'm sick & tired of having food around me

Im determined to not eat today my fat ass does NOT need it

someone told me today they weighed less than 80lbs at one point & oh my god i couldn't help but feel insanely jealous 🥀

i was so close to my goal weight & then i was convinced to try recovery & gained 30 fucking pounds

i just wanna be skinny :(

FIRST DAY OF SPOOKY SEASON

Can anyone help out oomf please?

this is why caterpillarsky needs to exist bc where else can i say stuff like this & get positive feedback 💖💖💖

having an ED is so silly sometimes bc why am i sitting here thinking "my Bitmoji isn't skinny enough 👹" girl get a GRIP lmfao 😭

dream toilet fr

sw 140 cw 136 gw 118 my lw is 111 so i know i can do it ❤️‍🩹

Wamt potato

atp id be happy with a bmi of 18 even like.. lw please come to me i wasn't appreciative enough 😭🥀

piggy eat = piggy exercise

weighing in today to see if I'm making any progress

I wish smoking wasn't so bad for you. The feeling is so nice. The action is so relaxing. The ability to take a mostly socially acceptable break from something is so nice. The excuse to go outside and breathe. Idk. I like smoking. I just wish it wasn't horrible for me. I wouldn't stop if it wasn't.

intuitive eating just doesn’t work for me. unfortunately my intuition is to eat like a fat ass

if i could just… crawl out my skin

omg is #caterpillarsky back ??

We are at the “distractions from distractions” phase of this administration.

aahhhhhhhhhhhhdhhdhhsjdmsmsksudusjejdjsjsjhdjskj

something that always ends up triggering the ednos voices is that anime trope where the female protagonist gets picked up by the male lead & he'll be like "ur too thin u need to gain weight/eat more" i end up feeling jealous bc im not thin enough to make ppl worry💀😭

i wanna be maomao

currently

been getting called "muscle mommy" lately & like.. I'm kinda here for it lol

mood #edsky #caterpillarsky #slitsky

✨ self care ✨

mealspo🎀 #edsky #caterpillarsky #edtwt

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i love my chemicals 🤗🥰😍😘 #edsky #caterpillarsky

face reveal

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on hour 13 of fasting & now I'm running errands so i won't be able to eat for a few more hours ! going for 20 hours 🫡🤞🏻

🥹 #edsky #caterpillarsky