Found out that the wiring in our apartment is letting the pixies out into the wall somehow. my entire headboard wall is a huge em field generator. This might explain the headaches, nightmares, and sensitivities since we moved our bed. I cant even

My entire career as a stagehand has been “how to make it work in the least negligent way we have the funding for“. Definitively different than “educated how to do it properly“ This is not a marketable skillset outside the industry. Might be time to learn something new, not feeling good about this.

I have found that the color from my clothing and skin triggers my visual sensitivity worse than those at a distance, so i guess i get to have an involuntary goth phase. might be able to get by with earth tones, but black is deff easier on the eyes. Glad i used to be a stagehand

If it can consent and has sapience, it can be in a relationship. Until then, its a product and should be approached in a healthy manner like any other vice

a few months ago, my doc said i should stop drinking caffeine and smoking to adjust to new meds. Turns out the caffeine was the only thing keeping my executive function afloat and my major depressive episode was just a lack of stimulants. hoping things get better with this information in hand

What a time to have major medical issues and be forced to find a new career because of it. This is gonna be exhausting

We are a fascist nation

My plant died in 2023: This is life and sometimes loss is part of existing My plant died today: I cant save my friends, family, and neighbors from getting kidnapped and trafficd; and now i cant even save my plants from dieing in front of me. I am a waste of space

As much as i love EVs, they're just rolling migraines. The sounds, the displays, the lighting, all of it sets off my migraines. I just want a car that's better for the environment and doesn't make me wish that death would come for me

Hundreds of Starbucks baristas and labor organizers blockaded Starbucks' largest distribution center in York, Pennsylvania, halting distribution of syrups, coffee beans, and other supplies to the entire northeast. This escalation is part of @sbworkersunited.org's ongoing strike.

If you use GMail, AI (Gemini) was turned on yesterday by default and now scans all of your content for machine learning. To turn off, go to Settings>General and scroll down. Uncheck the box for "Smart features." There's other "Smart" add-ons as well, but that's the one that reads your content.

Thank you Wonder Woman 🇺🇲🎇❤️

i know i keep posting this and then deleting it out of self-consciousness or whatever, and i know everything is awful for everyone, but... if you can. things get more complicated for us every day.

👏🏻👏🏻 I hope We Ain't Buying It sends shock waves through the money-grubbing billionaire class. It's not just Kindles and wrench sets we're not buying. We're not buying the continual degradation of American lives to feed the rapacious greed of 1-2% of people who make 💰so fast they can never spend it.

I got halfway through shaving the first leg and my shaver died. Which goddess thinks i pissed in her cheerios today?

NEW: Epstein survivors release the most powerful PSA I have ever seen. Make this go viral so every member of the House of Representatives sees it.

FYI - AI is now auto-enabled in gmail by default. Here's how to turn it off: www.tumblr.com/imonthemooni... #fuckai #allmyhomieshateai #googlewtf

Real-time End-to-end Surveillance.

Health update, since discontinuing spironolactone my fight or flight instinct is slowly returning to normal and my light sensitivity is gradually getting better. Hopefully no lasting damage I managed a trip to the grocery store today. Still had to wear cat 4 sunglasses, but baby steps

The niche of my law practice is representing women, minorities and whistleblowers in vindicating their civil rights in employment. Having done this work for years now, I have come to understand something that I feel like sharing this morning: White people and Black people have a VERY different

Feeling lucky today. Pinched a nerve(again) and my whole shoulder/neck area seized up, but i forgot to dispose of some muscle relaxers from when i had health coverage. So, yay, less pain instead of a week of muscle spasms

I worked with a few people that worked at various tech theater roles at the house of mouse, and they used a phrase to describe their treatment that stuck with me for a long time, but I've never needed it. Feels more appropriate now though, Mouschwitz. #boycottdisney

Tried to go for a walk since its dark, but turns out the LED streetlights in my neighborhood are a major aggressor for my migraines, and they are right next to my windows bouncing all around my home. Fuck me i guess ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

Saga was not in fact complete. The new drugs they gave me made it worse in the other direction, down to half dose and I can go outside again after 4 days. Hoping i don't need glacier climbing glasses after this is all the way out of my system. i need to get back to work 😮‍💨

Turns out all of my health services to date this year if you included the part my insurance paid for, including an emergency room visit, would have been cheaper than my plan and copays in the same period. Wouldnt have waited so much either. Burn it down

welp, this saga is finally? coming to a close. My estradiol patches were outside their specified use instructions because the ambient temperature was too high. Combined with a preexisting sensitivity life got reeeeal weird. Heat wave broke my medicine 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🎭 Migraine glasses help though. Love that.

Turns out my estradiol transdermal patches were possibly causing my increased sensitivity because the weather was outside its temp spec. My eye is still fucked, just way less anxious than before. Off to convince my primary to let me try a new form factor tomorrow

well, i finally understand how to clear my mind. The flourescent and LED light in all the relaxation spaces filled my brain with thoughts of running or fighting, but being able to finally remove that noise after 40 years is a game changer.

ooooh, dev options in android let you force grammatical gender, curious how well this works. I was just here to force android into left hand mode

After seeing this im not so sure they respect my privacy.

On a better note, my sensitivity to everything made my anxiety trigger more obvious. so maybe we can actually solve it

Fun story, even if the pharmacy tells you you can have a small amount of your vices with your drugs, you really should read the list of dos and dont. A bad interaction(combined with a deformity you didnt know existed) can make your nervous system suuuper sensittive. ugh.

Incandescent lights, that's it

I'm keeping notation in physical form, updating digitally is a hassle, all digitally backed up tho

Weeellp, I have been regulated long enough I can now tell when my wife is disinterested. That's really all for the day, got some migraine glasses. They help quite a bit, I'm still anxious in the sunlight,. But not an overwhelming amount

Turns out, my problem is monosaturation

Interesting: when I put on a brimmed cap how much of my vision is covered colors can affect the amount of feeling induced. Same observation with downward vision. Coverage by coat as well. Monosat issue persists.

I feel sleepy, like my blood is going too slow, it's honestly a little unpleasant at first. After resting in it for a few seconds to let my brain adjust it stops being unpleasant pretty quickly. This is what I mean by relief, hope this helps clear things up. 2/2

Okay, so. Apparently I am describing things too ephemerally. My descriptors have evaded too many minds. If I cover my eyes and breath deeply, until the lowest parts of the lungs are full and empty, I can feel a significant reduction in stress. 1/2

Okay, so I narrowed in on a set of filters that help allevit myself. Turns out this band has been looked at for other issues with visual sensitivities. Feels good to have hope. Trying out migraine glasses on top of color therapy for my living space

On ethics rq, I was asked recently what would give me the idea that I have the right to police the people I meet, and my response needed time to percolate. I believe it is the moral imperative of those who have the leeway to stop intolerance in places where people view them as a trustworthy peer

Rose tinted glasses. If I wear em too long I get a little loopy, but they seem to be adjusting (+167°ish) my mood appropriately. Also gamma adjusted my computer instead of monosat, that has alleviated some of the stress, along with low contrast and dropped brightness. Good so far

Okay. I think I finally have a good explanation for the sensation. When I have something triggering in my FoV my brain juice gets stuck , like a gas pedal stuck on the floor. Only option is turn off the car at that point. Y'know, unless that's not an option

Spent today with grayscale 30% polarized. Have an event this evening so I took a nap 3 hours before I needed to get ready. Feel asleep immediately, up 30 minutes later, well rested. So. That's new. Even just having the phone in my field of vision raises my anxiety noticeably

Found a love note on the back of a painting I found thrifting. It's dated like a decade ago. Got some sads about that.

Small experiment. Reading time of similar difficulty, in similar styles, but topically diverse texts. 3 Digital, 3 Analog. About 1/4 of Digital regulation breaks using white paper. Now that I'm more regulated and coffinated, I realize I should have timed them.

After some thought. It seems like orange light therapy, or orange monosaturate lenses like I wore earlier, just add happiness to the anxiety and mask my ability to self regulate the problem.