chicken tortilla soup with cheesy green chile cornbread hoh yeah, eatin' good

MF DOOM

about two hours into RE Requiem, and after playing around with the camera options, I decided to go with third-person for both Grace and Leon intent be damned it feels better for both

Trans rights is human rights and that’s that.

High-Flying Adventurer #grapefulart

"I should wait until I have the skills to draw/write/make this, I'm not ready yet..." don't tell yourself this!! you can make the art you want to see now!! this is how you learn to make even more good stuff later!!

"you unga'd your last fuckin' bunga buddy," I say before I bring my comedically large club down on his head and make a soft 𝘣𝘰𝘯𝘬! noise

yeah this movie was insulting tbh

just watched Return to Silent Hill what in the absolute fuck

find you a friend group of about a dozen people where you meet up yearly at the sepulveda dam and recreate the buckaroo banzai credits sequence

removing my glasses with shaky hands, taking a moment to steel myself, and then staring ahead as I say in a solemn voice "the vengabus is coming."

"Head on straight, mask on crooked." For my friend @liquidmetalface.bsky.social

a good salad needs at least two varieties of crunchy things for the texture possibly more

The Blade (1995) A revisionist wuxia that tears down the genre to its raw exposed nerves. It's a whirlwind of brutal violence and scarred bodies and dirt and clashing metal and ANGER at an unjust world. First Tsui Hark film that I've seen. Need to see more.

seeing spoilers from Return to Silent Hill in my timeline and immediately taking psychic damage

sloppy joseph

Squeeze the juice out, of all the suckers with power And pour some back out, so as to water the flowers This world is ours, that's why the demons are leery It's our inheritance—this is my Robbin Hood Theory

One of my all-time favorite noir films, and arguably the final film of the classic period. It's a mean little film with razor-sharp writing, directing, and lead performances. A hidden gem of the genre. Sets up a lot of the pieces that neo-noir would later pick up and run with.

Elevator to the Gallows (1958) I love noir movies where characters' plans are undone by their own egos. This one is a perfect example. Still feels very modern with its atmosphere and editing. Also, it's THE film that bridged the gap between noir and jazz by hiring Miles Davis to do the soundtrack.

A rush of words, pleading to disperse Upon your naked walls, alive A political call, the fall guy accord We can't afford to be neutral on a moving train

Messiah of Evil (1974) One of those weird horror films that feels like drifting through a nightmare. Shot in technicolor with deliriously strange set design and lots of bright red paint for blood. Reportedly inspired in equal parts by Lovecraft and Antonioni. Extremely unique atmosphere.

having my Velma Day right now (I have no idea where I put my glasses before I fell asleep last night)

standing in my kitchen at 1 am, repeatedly calling a pickle jar a "motherfucker" as I try to unscrew the cap

Doctor Beverly Crusher: "Hey Wes, what are you working on there?" Wesley Crusher: "Oh, I'm doing a project on whether it's possible to make people's nightmares real." Doctor Beverly Crusher: "Well, I'll leave you to it. Just make sure that your little experiment doesn't get out of control!"

it my birthday

"There's something terrible about reality and I don't know what it is. No one will tell me." Red Desert (1964)

"There's something terrible about reality and I don't know what it is. No one will tell me." Red Desert (1964)

me, seeing an actual monster rampaging and attacking people: "so what is this a metaphor for? what is it symbolizing?"

I need to go back to Alan Wake 2 and actually finish it but now I'm torn on whether I restart only that game or do I revisit the whole sequence (AW1 -> American Nightmare -> Control -> AW2) it's so much to replay, but I've also forgotten so much...

Righting Wrongs (1986) One of those absolutely bonkers Hong Kong action flicks where every few minutes you get a scene that makes you legitimately fear for the actors' safety It's also tonally bizarre in a fascinating way, switching from goofy slapstick comedy to utterly bleak crime drama

[oingo boingo voice]: "WEIRD PENIS! OOOH!"

Here's the full version!

if you've never heard the end credits song for Aliens Infestation on the Nintendo DS I beg you to stop and listen right now it's important

hate when I am set upon with ill intent do not do this to me, I don't like it !!

"This happened in MGS2" "This happened in Robocop" Yea well you know what other dystopic, political and influential joint also predicted/made known of a bunch of stuff that will happen That's right. Deltron 3030.

Welcome to Your New Home, Little Critter! #calliecollection

The Trap (1996) The final part of the Maiku Hama trilogy. It gets a bit messy and convoluted, but still a lot of fun. Right when everything is finally going right for him, Maiku is framed in a giallo-flavored murder case and has to clear his name. I could've watched a dozen more of these, easily.

The Stairway to the Distant Past (1995) The second entry in the Maiku Hama trilogy, now in color. And HOLY SHIT. This one starts off as a light comedic romp with our eccentric private eye, and then it spirals into a feverishly strange nightmare descent into the traumas of post-occupation Japan.

The Most Terrible Time in My Life (1994) What an absolute treat. A stylish, silly, and extremely violent love-letter to the Japanese New Wave. The first of the Maiku Hama trilogy. Going to need to watch them all now.

Spider Man stopped isekais once and for all

The Killer (1989) John Woo: "what if the assassin from Le Samourai was played by Chow Yun-fat and he was literally the coolest guy ever and he was extremely good at guns and also the lead detective chasing him down wanted to become his best friend" me: "hell yeah, brother, fuck yeah"

Now Reading: Blindsight by Peter Watts I've only started this one, and we already have vampires being a real, predatory subspecies of humans that were accidentally brought back through genetic experimentation and this is just a background detail in a sci-fi story about alien contact

reminding myself "this is an injury," and getting the parasympathetic nervous system to chill the fuck out are super crucial. it's not a panacea but there are some attacks it's very helpful for. Just reminding the body "you are not in danger right now" helps

one thing that helps me through the trauma is to tell myself "this is not happening right now, my mind is attempting to protect me by keeping me vigilant, but I am not presently in danger" and similar

my abuser repeatedly told me I'd never be anything without her because she made sure everyone thought it was all her doing.

one of the most difficult things to do after you've gotten away from an abuser, is convincing yourself that you are not the person they told you that you are it's the last remnant of the power and control they tried to exert over you, to prevent you from giving yourself the kindness you deserve

Rouge (1987) a tragedy in the form of ghost story, serving as a warning about romanticizing the past Anita Mui is heartbreaking in her role as a ghost returning to Hong Kong 50 years after her death, looking for her lost lover that didn't cross over with her