Head in fucking hands. There’s no neurology appointments available in the clinics I go to until fucking May

TikTok is now under US ownership and their new ToS reads like a guide to giving fascists everything they need to put you on a list. They’re collecting information about immigration status, citizenship, sexual orientation, whether you’re trans or non binary and physical or mental disabilities.

LMC N63A in X-ray and Visible Light - From Judy Schmidt (geckzilla.bsky.social) - https://flic.kr/p/2hdb3w5

Another ICE shooting in Minnesota. www.startribune.com/ice-raids-mi...

Had a hole spiral yesterday bc of my dad & it really is bringing me to more & more of a headspace of “i HAVE to move out one way or another” because jesus fucking christ.

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Not a single thought behind Zeus’s eyes

When will grief mode stop.

Didn’t wanna resort to this. Financial plans are falling through for moving to heal & to pursue my studies—& medical expenses are hard despite having a job So any donations/shares/etc are appreciated;; Paypal: www.paypal.com/pool/9l4FCF6... Venmo: @estrelladeishtar Ko-fi: ko-fi.com/estrelladeis...

Sure , the department i work in at my pharmacy job is focused on us doing purely dispensing & packaging meds & medication supplies & all But Expecting us to do 300 total prescriptions per person per day as our quota is fucking absurd. Especially when some of these orders have a high ass amount of

So my job caused me to sustain nerve damage after all.

The temptation to go back to having an onlyfans & restarting with sex work has spiked up again but i realistically know its probs not a good move when the very reason i left was bc i realized my unresolved trauma around sexuality was impacting that for me even if i had been doing fine w the work

Saturn on September 22, 2009 - From Gordan Ugarković (ugordan.bsky.social) - https://flic.kr/p/8jm9J4

Overwhelming emotions

When I see you “playing around with” ChatGPT “for fun” this is what I see you contributing to btw. It’s not cute, it’s not fun, it’s damaging. Just because you don’t personally see it doesn’t mean there’s no cost.

Musings from the front lines #art #oc #OCsky #tav #dnd

1. ICE has STOPPED PAYING for medical treatment for its 73,000 detainees ICE has not paid its bills to 3rd party providers since OCTOBER and the situation will likely persist for MONTHS, a Popular Information investigation reveals Meanwhile, critically ill ICE detainees are not receiving care 🧵

It should click for you how many who ask for mutual aid online are disabled. Disabled people are likely to be in poverty & isolation. Disability makes life under capitalism precarious. That’s why disability justice is intertwined with getting rid of capitalism & why mutual aid is disability justice.

Online became a lot more tolerable when I rejected fake ideas like "open discourse" and "starting a dialogue" and embraced a Morrowind quote instead

daydreaming about my OCs and stories to get me through another day

Mm there’s two doodles of kaletu im a lil antsy abt posting but i might anyways bc fuck it it has a bit more s glimpse of what he’s like that i feel is good to show off ig

Her again #art #oc #j #HYPERBOLT

Agent Jonathan my woman of all womans #art #J #HYPERBOLT

Genuinely wish i could get an answer from the universe on if M really did follow through with attempted doxxing/publicizing all the things he forced me to somewhere online. To at least know. Even though I’m p sure I know the answer to that already.

Might draw more of Kaletu again as a way to vent

There’s a lot of anger & grief around the topic of M especially bc I found out he terminated his account on twitter, this being something I found out before I fully left the place With that acct being the only remaining trace out there, some kind of proof, that what he did to me at 15/16 did happen

i like unlocking ONE (1) of my daily sketchbook comic posts a week. Here's the one people liked the most from the past week www.patreon.com/posts/147975...

My grievance with the notion of talent is how much it disempowers individuals and how deterministic it is — how it causes most to believe that there is an age limit to learning and developing skills, and most importantly, that it’s not as worthy of trying as a result

You gotta embrace the fact that you might be ass at something for a little while but that it’ll always be better than not having tried at all

Went to an aquarium supply store last night and was delighted to see the staff in N95 masks and all customers still required to wear masks also. I wish I saw more places still doing this. The “Covid surcharges” sign behind the till particularly got me 😂 #YEG #CovidIsNotOver

In any case EMG to be done this week for my hand/arm

The more I think about this, the angrier I get. It takes a particularly virulent strain of sociopathy to sit and let hard-working people serve you a meal knowing that you plan to arrest them and send them off for deportation once they're off of work. Really depraved shit.

Noticing it was after certain things transit wise for this month that ive started realizing i /may/ be catching feelings after all & im just Head in hands. @ the universe: really. Fucking really.

you will have to pry the millennial “lol” from my cold dead hands. i don’t know how else to express minor despair. if i didn’t say “lol” after admitting i’m a husk inside, i’d have to develop emotional resilience, and i simply don’t have time for that

Thinking of a few Malcolm x speeches as they tell people getting kidnapped in the streets by masked thugs to ‘remain calm’

Help your neighbors ❤️

The headaches & severe fatigue i’ve been getting these days are a lot The job is legit getting to me.

i need authors and agents to be much louder with their publishers how much they hate gen ai and make it embarrassing/financially harmful for publishers to be associated with it at every level (incl marketing, publicity, and sales)

First date idea, I show you my current WIP, my side WIP, and my WIP I keep open just in case I get an idea and feel like working on it (it's been 5 months)

“ICE’s recruitment push is so sloppy that the administration effectively has no idea who’s joining the agency’s ranks. We’re all, collectively, in the dark about whom the state is arming, tasking with the most sensitive of law enforcement work, and then sending into America’s streets.”

The Reader by fredericforest

the frustrating feeling that I'm poss feeling certain things for someone bc this is. not. supposed to be a thing.

it's monday and i've reached my limit

From a good friend in Minneapolis: "Target is allowing ICE to stage in their parking lots, use their restrooms, and abduct people from inside their stores - so if you weren’t boycotting already, now is the time." They were staging in Chicago as well.

Genuinely hate when the doctors tell me I’m healthy as if i dont have an autoimmune condition that hasn’t yet fully taken hold but signs are v clearly there & as if I don’t have other health stuff going on All bc things keep “coming back normal” & it just is genuinely sending me into distress

hey so this is blatant false information punishing people for doing the right thing. no, it was not a "grabber". it was a reputable survey site that discord has used previously for limited surveys. nothing can """grab""" information if you dont provide it, which an anonymous survey didnt ask for.