Big fan of male torture

I need fish in my diet. I am sure that I feel this sick bec all I've been eating recently has been meat.

bruh i still can't figure out a good workflow I can do with huge illustrations without losing the quality of the lines 🥲

Got validated today that what I'm feeling is really unusual 🥲

!!!

🥲 lemme wallow today, I've been doing my best. My health crashed out so bad today, I am still extremely nauseous and I don't know why I forced myself out of bed rest because life goes on even if you're in pain so yeah Tried to condense a lot of work in 2 hours i was lucid enough to handle analysis

shucks i cant concentrate

SCREAMING >///<

fever again :(

losing it (fr)

my head aches so much...

I feel like I'm in a constant state of motion sickness this week. I feel so nauseous and I'm not sure if this is my vertigo or my body can feel the ground tremors bec i have insane sensitivity with vibrations

bruh i can't sleep bec my dogs have been crying idk why, ofc imma comfort my dogs i keep on wondering what is that thing they keep on staring at the window and im too tired to find out which spirit is haunting again

"Make it exist first, then make it good." Yes, I made it. Yes, there were (lots) blood, sweat and tears involved. #Kirakishou #RozenMaiden #AerynArt

As if the lace couldn't get more overwhelming, i added another layer of cotton lace because i need to buffer the sensory nightmare the 3D brocade is gonna induce in whoever wears this The lace are mostly ornamental I'm almost done. Just last 3 rounds of sewing for the hem AND THEN I CAN WASH THIS

i can feel the hysterical laugh bubbling up in my chest as i send that file

😂😭🤔 everytime i remember all the emails i have sent for a deadline tapos buzzer beater hahahaha grabe isang taon puro ganun ung submittals ko bec im so tired bruh never waste a single minute para walang revisions HAHA 😭😭😭

it’s Sunday on bluesky so I am urging everyone to take care of themselves. Take a walk, have a second cup of coffee or tea, read a book, spend some time looking at small poems

🥹 23:59 deadline Me: //submits 23:58 hahaha im so tired

ok ya kno what, i think i am feeling this incredibly weak and feverish and all things miserable bec ive been bleeding too heavily for this stress-induced delayed cycle.

i havea migraine and a fever, my deadlines are still there and i just wanna sleep

😭 im so sorry i complain a lot ok hahahahaahah

ngl i have a very cool head under pressure but it's just that im so tired, i cant even panic properly hahaa

🤔 if yall remember those months i was working on an airport design and now im working on a housing project and i can just copy paste the meltdown spiel i had with the airport into this housing project.

🧍 di talaga fun ung nag dissoc ako in real time nung ocular

🧍 bruh this is just a regular drawing +4 cards at Uno while my jenga tower gets added another 5 blocks and i have to play both while using one hand

2025 single handedly made me battle insanity every single day.

weird sensation of being mentally numb while my body is panicking haha

09.28 😭😭😭😭😭 MY SHAYLAAAAA

😭😭😭???????

For someone who has a lot of stuff to do, I sure am very chill (barely keeping it together haha)

:< i hope i don't fall into extreme apathy and demotivation today bec my spikes in emotion always have major drops afterwards... welp, sucks to have a broken brain and broken body, and a broken mind lmaaaaaaao the price of being an eldritch horror, I guess

:"< i got so angry that i now gave myself nausea and stomachache, a pounding headache, chest pain, and tingling of my limbs :(((( haha when strong emotions even make me sick 😭💀 ughhh

gagalet nanaman ako hahahaha char lang let go na, masyado akong pagod para mag-expend ng more unnecessary energy

😭 my lifespan is already so short because of my illness that i just have just a few left and my hormones are wrecking my body rn so my mood is all over the place so that thing triggered a blow up because bruh let me live my remaining life the way i want to ??????😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

ok i should change tactics and look people more in the eye with a dead fish eye stare and be creepier (a challenge bec i am always not mentally tethered to reality so i have a perpetual glassy eyed look) but anyways. im exhausted lmaooo

everytime someone says sayang daw ako, I always say "bakit?" And they try to explain And i say "pero bakit nga? Affected ka?" With a sweet smile and tilt of my head and THEN they get the hint that I dont give a flying fuck and they should mind their own biz

ung galit ko, sukdulan, and this is unhealthy without any proper outlets and i wanna cut my hair once again bec the alternative would be stabbing my poor old 5 ft teddy bear that have seen how much anger i have. another alternative would be throwing knvs at my door. My door still have the marks

it's very irrational but i feel violated every time someone thinks i am pretty and wants to court me romantically. It IS irrational, I am aware of that. But trauma that I won't disclose but there is a reason why I am aggressive and extremely aversive if someone shows interest in me that way.

I must charge this. I forgot to charge my headset shucks.

I should go back to journaling again. I was at my most sane when I was able to write in my journal everyday. (Fun fact: i customized my own journal. It's like 1500+ pages. Yes, it is hard bound, extremely thick and it looks like an encyclopedia)

Hahaha ;-;

😭??????

Not me waiting for moot to go through with that code geass Requiem zine bec bestie if u dont do it, i will extend my lifespan just to work on this (after this long term proj)

I spent a lot of my time being sane today cleaning up my own mess (physically and metaphorically)

I accidentally inhaled mold and my tongue is now a bit numb 💀

Gagi awa na lang o

My noise cancelling headset saving the day once again. How did i manage to get things done before without these huhu.

Yeah call me inflexible but i am an extremely busy person and my calendar is literally overflowing so yeah!! You can't tell me to suddenly change plans out of the blue because unlike you, I am on the clock here.

I feel sane and grounded today so that's a win. I'm also v proud of myself that i didn't lose my temper while driving today because pls, you DO NOT ARGUE with the one HANDLING THE WHEEL. I'm also cleaning up again so i feel like i can face my life again!!! it's so hard to remain grounded ok