i think the plan is to watch twin peaks all day

i love being too unwell to get out of bed past noon on christmas day and having nothing to look forward to if i did get up and having to overhear the one person i'm spending the holiday with on the phone to my sister misgendering me yet again and complaining about my sleep stuff like i want this :D

i think i'm in hell today. i hope everyone has a good one

That's it. I'm straight breaking Mrs. Claus.

If I may be selfish as well and ask for a little Christmas present: here's my master list. I've written a fair bit of mechsplo/ero horror since starting in May and there's probably something in there you'd like :> Specific recommendations (other than AotKH lmao) below:

i'm put off of bloober's stuff outside of sh2 because i heard their writing is bad and that's important for psychological horror imo. wondering if visage is good, or still wakes the deep. any others would be welcome. really obsessed with that unique vibe SH and AW2 bring . kinda lynch esque

Does anyone one have any good psychological horror game recs at the quality and atmosphere of like, Alan awake 2 and silent hill. And pt vibes but that's kinda silent hill also lol. I kinda worry AW2 is in a league of its own rn but mommy wants that spooky narrative itch scratched.

Been playing the silent hill 2 remake and went in with low expectations as a huge SH2 fan who has only ever heard critical things of the remake team. But it's been really great so far? I'm kinda surprised at how good it is. I heard bloober stumble most in writing so maybe a solid foundation helped?

scyllas lucky for the whole long distance thing tbh if we were closer i'd treat my girl in ways that'd make the patriarchy blush

Etta shooting asteropes

Etta Isotope

Singing Strix Part One: Our Nest. archiveofourown.org/works/740933... readonlymind.com/@R_O_Sulliva...

Singing Strix Side Mission #1: Fire in Her Eyes (the last real optional starting point!) archiveofourown.org/works/75990091 readonlymind.com/@R_O_Sulliva...

A small follow up to Pit Dog, (Pack)Mate. Two former hounds sit beneath the statrs and reflect on the past. archiveofourown.org/works/76278161 My last release of the year! I hope you enjoy :3

First painting in a long time. #WARHOUND

This is the hottest pic of scylla okay I don't wanna hear it if you disagree, this right here is my girl posing like a pin up girl with the DOGS on show with the prettiest smile you've ever laid eyes upon. I'm feral. Fuck. I'm unwell.

Pressing up against my enemies' thighs. Slick and seething. Kissing my enemies on their cheeks. Appropriately vexed. Pulling my enemies close and sinking teeth into their shoulders. Hating that soft, placating scent they carry. Keep your friends close, and your enemies loved and cherished. Tch.

Sentencing my enemies to: Pain Forever

bunnies are easily broken things

PROGGED UP. DRUGGED UP. BOOFED UP.

I really am friends with some of the best writers and coolest people alive. I am also pretty cool and write some good shit. Wow... I should befriend more cool people who write well. The world is a rainbow.

tara's my big sister

I genuinely get turned off by bare feet but every time I open Tara's profile I fear the banner will inflict the madness...

btw if you talk to me long enough i become related to you it's like an infection of a sort, parasitic familial bond

Can I confess that, while struggling with the worst concoction of sleep disorders I've ever dealt with in my life, I was dragged out to go see the new avatar on monday and that screening was the best sleep I'd had in days.

COMMERCIAL BREAK Huge thanks to @thatetherealichor.bsky.social for commissioning this work and to my beta readers @roxynychus.bsky.social and @connieshortfor.bsky.social <3 (Patreon pdf is free!) www.patreon.com/posts/commis... archiveofourown.org/works/75887021 readonlymind.com/@tara/Commer...

Follow me, dear. Adore me, dear. Fear me, dear.

This applies to erotic horror too <3

The best thing a horror story can be isn't scary, it's sad. I love tragedy and melancholy in horror much more than the scares themselves. Regret, loss, sacrifice... that fear sticks with you.

presenting a fresh convert

Low Pop Baby really, truly, is the song of all time. So cathartic

Wanna see me disco?

I'm really unwell right now, mentally and physically, which is why I've not really been around on here or discord and haven't gotten around to reading peoples direct messages yet. Thank you to anyone reaching out or supporting me in any other way. In the process of trying to get help. (Not dying)

i know its selfish but like. can people check up on me. like my friends and loved ones. and say nice things to me and that they like me and want me around and want to visit/be visited etc. that feels really childish to ask lol but itd be nice to wake up to or have happen tomorrow. xmas present >w<

It's a hard thing to acknowledge, as typically the desire for such a thing is spoken about in regards to like, an unhealthy level of need or a symptom of immaturity, but I think I'm just really attention starved. Particularly from like, ppl I want to connect with more. I need to give more too though

would it be okay if i delayed the patreon piece until january? im really not in a good place rn. idk if its okay. idk. im struggling

Kind of a little insecure atm about my place in the scene and general viability as an independent online writer. I think these feelings will probably blow over and things'll pick up again over the next month or so, but I worry I'm going down the wrong path with my style potentially? Becoming too-

A dog continues to follow orders long after her Master is in the ground. First time making anything mechsploitation related, and it's been years since I've written publicly, so I'm feeling rather excited about #mechsplomicrojam25 ! The 1000 word count was brutal. archiveofourown.org/works/76007681

Rebels Never Break A rebel pilot is captured and interrogated. was hit with a flash of inspiration and wrote this 1000 word mechsplo piece super quickly archiveofourown.org/works/76045806

It's time... Is Bailey Cluanaire the answer to Lark's deep-seated imperial trauma or a dangerous waste of her time? Find out in Fire in Her Eyes, an 11,900-word Singing Strix one-shot! Some proper mechsplo smut with a twist! archiveofourown.org/works/75990091 readonlymind.com/@R_O_Sulliva...

I think I probably undersold how weird and fun Commercial Break is in the graphic and description, you should read it! Definitely one of the most out there pieces of mine alongside last months Nouveau girl. Gonna be kinda funny doing the virginification story for this month after these hahahaha.

A Saint is called to return to Heaven. A Hound and her Handler love each other. My first foray into mechsploitation, pretty obviously inspired by @kallidorarho.bsky.social's WARHOUND, I originally planned this as part of the #mechsplomicrojam25 but it got away from me bc I'm bad at word counts lmao

ICYMI

daughter to an immortal queen who naturally remains a permanent princess. her only power is eternally prospective, and so she is forever unable to actually grow into her own, kept as a pampered daughter and told "maybe one day" for her entire life.

All of my friends are so hot I ranked my top five hottest friends is that an okay thing to do or is that like aberrant behaviour?

my day went from kind of bad day to really good day and thats because i grew up and stopped being sad?????

"The thing is, I can dunk." - Livvy, completely unprompted, apropos of nothing.

By the way, you don't have to personally like it or choose to engage with it, protecting your mentals is super valid, but it seriously rubs me the wrong way when a marginalised group fetishizing something that they are or were a target of is judged as 'problematic', especially from other minorities.

Saw that new FFXIV raid boss that's an extremely overtly horny leather dominatrix with *gasp* a military style peaked cap. I hope everyone's going to think critically about the aesthetics being sexualized here ://///////////