god he’s the fucking worst

Really feels like people aren't all that interested in my designs or commissions anymore, I've had so few sales while I see other artists having no issues. I can't afford to lower my prices any more but I also need to work to survive. Fuck this economy.

Bills have been extra high thanks to winter weather and gluten free food keeps getting more expensive, on top of fighting my entire nervous system over the past two months; I've been struggling. Give my Kofi shop and comms a look if you're interested, it can help me a lot. ❤️ ko-fi.com/delsharkart

Kept me up a bit later than I'd have liked but it didn't snowball, just a mild annoyance I slept alright enough once I actually fell asleep

Me: *still trying to fall asleep at 3:30 am.* My Brain:

Anxiety trying harder to get to me tonight. I:

It worked again. Two points for magnesium.

Started feeling anxious about taking my magnesium Which means I needed to take my magnesium (funny how that works)

Feeling my anxiety trying to claw its way back into my brain, but my brain is like "hey chill tf out for a few" and it creeps away. Trash taking itself out lmao

Dying.

Bonus side effect: my ADHD is also significantly more manageable. I don't feel my brain darting from thought to thought like multiplayer Pong.

Honestly just feels like my entire nervous system is on vacation. My body is so jacked up that taking a basic needs mineral sends me to nirvana. I met God and she says we're all a disappointment. I agree.

“The 911 call reported an apparent suicide … But the medical examiner ruled his death a homicide — he was suffocated.” Geraldo Lunas Campos’ death “.. has so far prompted no criminal investigation or charges …”

Def getting the post-magnesium sleepies. Not to be confused with the post-melagonin grogginess. I can't take melatonin or other sleep aids cause they turn my brain to mush; this is more like "I can think just fine, I'm just catching up on a million hours of lost sleep."

Trying to figure out wtf was wrong with my body while having SEVERE anxiety was literally like trying to make sense of TV static. There was just so much noise I couldn't make heads or tails of what was going on. I knew it was partially related to my GERD, but even that was near impossible to feel.

every time one of these freaks yells about wEsTeRn CiViLiZaTiOn one of my eggs shrivels up and dies

Still feel like I could sleep more, but it's weird to not feel like a complete fucking disaster getting out of bed lmao Knowing my body, this could either be what I needed for long term health or it'll work for about a week then everything will go to shit again

Not going to act like I found a cure for my anxiety yet, but it's definitely leaning toward "severe magnesium deficiency" which makes sense since it's hard to determine that via blood work alone; and I had blood work done less than a year ago.

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Had the most normal sleep I've had in a while. Still woke up for like two hours in the middle of the night, but that's better than whatever the fuck was going on before lmao

Managed to fall asleep a few hours ago. Woke up feeling like I need a small snack (unsurprising considering my guts haven't been allowing me to eat normally for months) Still no anxiety or heart palpitations, not even the mild "racing heart" I normally get at night

"You will never find a more wretched hive of scum and villainy.”

I am a little wary as the last time I had this sensation was when I first started famotidine for my GERD and how much it helped, so idk if it's just the GERD subsiding for now which reduces my anxiety or if the magnesium is actually helping at all

Not sure if the magnesium glycinate is actually helping, or if that tamale I ate 4 hours ago was the exact combo of nutrients I needed to stop having anxiety for the night lmao

So far so good knock on wood

Managed to eat something and took half of a magnesium glycinate dose just to be sure I don't have an adverse reaction Wish me luck 🫠

Keep being tempted to go to the hospital and make them do tests on me just to rule out anything OTHER than perimenopause cause holy shit this fucking sucks I can barely function My body rejects most food I try to eat the moment I swallow it I get insomnia all the time Anxiety making me nauseous

Then there's brilliant stuff like this, which keeps the original intent of the track without directly copying it (both tracks use writing and drawing utensils to create percussion) Original: youtu.be/wagn5NzyeE4?... Remake: www.youtube.com/watch?v=F62w...

Normally I love this composer, but this track change made me die a little inside 💀 Original: youtu.be/jnJBbnXfWik?... 30th Anniversary Edition: www.youtube.com/watch?v=F62w...

Oh no They're re-releasing the original Rayman and some of the music had to be changed completely It's Sonic 3 re-release all over again Why are game companies so bad at holding onto their copyrights? Lmfao

Gonna try magnesium glycinate and see if that helps A lot of people swear by it (including Erik) so it's worth a shot, I'll start with a half dose

I've been able to function fairly well through it all, but the worsening anxiety is finally doing me in The government should be helping us through this shit; the fact that people are expected to WORK REGULARLY while their bodies are essentially at war with themselves is INHUMANE

I got about 40 minutes of sleep 💀 but after reading dozens of people's comments about their experiences with perimenopause, I can pretty well guarantee that's what I've been going through since 2020 And it only gets worse until it stops completely (usually lasting around a decade)

Ordered magnesium glycinate supplements cause that supposedly helps to calm the nerves We'll see

I'm convinced the ultra wealthy are all laundering money via this shit and/or they're the stupidest people on the planet (They are both)

The nighttime anxiety is real and it's ruining my life

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EXACTLY THIS! The GOP is the reason everything's messed up here in Texas. They've run the state into the ground and continue to choke people for so they can steal every penny out of our pockets. They're policing who can use the bathroom & what people can read then calling it 'freedom.' I HATE IT.

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