Honestly both excited and terrified. With my money situation right now I'm ~45 days from being homeless in Portland. Technically I already am, but like, I'm turbofucked at that point. If I make this work, I'll have the exact life I've been wanting to build for myself for years, or at least the...

For better or worse I officially live in Portland now lmao. I don't have enough money to make it home even if I wanted to lmao it cost 6k to make the drive and I started with 10.

I love my life sometimes lmao mom kept me on the phone for two hours and now I need to figure out food and hit the road lmao

Love how my most successful post here was just responding to a liberal about why populists get along despite being complete opposites

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I do not think, if you're a babyfur, you should trust @bewhiskeredcon.org with your safety. It seems they'd rather you stay away, because of very loud threats being made by overgrown bullies who weren't coming anyway, based on their actions towards Beta. You're not worth the baggage, it seems!

Apparently there are *two* 1825 sw Broadway in Portland I wound up at some random guys house trying to pick up a package with my estrogen needles only to find out not only did I walk three miles today for absolutely no reason, the place with my needles has already closed for the weekend lol.

"What if a child who watches this streamer finds their AD and then sees the NSFW art of the streamer's sona?" What if you stopped being a little bitch and shut the fuck up?

NGL seeing someone else go on the same rant I just went on is validating because like yeah you're gonna see me lashing out quite a bit despite finally being stable lmao. I'm just fucking terrified. It feels like everything is out to get me, even if I'm finally safe.

What if Florida does the same thing? My name was legally changed in a Florida court, could they undo that? Will my birth certificate be nullified?? And if THAT gets nullified, what happens to my passport?? Will I be ALLOWED to escape if things keep going down this road?? I'm so scared

Oh... oh okay. I see we've reached the identification nullification stage of a trans genocide. I'm getting really scared, y'all. Why can't they just leave us alone?? What did we ever do to them?? Why can't we just live in peace???

Now mind you despite going on a rant like that I won't deny that I am doing a lot better recently because it turns out so many of my issues weren't myself as a person but merely the situation I was in. Running away so far has been the best but stupidest choice I ever made.

"but Odette why the fuck would you wish this upon anyone else" Because it's clear it needs to happen for them to understand it's bad. If you've known what it's like to be afraid, you're probably my ally. If you know what it's like to feel the joy of oppression, you're probably my enemy.

Ok maybe not over just yet because I want to clarify that I don't think everyone is bad people. I just feel like all I see is people smugly laughing on the internet that I'll have to die and I wish I got the future I was promised where the rest of the world went Nazi instead so I could laugh too.

Why the fuck is my feed always full of smug people abroad laughing that I'm going to have to fucking die? Why does nobody have a conscience nowadays? NGL this is why I hate this app. "BUT ODETTE YOU NEED TO DO THE REVOLUTION SINGLEHANDEDLY IN 30 SECONDS" I'd rather just let this place fall lol.

firm belief that tugging on anyone's tail makes them uncontrollably shit themselves #abdl #eggddemon #diapermess #scat (?)

"Odette why don't you like the left wing women" Because they're liberals. Zohran is the only person who can charitably be described as a left winger in elected office. It's not anything against women, it's that these women aren't on the left. That said, I've openly supported rep Omar lmao.

NGL Portland has been kinda disappointing in that everyone tells me it's one of the most trans friendly places on earth and honestly I just wanna stay here until I get my transition to a spot I'm happy with and then going back to New Mexico where I didn't regularly deal with microaggresions

Alright, I normally do not want to involve myself in matters of politics or talk about such polarizing topics. However, AS a Trans person myself I CANNOT just sit quietly. What is happening is abhorrent. If you disagree with me fine, whatever... then fucking leave. You are not wanted.

"i grew as a person" is a really funny thing to say as an age regressor

Didn't mean to do a long and detailed thread about why I kinda hate "trans rights are human rights" even if I love the sentiment. I don't want my identity enforced by the state. I want my trans identity to be how I see it, fucking irrelevant. Being trans just happened to me, there's nothing more.

NGL woke up and had a panic attack because holy fuck things are scary right now. I'm this close to making the exact life I've always wanted for myself I literally just need to find work. But that's so scary when I'm already fucked financially.

Yeah I literally wasted an entire day today I passed out as soon as I got back and am trying to get more sleep

HLEP - dashare.zone ADMIN

its the baby emotional education shows that authentically entertain me the most because i have subzero moral emotional development in real life and i actually need a cartoon baby tiger to teach me how to identify anger

the party that wants to require ID to vote abruptly invalidating a thousand people’s IDs overnight seems like a pretty giant flashing red light

Oh yeah this also means I'm officially in Portland if anybody wants to hang out lmao

Today's random thought:

On a happier note, had one of the best dates of my life with @shaddowhuntur.bsky.social and I so very needed this. Was great.

Great, when do we get to the "humanity has conscience and understands it's time for wwIII" part of this

"gambling laws" let girls have fun

On a happier note, had one of the best dates of my life with @shaddowhuntur.bsky.social and I so very needed this. Was great.

"we apologize for the inconvenience we caused you" No lol if any transphobe were ever to be sorry they'd let me take them on a hot date behind the barn lmao

"sorry I killed your girlfriend but you should've fucked me bro" Shit the dettey says

these two awesome sisters have been outlawed in the UK. like and share to get sentenced to a maximum of seven years in a UK prison :)

Saw this in Discord and it’s amazing

Where/how do I get larger needles in Portland? Finding out them subbing my syringes is why I can barely pull the amount I need lol

oh no what if im too high to masturbate???

I finally passed to myself in the mirror, I may have to take "better go with vans..." Out of my bio on one of my other personal profiles off platform lmao. I may no longer need to go with vans there may be hope.

...y'all weren't fucking with me my tits have basically doubled in a week lmao

Babyfurs run your cons Babyfurs dance, and win dance comps Babyfurs draw art for cons and make up a good chunk of dealer’s dens Babyfurs are tech moguls Babyfurs are popular fursuiters Babyfurs design clothes. Babyfurs fight for LGBTQ+ spaces Babyfurs do not involve real children in adult spaces

This is what puriteen furries are afraid of fyi

"but Odette why would you bring this shame onto our family" sorry, I guess?

Yeah Portland is very nice I like it here lol. Things are really good right now. Feeling much better.

"Odette are you okay" no the estrogen has turned me into a diaperpilled permaregressed slutty 5-year-old who happens to finally intimately get the appeal of ABDL stuff in a less sexual manner Like *damn* I didn't know I could be like this but it's been some really really good changes IMO

Mood. Me too.

life mantra

Happy 3-year anniversary to Don't Play Defense #Art #Pride

Just gotta say this publicly in the same way privately, but if Democrats ever want to win an election again, they need to run a candidate that can win the social media war. Whether that's simply by understanding the value of astroturfing online or ideally with influencer friendly policy.