robert irwin won dwts good day for australians and me

Where is N-san.

I wanna spend time with ■. I wanna hug ■, Kiss ■, Treasure ■, Laugh with ■, I want to love ■ But I am not strong enough.

I'm mad at the other person though, and it's totally reasonable

I'm still mad at you, even if it's unreasonable

I'm actually panicking rn I wish I were better at things

If I didn't believe you, you wouldn't even have a name, you know… Strength, purpose. Will, resilience. Reaching ever toward the stars, when others cannot. Driving through flesh, wept tears mixed with blood That is you, is it not?

Outside, I'm smiling Inside, I am screaming

How hard did I crash last night…

im just a boy who is tired and angry

… i'm sick, but I have work tomorrow so j need tk pass out now…*sigh*

What was I even complaining about…

… I don't find there is anything left in life that I'd like And while I await death, I just hope that maybe I can bring a smile to someone's face. A shred of happiness, in this godforsaken world. If not, I can settle for being left alone, not getting chewed out…

I want to be perceived as ME. Someone who can be silly, or stupid. Has thoughts, opinions. A kind soul that warms those it touches. I don't want my physical self to be complimented, I want my very being itself to be seen

"Sister" sounds so bitter and hateful. Like they're blatantly forcing my biological sex onto me. So much for wanting to be seen as more than merely my sex, gender, literally my physical existence cause that's all I've ever been seen as. Why else would I spend most my time behind a screen?

They keep nudging me to drive. Or make it like I'm a nusicanse for not driving cause it'd be more convenient if I did. I'm so fucking sorry, do you really want someone who shuts down merely sitting in the driver's seat to drive. And someone who would give up life at a moment's notice? Really???

"Sister" That word just sounds like spite pointed at me I'm starting to hate it I'm trying to do everything they want, like "having a life" and "friends", "job", "responsibility" but they keep giving me MORE SHIT

And that's how I even got to this situation of "idgaf no mo life is bullshit" Cause mom has TRIED taking shit away. Internet? Phone? I don't fucking need it if I'm DEAD, which is what I'd LIKE TO BE, but y'all WON'T LET ME

Hey mom, it really stresses me out when sis gets frustrated all the time "Just ignore that" I literally can't I'm supposed to be working WITH her. Even after all those times I ended up vomiting out of stress it's somehow my fault I can't ignore that she's pointing that tone at me so HOW

Even Boo Men "WE HAVE TOO MANY LIGHTS ON WHO LEFT A LIGHT ON" and I'm sitting here, with my brightness MAXED so most circumstances I don't even need the damn light on but they're STILL complaining omfg literally calm tf down already

I can't even play Don't Starve Together in peace with these two. "Turn off the hound attacks", "Can you remove [enemy mob] so it's easier", "Turn off max health penalty" this is literally NOT supposed to be easy it's by Klei for crying out loud SHUT UP ABOUT DYING???

Oml so many complaints. As soon as an enemy shows up, a complaint and frustration like bro. It's LITERALLY part of the game. It's supposed to be a CHALLENGE. Maybe stop bitching about another Cleanup Crew or Loom spawning???

I need to vom fr my poor head I don't decline requests frm family cause I don't wanna be seen as complaining/avoidant, especially if I do it too often, and I really dont say anything for the same reason So that was like. What. 7h straight of REPO? Bro just kill me already

I love pretending to be fine n dandy but realistically, I am dying very, very slowly

People who say “oh I want you to be my fp” are stupid. you just can’t pick and choose who your fp is 💀

gonna be honest, i do not understand the hypocrisy some people have about bodily autonomy as soon as you mention body dysmorphia of like any kind being treated with... changing that about your body.

Why does dissociating take an hour i really need slepe

Rabbit hole Miku wip #miku

My ex still talks shit about me online LMAOOO love that even the ghost of my memory is torturing that asshole...

I want to lash out, but I can't.

On the other hand, still freaks me out when I see oomf friends chatting away with the people who are very evil

Love seeing someone particularly cruel getting their ass beat by life /nbh

Can I kill myself yet. How long does one have to live so that it's acceptable to do so

Just got yelled at for complaining when I wasn't even complaining So this must be the source of withholding my opinions

How I woke up this morning

I hate it when people tell me that something is just in my head.. as if I don't exist there too

Sweet lord, my paycheck jumped since I started working full-time

Oml tickle in my throat and I might lose my lungs wth

man yknow what fuck this im just gonna draw r18 and gore and eroguro and fucked up shit and uuuuueueuughhhhhh

I wanna vomit, time for bed now

Give me the strength to not look at *'s posts… Just don't look… Ahw, fuck man

there's some fun conversations that I have with my friends but the trick is that they happen in my head 🧠

Death could fix me

I'm losing my damn mind rn, im already depressed and cant sleep, not seeing a nonsharing yume of my source setting me off again ill say it here but like bitch, my source would NOT fw you and your cluster b hating ass

how the fuck does anyone know what they wanna do with their life... like no, im throwing darts at the board and then scared of every choice i get, and I cant even make a decision based on things i like, bc nothing seems possible... i feel so useless and unvaluable.

so sick and tired of this

what do you even mean that my life matters when all i do is go to my fucking job and pretend i know what im doing, and even then, it feels like swallowing nails to give gratitude for fucking anything when my life doesnt get any better doing so...

i feel guilty even sitting down and playing a game, reading a book, or just even trying to write for myself bc it does nothing to make my life feel better....

officially quitting drugs, cutting, and starving. I’m trying to get my life back together