i need more stupid quizzes

strawpage for this account only since i wanna branch out debauchedprurience.straw.page

i love and hate what he made me into. he made this mess, now he's left me to marinate in my own tainted blood. nobody wants me like that. its too scary. its not healthy. i want to be threatened and hurt and held so close, boundaries pushed and disrespected, i like how it feels. only if i ~love~ you.

i just want to feel that disgusting, vomit inducing, blood letting ecstacy again. its horrific. its scandalous. if people knew what i was they'd call me filth, call me pathetic and terrifying. say im disturbed. but thats what i want. i like those words. i like it if you love me.

nobody wants to rapture me

why did he bring this part of me out. now i cant do a thing with it.

kiss me, love me, touch me, play with me. i want to be such a cute toy you can push and shove as much as you please, all the way past my limits until im shattered. even if im still in control, since i give consent. since i know what you'll do. im already broken. do it more.

i wonder if you guys still like me

i dont take these seriously bc i know how i am but this shit is so funny to me basically saying "youre insecure and dependent" no. really? are you sure? i would have NEVVERRRRR guessed

pervert. pervert. pervert why do i like being called that? i like being degraded... but nobody does it. well, my ex did but cant have that no more... i also dont really get praised or worshipped either ^^;

haaaah ahhh i have to draw this. i do. im such a disgusting pervert. i should die.

i dont want to do this

im so unlovable

Why am I so fixated on you. I want to experiment on you, shatter you and bring you to your knees— all because you need me. I won't. That's not the right thing to do. I'd never hurt you.

Im good

i was fucking NINE

they might have forgotten the things they did because it was unimportant to them and just another day. but i didnt. i live with it every fucking day. how dare i be told to forgive and forget when they never even bothered to acknowledge they did wrong in the first place. they say its still my fault.

im going to have a huge breakdown after. it happens every year

im not ready to face them tomorrow

"its their first time living" yeah. me too. and everyone else ever. not every stepfather grips their stepdaughter by the neck and throws her down stairs at 10 years old you know.

so inconsistent

their excuses keep on changing

i like how the moment they found out i suffer from hallucinations they immediately blamed that. first of all my hallucinations arent what they think they are. i dont just make up entire scenarios that are days, years, weeks long. before that i was just being dramatic they said. before that i lied ig

"you need to forgive the people who hurt you. you hallucinated it because of your absolutely random unjust hatred for them. its their first time living. you were a bad kid." they never apologized or acknowledged they did anything wrong. why would i hate them unprompted. i was a kid. i was not bad.

i dont wanna face my family. specifically my sisters and parents

i should die

nobody loves me just charlie

ugh my stomach hurts so bad

i want to be loved deeply

rough draft of honomika femdom petplay #nsfw

dont mind me sketching out petplay femdom of honoka and mika dont even worry about it

i switch between "having a cute stalker who wants you to dom them is hot as fuck" and "who the fuck are you sick ew gross i have a partner"

at least im clean now

showering while home alone is so scary i literally was pulling the curtains back every 3 minutes

screams actually

i fuckin hate acid reflux help me

YESSS.... KILL *ding* YEAAAAA

kill

is it regret or disbelief #nsfw

work is progress of aoi #nsfw

⚠️ erotic gore art / eroguro ⚠️ work in progress of mika kagehira #nsfw

aoi and kanata ⚠️ blood and cannibalism ⚠️

dont even worry about it my guy

man yknow what fuck this im just gonna draw r18 and gore and eroguro and fucked up shit and uuuuueueuughhhhhh

i sound so stupid dont i

one day ill be alone again. loneliness is a pain i can live with, at least.

and ill say things are fine. nobody will know. ill just be gone.

dont i

so i have to get rid of the problem

i have to be