did i really go to failure or did i just hit a mental block

they should invent a kind of hunger that doesnt read as amorphous exhaustion

i don’t want my appliances to be smart or connect to the internet. i want them to do one mechanical task for 100 years

rip char aznable you would have loved vagueposting concerning emo lyrics on the timeline before logging out

I hate to repost this, but I need another $100 to make it thru the month with meds and moving costs bc of the biweekly pay period at my new job. if anyone could spare some to help me make the numbers work out, I'd rly appreciate it.

how it feels to say you'll always love them and be there if they need anything but u don't wanna go out of your way to talk anymore bc you're just making each other upset atp

idk how many more incredibly high stakes texts and emails I got in me man oml

i love making vague and broad pronouncements about "the 2030s" for no reason. in the 2030s the stud butch masc lesbian internationale will popularize fashion inspired by dandyism, La Sape, Jojo's bizarre adventure etc. thus finally sublating the era of post great male renunciation menswear

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Youth pastor voice: "Do you know who else knew a young woman who could've been a mother to him?"

I feel like I totally fumbled the bag on the only actual real adult job interview I've been able to get in the last couple weeks and if I don't get it I should probably just kms tbh

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it's so infuriating having a bunch of specialized skills and being able to easily pick up new ones but bc all of those things I learned were unpaid and uncertified bc no opportunities or money they might as well not exist

the AI generated scam postings on job sites are gonna turn me into the fucking joker

You’re pushed on by numbers and punitive measures: pain, rejection, and unpaid bills. You can either play or you can crawl under a boat and waste away -- turn into salt or a flock of seagulls. Your enemies would love that. Or you can fight. The only way to load the dice is to keep on fighting.

I am normal and I see someone watching me out of the corner of my eye a normal amount

u need a job to get a car but a car to get a job and a permanent address to get a car or a job but u can't get the permanent address without a job that u can't get without a car

There she isssss. Exia TRANS-am.

job apps are generally agonizing rn but the worst part might be the glacial pace at which hiring happens when u have literally zero time to waste or how many postings are fake or intentionally misrepresented

ok but what if the devil was a vampire #otdevil #ofthedevil

interview today was disappointing as hell on account of the company lying about the role but hearing 'wow she's got aura' from working professionals WAS insanely funny

And then you see it. As it strangles and beats your friends to death... the sweetest most courageous people in the world. You see the fear and power in its eyes. Then you *know*. That the bourgeois are not human.

anyway, butch amuros doodled at work. for morale

“games are supposed to be fun” wrong

Someone give her a benadryl carrot

do I give up trying to control my smoking or do I start cutting again bc otherwise I'm gonna become a statistic 🥰🥰 been homeless for a month and everywhere to live that gets back to me is a scam and jobs aren't real teehee

all the jobs is scams all the housing is scams and I probably won't be on disability for at least a year if I even get approved or make it that long like man I think it's over as fuck

doing my best not to freak the fuck out bc I now have to find somewhere permanent to live in the next 2 days on top of everything else when I thought I had at least this to rely on

goose tongue

the nightmare alternate plane of reality being tfem banishes u to is wild and it only gets more bafflingly punitive the more degrees of marginalization you're under

thought about biting a girl so hard it bleeds and now im so horny i cant do anything

tried scrapbook shit for the first time hello morgan of the devil

LETS FUCKING GO THIS COMPANY CANT DIE FAST ENOUGH

actually printing and filing the evidence I collected against my family for tomorrow hits different. it's heavy and I rly wish I did not have to do this

Ive never been approached like As a Butch by a Femme before and this is rewiring my fucking brain

qrp with a character that permanently altered your brain chemistry my eternal blueprint I fear

one thing I've learned atp is that my gut is never wrong and I've only ever regretted *not* trusting it

cat who bats and hisses at everyone curling up in my lap for kitty time on purpose. life is worth living

final draft of my court statement is all done having read it out loud a couple times and I find it immensely funny that under all of these carefully considered arguments it's literally just 'your honor, WHAT are we talking about rn be so fucking fr'

got to see project hail mary in theaters and god what an experience. Ive barely ever seen an adaptation that understood adapting anything that well and as a big fan of the book I WON today

I'm getting an insane grade in taking care of myself bc I havent smoked at all this last month

Nothing makes me madder faster than someone who believes in their internal narrative about others over everything else.

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every time a cat that's scared of people likes me I recover sp

butch amuro doodle to boost my morale