here goes nothing

turned in my first round of dev edits for book five and immediately pivoting to trying to get my proposal for book six done 😭

feeling extremely vindicated about my early (and by early i mean pre draft) slaf adoption

I now own the device (XTeink X4) which means I read a @aribaranwrites.bsky.social novella on public transit over the weekend. I wouldn't personally put it on the back of my phone, but I love it for throwing in a pocket, wallet, etc!

like i SHOULD wait to post this but also i can’t wait to post this.

having one of those days where i’m so stressed out and overstimulated by Responsibilities and deadlines and lack of recovery time that i feel like my brain is about to CTD

my excitement about a reader sending me this jar from a now-defunct bougie edmonton grocery store will probably make more sense after you read book five but i’m really excited to own it

@aribaranwrites.bsky.social couldn’t get these two out of my head…Home Ice Advantage #fanart #romance #digitalart

going through my content warnings for unsportsmanlike conduct like 🫣

i have to get up off the couch and keep preparing things for when people come over for dinner and i don’t want to

when i was about eight my mom decided to buy my dad a (for us) expensive pen for his birthday. i remember being so excited about it and trying SO hard to keep the secret. i asked him, very seriously: hey dad, what’s a very expensive pen?

in which i got so le carriéd away i wrote some spy fiction of my own buttondown.com/theswordandt...

sitting here still thinking about leo and devon like this is the first non-vers couple i’ve written in the series so far and tbh probably the last. but it’s plot-relevant reasons for the strict roles

now that i’ve turned in my manuscript and i am pretty caught up at day job maybe i’ll actually read a book today

i've been having a pretty terrible week but i'm gonna turn in my manuscript this morning

day 3 of my ebooks just not being up for sale on any platform due to [a glitch?] i love publishing 🙂

i did not finish that day, but i finished yesterday, and it was 108,000 words. rip

the glamorous life: i have to clean the bathrooms today and then i’m going to try to finish my manuscript.

every day that i am in romance spaces and see another person talking about how they only love men written by women another part of me withers and dies :)

beautiful mike and danny art by sarah corrente 🥹

Hey no reason but if you'd like to read some romances that get into shitty men's hockey culture stuff, my Firebirds series does just that... Also check out books by @aribaranwrites.bsky.social, @kellyfarmerauthor.bsky.social (women's hockey!!), and of course the queen @rachelreidwrites.bsky.social.

writing leo cohen is like it makes sense to get from a philip larkin reference to a breeding kink joke in five sentences

today i get to write the moment the book has been leading up to for 72,000 words

it turns out the secret to getting a lot of writing done is to hurt everyone’s feelings

every day i feel so much grief and guilt for having brought a child into the world as it is right now.

and what if i’m attaching these pictures to a very specific document right now

at the point in this manuscript where my brain is filling in a bunch of missing thematic pieces to the outline and i’m afraid i’m going to forget all of them by the time i get to the part where i can actually write it 🧍🏻

when someone whose opinion you respect has lots of thoughts about your book but you don’t know what the thoughts are 🧍🏻

in game misconduct i did every month a chapter which resulted in really long chapters. i’ve really been trying to be more mindful about the length of them now but that also means i have FOUR decembers so far and it feels so fundamentally wrong to me

i hit 50,000 words on my manuscript and so far one character has called the other one by his first name once, and the response was, "whoa there, don't get carried away"

hello i’m doing an AMA on the mm romance books subreddit 1/25 at 6-8pm est please don’t leave me hanging with no questions www.reddit.com/r/MM_Romance...

i have so much i have to do today. it’s been hard to work and even concentrate with the specter of having inherited my dad’s illness hanging over my head. but i still have a day job and deadlines and i gotta lock in this morning.

it’s kind of wild that my book (in any form) is on a website that i used to have in my books rss feed bookriot.com/queer-hockey...

been alternating between tears and panic today but new songs are seeing me through grimestone.bandcamp.com/track/curtan... & qwaelen.bandcamp.com/album/veri-v...

i wrote about dissociation, reading as comfort, vice and self obliteration during times of horror, and also about reading exclusively about gay love for like. a year buttondown.com/theswordandt...

I stayed up entirely too late blitzing through @aribaranwrites.bsky.social’s “Game Misconduct” and it’s wonderful, and Mike, in particular, is a little shit and I LOVE him. (Much thanks to @swordsjew.bsky.social for singing the praises of Ari’s books)

someone i know in real life followed my instagram and i’m trying to figure out if they Know or if it was just a coincidence and how obvious would it be if i blocked them

i was sad this week so i bought a falconry book i don’t own yet, two black metal albums, a large bag of sumac from patel brothers, and a hot sauce i’ve never tried before. i don’t exactly feel better but i don’t not feel better either.

kind of obsessed with this ep by hiraeth. hiraethbm.bandcamp.com/album/tales-...

when you make the mistake of asking me “explain it to me like i’m very stupid” about something hockey related

they are really excellent dilfs

i’m just so fucking sad, man. i know that books are pirated all of the time. but it’s so disheartening to see how brazen people are about it. i’m never going to get paperback copies of my books because at this rate i’m not gonna hit that damn sales threshold.

seriously?

it's so awesome when people are just pirating your books openly on fucking social media

something i am always telling myself is that even if i don’t like what i write today, it can be fixed tomorrow. this is to say i did not like what i wrote today

when your book dies on sub and you realize you can just use whatever photos you want for the cover since it’s never leaving your hard drive

i just spent four hours with my child in legoland and an arcade and i am ready to end it all (legally this is a Joke)

dödsrit is so good i always end up listening to the entire discography when i remember i haven’t listened in a while

my fave books out of the ~400 m/m gay romance novels i read this year: *any old diamonds by kj charles *the penalty box series by ari baran (home ice advantage is my fave) *false colors by alex beecroft *powder & feathers by johannes t evans *brothers of the wild north sea by harper fox