people will tell you it’s complicated but it’s really not

I don’t think

This week in LGBT 200, I'm teaching Puar's "Terrorist Assemblages" alongside Isabel Fall's "I Sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter." Instead of recording a lecture, however, I wrote a mini-essay connecting the two works to the Iraq War and our current violence in Iran. This is how it ends.

unfortunately Tate McRae is behind lyrics that I would tattoo to my forehead if I could. but it’s true: I would tattoo these to my forehead if I could.

to do @ Da Desk (if I can manage it): -REPLY TO EVERY EMAIL GODDAMMIT -grade every discussion post

Here’s the story of one of them. Awful www.thestranger.com/forced-out/f...

to do: -finish structural dissociation reading list header -grade all project proposals -reply to joe's email noob

when you remember what happened to the word "woke" you'll never stop being mad

woke originally meant to "stay alert" during antiblack racial injustices that black individuals face and now it got turned into meme shit and it's genuinely infuriating when antiblack systemic oppression is still ongoing across the world.

seeing nonblack leftists use the word ironically without at least knowing the origin of it is blood boiling. I'm tired of black phrases and slang being turned into "memes" it's turning black culture and awareness into a joke.

im throwing up gang signs at my monitor while working for nothing and you have art on the walls

s/o lonely driverz

hm

at the very least I hate the taste of alcohol now. almost a year ago I vomited out 6 drinks on the side of a busy Milwaukee street, so I guess I'm better than that now. but not by much, now. won't be long, now. budget for me.

I think I have dug myself into a hole out of which only poetry can pull me. I wish I could pull a better version of myself out of it, though.

this is so stupid it's actually unreal

I know everything is on fire right now but we have to call about this, we’re already calling about everything else, just add it to the pile. The grief I feel rn is indescribable but to them it’s just any given weekday.

I may not ever be lovable. But I am citeable. And maybe that’s enough.

MEMEEMEMEMEEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEE

well this is my lot in life so

I am so fucking sad and lonely it's beyond description at this point.

This week I'm teaching Terrorist Assemblages in LGBT 200 and it's never felt more pertinent. I hope my students get it the way that they should right now, if that makes sense. Every day is 9/11, I guess.

A senile rapist pedophile president is openly threatening genocide and absolutely no one in the administration is making any attempt to stop it. This country needs to be completely rebooted, this is beyond horrific, yet sadly not even unexpected at this point, which says a lot.

getting the final day in trial roulette (peak fiction) reminded me of one of the best xiv posts

Might do something stupid and listen to frank ocean today

It must suck like hell to be fat and do something wrong

FF14　レイクランド/風化した大地 Lakeland/Weathering

2 hours into my 6-hour shift and I’m already fading

to do at work today: -write up the June collab notes document -start on next LGBT 200 presentation (at the very least author slide) -start on the CCR declines (just start clicking on shit) -grade the random short writes that are pending

To do tomorrow (YOU NEED TO DO ALL OF THIS IT’S NON-NEGOTIABLE): -finish all slides and record lecture -EMAIL SYL (DO THIS FIRST THING IN THE MORNING) -grade EVERYTHING INCLUDING LGBT 200 SUBMISSIONS -write up June collab notes document -start on the CCR declines (just start clicking on shit)

this is a top-5er to me. I feel like no one remembers this one / it's been memory-holed so hard that I frequently think I hallucinated it. But no. It's real. Fuck.

I'm so, so sad about our last day of raid. I could spend a lifetime talking about how mad I am that it went that way.

Subtops are a protected species and are deeply endangered so you actually cannot kill one by law

Do you guys care for grass crest shield

wrote a bad poem about someone who will never read it

no one appreciated this like i did.

these logs are so funny man

of their eaetherererereruueruer!

transgend your limits.

I wish I could say Cialis did anything. it was hot though

doing a work training right now. did you know that phishing is bad?

lmao my work schedule is so fucked, I work an overnight (midnight - 6 AM) and then the next day I work 6 PM to midnight. yall realize I got bigger fish to fuck right

I

now I know why hahahahahhaaa

well momma went off and left him. she wanted more from life then he could give —i said: "somebody's got to take care of him!" so i quit school and that's what i did.

I guess this is how Calvin felt. Fuck I’m so sorry Calvin. I’m so sorry I can barely describe.