Never been this fucked up by a fanfic before i had to keep taking breaks /gen Really well written though, but still, eughhh

I’m genuinely so disturbed. George Orwell has to be rolling in his grave

I know it feels like eating gravel. I LIKE IT.

Breaking my silence… I unironically love eating grape nuts. Everyone talks about them like they’re the worst thing ever but I get so excited whenever we have some at home lmao

Oh my god Will and Mike are so Frodo and Sam coded. Oh my god

Okay I thought I was doing better yesterday but now I started thinking about the specific thing that triggered my anxiety yesterday and I feel like I’m going to vomit again. My nerves have been going haywire recently and I can’t figure out why but i need to cuz jesus

I think i had a panic attack earlier today??? I didn’t realize until now but I definitely think that’s what that was. It was just way different from anything I would usually consider a panic attack. Huh. That’s weird. Anyways, I’m chill now!

Okay its been long enough im changing my pfp

i love frankenstein (2025) so much #art

Reading the Silmarillion feels like reading the bible dude. I am not processing any of this lol. Why can’t we have like a Tolkien church where they give sermons on his stories or some shit, my adhd is too bad for this lmao

Now feels like a good time to post this lmao

NEW THERM ALBUM JUST DROPPED HOLY FUCK

So uhh, turns out I might not have a job anymore after tuesday. And everyone else has already known that for like a week now. Huh.

My coworkers said that my voice is the same frequency as the fans/vents in our workplace and that’s why they have a hard time hearing me sometimes LMAO

“Miles must still be sick, I can hear it in her voice” So close!! That’s actually from the chemicals I’m putting in my body to give me a micropenis 💖💖

How long do i have to wait until i can change my pfp to a very spoiler filled image of will byers?

Just watched all 4 episodes and i wont give any big spoilers but i will say that the main theme i have taken away from this season so far is ACCEPTING YOUR QUEERNESS AND THIS IS THE BEST THING I COULD HAVE ASKED FOR RAAAHHHHHHHH

STRANGER THINGS IN ONE HOUR IM FREAKING OUT

Guys if it turns out to be queerbait this time i actually might cry. I know i said im used to queerbait and im still expecting byler to not happen but like im so emotionally attached and this time it feels more possible but im probably just deluding myself again

Well i wasnt expecting the frankenstein movie to connect with me in a trans way but here we are ig

Saw the new Frankenstein movie a few nights ago and I’m still thinking about it, that was the best adaptation I have ever seen, fairly different plot points but the themes are still so true to the original novel. Also it was so beautifully shot. God.

rip will byers you would have loved being an animation meme kid

As I’m rewatching season 4 of ST I realized that Eddie continues to put his black handkerchief in his back pocket THE WHOLE TIME HE’S HIDING FROM THE COPS. You never know when you’re gonna meet another gay person who’s into the same stuff you are while you’re on the run I guess. Just in case lmao

Omg i just remembered that for one of my theater classes in high school for my final project we had to perform 2 monologues, and the 2 that I performed were Will Byers’ van scene speech in season 4 of ST, and Mercutio’s death scene from R&J. That was so fucking gay of me lmfao

I can pay off all of my student loans with just two more weeks of work. Holy shit.

I was explaining Byler to my partner and showed them some pictures of Mike looking at Will and they went “wait, he’s supposed to be the straight one??” FUCKING EXACTLY MIKE WHEELER YOU CANT HIDE FROM ME I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE

Realizing that I was the Mike Wheeler in my relationship OH GOD. I generally relate to Will more but if you look at me and my partner before we got together I was literally Mike. Perhaps I judged you too harshly Mike Wheeler.

I love Johnathan Byers so much more as im rewatching ST now that im an adult (who was diagnosed with autism lol). He is such a good character. I’m also realizing my mannerisms are very similar to his, like his walk and just how he moves in general (which again, autism lmao)

For every fictional ship that i really care about i eventually find a parallel between their relationship and my own irl

TW but netflix just released the first five minutes of stranger things season five and wtf i actually feel sick. That’s not implied or an allegory anymore that was just actual sa. Jesus christ

Ive been queerbaited so badly my whole life that i just made a bet with my coworker that if Will and Mike get together in season 5 I’ll take a shot with her. (I love byler and desperately want it to happen, and i also dont drink at all but im so convinced im being queerbaited again)

Ive been having an awful day at work today, but then me and my coworker started talking about stranger things and it turns out we have all the same opinions about it. This is fantastic, i dont have anyone irl who has all the same opinions as me (specifically related to byler)

I JUST WANNA WATCH SCREAM BUT EVERYONE KEEPS GETTING SICK

Rewatching stranger things and Joyce reminds me of my mom :(( /pos

"We're in the worst possible timeline". Not true. You and I are still alive. That's enough to light our way

Still Wakes the Deep is one of my favorite horror games ever dude, the cosmic horror combined with body horror is everything i love and it is genuinely such a good game. I love that the other worldly horror that’s causing everything is so unspeakably beautiful and beyond comprehension.

New grandparent lore just dropped holy fuck dude lmao /pos

I just wanna watch scream with people again but everyones BUSY >:(

Football games are boring as fuck and it’s cold as shit why am i here lmao

Okay fineee, arcane is a cool show and i probably should have watched it sooner 🙄

Me and my partner looks so cool today dawg, like a stereotypical queer couple that has opposite aesthetics lol. I love looking cool and gay

Fighting every urge in my body to not vent on bluesky because I genuinely feel so much better when i just wait to talk to my therapist about this stuff instead of posting it online

Getting to boss around my best friend at work because I’m basically their supervisor

sometimes i liek to think what if i was a small animal with no thoughts because i think that would be so cool

Is my love for NINAH strong enough to overcome my hate for twitch? The ultimate test

do you ever think about Elrond and cry??????

The amount of people i know irl that i see liking and reposting sora ai videos on instagram is genuinely distressing. Lowkey been thinking about privating my tiktok account and being on social media less cuz this shit makes me nauseous

What if i didn’t go to the party and just watched another NINAH playthrough instead? Who would stop me? /hj

11. hour. shift. Dear god

I’m supposed to be going to a party tonight but I’m not even halfway done with what I need to do at work yet. Dawg i think I’m gonna be trapped here forever