i think maybe she likes me. like Likes me. she gives me forehead kiss when she leaves for work in the morning and i'm still in bed. thats not a fwb move

she told me very firmly that she's Not still in love with her ex. i said haha oh yeah? (cuz lowkey i did not believe that) and she goes on to explain more and vent abt that nightmare. and then at the end she looks at me and says "but here we are." her smile is so big she is like the sun

i have to talk about her it's a DISEASE

we took a break and were chatting about concepts surrounding relationships and time and i said some of the usual quasi philosophical shit that comes out of my brain i can't even remember what and she looked at me all dreamy and said "thank you" so sincerely and then we got back to the incredible sex

her only flaws are she's 2 hours late to everything and she thinks red wine should be chilled

extremely funny being in the west philly trans community with my sister becuz we both befriended the same guy and hung out all together at least twice before he learned we were related

i miss being loved but i hadn't felt that way in my relationship for a good while

i just want her to fall in love with me already But i know it is limerence because i don't even know Her well enough to be doing that. we're def extremely compatible on a strange chemical level but also, i am just sad and miss being loved and want to fill the void. but no, this needs to be real

podcasters are nonentities. "podcaster" is an oppressive class, like poly people or spicy white people.

Anyway, Minecraft is arguably a Buddhist narrative, so let's be careful about labeling the farting antihero a homoromantic icon.

she is absolutely gonna break my heart isn't she

she's a gemini rising i'm a sag rising, they r in opposition w 3° orb. lots of oppositions in the chart. maybe not great but definitely sexy as hell.

picked up a lightning iphone charger for $1 at the thrift store so next time she's over and forgets her charger like she does every time i can be like "oh yeah i saw this on a free table (pretending to be chill) and grabbed it cuz i know u have that charger and often forget it". get loved bitch

when she was talking about her last relationship she was like "and me, always the optimist, trying to be positive-" and i was like 🥹🥹 that's me that's always been me w these negative draining bitches i dated but now it's Us and we can build on that energy instead of me having to fight for it... :)

idk why a month ago i thought things would settle down when now i am in actual post-breakup misery, while also having real big feelings for someone who is so beautiful and i crave them in such a way that its reorienting my perception of attraction, like. of course these things would only get bigger

absolute workhorse of a reaction image from over 100 years ago

the sexual dynamic is crazy tho and apparently new for her as well...she said no one's really just sat her back to give to her like that...which is insane to me...how could anyone not want to give her all the princess treatment she deserves...do they not know how lucky they are

saw my new girl last night. had red wine and cigarettes on the porch and listened to her horror stories of her ex (who is in her phone as "white demon" to give u an idea) to distract me from my own and then went upstairs and gave her head so good she said i love you with conviction this time

here's something though. all these memories that keep collapsing me into tears, they're from before. they're last winter and fall. nothing from the last 6 months. i'm missing a person who's been gone for a long time. i miss her so much

i haven't felt this badly since 2020. since i lost my best friend. both times. it's always the same. it's always this black hole in my chest. how can there be anything else

it's like every few minutes i remember something else that's lost to me forever. it didn't click before. how much is stuck only in the past and will never be again.

and i have these sweet messages waiting for me from that new girl and i don't want to respond because i can't feel good right now. i'm unable and if i do it's because this is distracting me. and both of them deserve better than that. everything feels horrible.

and now she's so alone. she pushed everyone else away. and then i left. when i picture what she must be feeling right now i want to throw up, it's the worst i've ever felt. i can't believe i did this to her. but i can't believe she did it to me. i didn't feel safe anymore.

i did it. i broke up with her. i thought it would be easy after all this abuse and this processing but. i haven't been this sad in a long time. i want to take it back. but i know it was the right thing to do. but i wish it wasn't

also something else? she took piano lessons for 16 years? she's definitely wayyy better than me and i just wanna hear her play clair de lune...

hey astrology people. my moon-jupiter conjunction is in strong opposition with her sun-jupiter conjunctions. only tell me what this means if it's something good

is this not the sexiest chart you've ever seen

i miss her...i should've offered to pick her up from the airport tomorrow...i was going to but the conversation got off track very fast as it always does and i forgot to actually say it

i was like "i don't like PDA" and then cannot keep my hands off her anywhere like it's an illness

crazy but the way i feel already abt this girl makes my past relationships feel limp and hollow and uninspired. it's almost sad. i never knew this was how it was supposed to be. i was happy in those relationships. but they didn't make me feel like the sun

ugh guys i'm addicted i cannot get enough. i am starving to know her more. real gemini 7H shit. i just wanna learn everything about her. i am lapping up her words like a street dog bro this is crazy

thinking again about the first night she slept over and as we were drifting off she says "maybe this could be all i need" ugghhh guys this is the love they talk about in fanfiction

and her smile...it's such a perfect shape. she is the sun

oh yall she remembered what earrings i was wearing when we met at a bar in july. this is so real

why is everyone on the normie net pushing this agenda that vagina havers can and should cum from penetration, and that it's like the goal of sex

she sees me, guys

gotten to the point where i need to wear a sports bra during sex because i feel so fucking disgusting and now i'm putting off top surgery consult cuz i can't decide if i want a radical reduction or if i just want all of it gone

i love how she loves life. she's always looking for things to do, experience, hear, see, consume, and to enjoy all of it, to find the fun in the everyday. we go to the bar and she ropes everyone into one big conversation. she approaches everything with curiousity, never judgment. i've needed this

there's so many things i hate about this reply idek where to begin

really normal and chill about all of this. i literally will sleep 3 hours with her and feel fully rested the next day. and so happy to lose the sleep. not to be dramatic but i only have so many hours on gods green earth and i'd like to spend as many as i can with her

hnnggggh guys i feel like a crazy person...i've never liked someone so much....the physical chemistry is just electric... i can only come up with cliches...i wanna hear her talk about the bands she likes and everything she did this week, i wanna know her whole life story, i could listen for hours

some ppl use private browser tabs to watch porn, i use private browser tabs to look up the meaning of her name and whether i'd be able to get iranian citizenship via marriage. just in Theory

oh sorry just remembered when we were laying down to fall asleep holding each other and she said "maybe this could be all i need". at the time i was a little worried she was moving too fast and romanticizing me but now i'm like....maybe this Could be all i need.

ok i think i should deactivate here again cuz i'm getting paranoid of being found cuz i can't make a private account on here...and a journal record of this will be better anyway

keep worrying i'm going overboard w romantic feelings and maybe she just likes the sex but then like....we do make a Lot of eye contact during the sex. and she listened to mitski for me. actually she's coming to see the mitski concert movie in theatres with me. so like. chances r she's down bad too

she said "you really do have hearts in your eyes...i didn't expect you to surrender so easily." gggghggggghhgsghshahsgsksbvd

ok so i have to break up with my gf in the next 2 days. becuz i have plans the days after that and there's no need to keep her waiting any longer. it sounds like she's feeling hopeful. this is gonna suck a lot.

she is literally a beautiful princess to me and i just want to treat her as such...i would be such a great wife guy....i would bring her the moon if she asked...etc... it's hard to think of much else

at the concert yesterday we both kept catching each other looking at each other and sharing these silly cute little giggly smiles and UGH. i hate how much of me wants this to be something alreadyyyy like pleease

yesterday was insane cuz i tripped on acid all day and then went to a concert with my new girl and then the private club and then a jazz bar and then had 3 hours of mindblowing sex and then when i checked my phone for the time at 3:45am, i saw that my gf had texted me for the first time in 3 weeks😭