had suuuch good sex last night ugh i am craving to be near her again but she has not responded to my texts at all yet today </3 pls my beautiful queen i just want to give u head

i had an epiphany and this whole thing is simply not on the relationship escalator at all. it's not even on the people mover u know like at the airport. it's on the ground it has roots and it grows from where it stands. i think someday we'll be old friends

found this photo of us from halloween in my bathroom after the party. that's her eating a carrot and trying to untangle my hair that was matted with fake blood

Think I have job poisoning

pic i took for her that u guys get to see too :p she hasn't replied bc she's definitely napping rn cuz we only got a couple hours of sleep last night tehe

from my mom about top surgery 😭😭😭😭 i'm literally crying i love her so much i'm so grateful. she doesn't even know about the gender thing she just knows life with a 32G bra size is hell on earth

honestly i don't think i wanna be in A Relationship with her or anyone either rn but i really really like spending time w her and everything feels so warm when she's around and we fit so perfectly in each others arms and she really Sees me and makes observations about me that no one has and idk man

Today I heard someone say “all unsolicited advice is an insult” and boy will I be riding that one into the sunset

ugh okay no i'm mad and upset and preemptively devastated because she does not like me Like That she's literally still not over her ex it's disgusting. she was telling me her ex is sooo hot. her ex literally is the most average looking skinny brunette white girl in history

mallory fixed me. i literally just need to chill

she talks about love the way hozier does

i think i'm less good at the poly stuff than i thought. or maybe it's becuz there's no security in this. but her internet romantic friend is visiting her yet again and it seems like it's every few weeks and i feel like i'm gonna be sick

she sent me home with homemade beef bourguignon in a tupperware. after another interesting meandering convo about relationships. idk. this is probably just gonna evicerate me. but it's fine. gonna see where it goes

my type is very simple. it's people who have this hair

she tells me about myself as we pick up a quart of blueberries off the floor from either side of the fridge door

she's so fucking cute u guys. she loves for people to ring her outside doorbell and then she says something funny through the speaker from inside. she sells records online and mails them with $5.73 worth of stamps. she rolls her own clove cigarettes. i'm so entranced dude

think i miiiight have found someone who deserves me

guys i think she likes me

i do feel pretty balanced about it all now. but oh that smile. it will be the death of me

she told me lovely things about me being an independent complete person and observed that i havent asked much of her and i was like idk what i'd ask. i like what we r doing here and everything changes eventually but why would i rush it when i am enjoying it

we stayed up til 3am last night and did not even have sex we were just talking

ngl i feel like i've kept myself at a distance in my past relationships. my first gf i think i just wanted to Be In A Relationship. my recent gf it felt a bit noncommittal becuz of the polyam thing, like i never pictured myself getting old with her. and my situ-e-tionship was never gonna work

need her sooo bad but not gonna see her for at least a week perhaps more cuz i am so busy and can't afford to lose a night of sleep cuz we r always up til 4am

guys i'm gonna try out a new name 0.0 Jetlag or Jet for short

i can't lie it does feel like a flex to not have any ex-boyfriends. only girlfriends

making her laugh is like crack

thats the lovely thing she's so smart and worldly But she never makes me feel stupid. my recent ex was extremely smart as well and i always felt so dumb when she taught me things, but ik it's not a me thing cuz the ex Before her also didn't make me feel bad at all for not knowing stuff. just the one

this was definitely nothing But at the gig someone was singing in portuguese and she leans over and says "they're saying 'i love you so much'" and i said u speak portuguese?? and she says no but it's close enough to spanish and then says it in spanish and then says it again in farsi god i love her

also she was so aghast that i folded her laundry... kept saying how thoughtful it was... "i never expected that. i mean that's what i'd do, but i never expect people to do what i'd do." well u should!!! u should be dating people that r as kind and thoughtful as u are like for example me!!!

guys she came to my gig on sunday and brought me a bottle of wine and a pear 😭😭 like in lieu of flowers... and the wine was a tannat which is a niche grape that makes suuuper bold dry reds and that i tried recently and loved so much and told her about like, at least a Month ago

u kno whats weird tho is she is Not autistic. never dated someone who is not autistic before. she's got adhd like no one i've ever seen. it's crippling. but she is not autistic and when i told her that i was, i got worried for like a week that she didn't find me hot anymore

i get on this app (versus threads) and i feel like ive left the kids table to go sit at the grown ups table. like hi my sane friends

bro i basically cold sexted her yesterday after a few hours of no reply for vague invite becuz i figured i could easily ply her with sex but she was literally spending the day/evening with her friends from out of town i want to ennnnd my liiiiiiife

whenever she comes to pick up her laundry that i have just folded for her i want to also rub her feet (she said this was somethig shes been needing) and suck her off (this is something ive been needing) i live to serve her idk man it feels great

bitches love me for my average size ass and my inability to finish a video game

my dating pool:

DREAMY. that is the word i would use to describe her. not even just because i like her. it's a quality she Has. i wish you could see

she's like. so much more touchy and sweet as of late than she's been before. i feel like i saw more of that when it was the Wooing period yknow and then i started to feel like i was being Too touchy and sweet so i backed off but now i think she might,, be starting to like me? whoa

so in the time since i last was on here, my situationship was downgraded to a friends with benefits and i accepted most of my obsession was limerence to fulfill an unmet need within me but, as of last night im like hm no maybe this has potential. someday. not ruling it out yet

ever since that post where someone said "when men look at me in public they should just see blurred pixels" and someone said "this is so muslim coded" i've been like Maybe I Should Convert To Islam

sent her this and said "lowkey you" cuz it is

also i feel really evil for this but uh she posted photos of her costume that i took on my porch and in my living room and my ex-gf follows her on ig and might see those and be uh. extremely bitter. i feel bad but i also am like tehe :)

video of her taking off my fake injuries lmao and both of us generally being cute

thinking abt the first night on my porch with wine and the radio and she said "i haven't enjoyed my time with someone this much in a really long time" and then i kissed her

i do still wonder how much she's in this and doubt if there's potential for this to turn into something. but. we spend a lot of time talking in depth about relationships as a concept so it would be weird if there wasn't at least Potential

photos she took of me in the bathroom at 4am after the party. i'm so cooked dude

something crazy is the bouncers at the club didn't believe her ID was real and she is 32. she looks so young meanwhile i get carded pretty rarely these days. oof

guys i'm being crazy again. i want for it to be love. so much i want for it to be love

just had a customer who had a vague passing resemblance to her and i feel like a starving dog having a steak dangled in front of their face

i think maybe she likes me. like Likes me. she gives me forehead kiss when she leaves for work in the morning and i'm still in bed. thats not a fwb move