I have to stop telling myself I'm not an EdIzzy shipper. Considering the amount of time I spend conjuring up angst scenarios and even music videos in my head about those 2 I think I really qualify even if I don't dare to read fics about them.

Things are going well! Today I was a bit busy and mum was SO hungry she made herself some toast. This is incredible! Both the fact that she was hungry and the fact that she had enough energy to make toast. Seems the er doctor was right and her usual gp was super wrong as they had opposite advice.

So it turns out brother just had severe food poisoning. Tiny doodle of celebration! Stede's pets. Photo taken right before disaster😅

I miss evil Izzy. Post S2 fic where zombie Izzy died but still kept his hilarious shitty personality. He can do a whole Rasputin thing and have Stede be his Anastasia (and maybe Ivan can be his Bartok?🥰) So you know, evil but incompetent and comedic (and musical!)

Hi friends, wifey and I are running perilously short on groceries and medication again; we're two disabled queer ladies stuck at home and any help is very much appreciated <3 Ko-Fi: ko-fi.com/mariwho PayPal: paypal.me/christalblair1 Venmo: venmo.com/Mari-Blair-3 CashApp: cash.app/$mariwho29

Let's get back to Izzy posting. I remember being OBSESSED with the movie Quills as a kid so lately I've been trying to Steddyhands it though my Swiss cheese brain barely remembers it.

Oops! Bluesky ate my post. Let's try again. Look what came in the mail while we were out! These were probably in my mailbox for a while and I didn't see them🥺 Christmas card (with gifts inside!) from @killerweasel.bsky.social

Haha. Mum is having a surprisingly good day so I was happy but now I received a pretty alarming message from brother and now he doesn't answer. I'll be worried until I hear back. But mum is much better so I've got to stay positive, brother is probably just stressed and that's why he's ill.

These are my (extremely, inexcusably late) drawings for @megaducko.bsky.social for the canyon Christmas exchange. I wanted to do more (like crafting Ed! Drowning in supplies and glitter!) and better but I ran out of time😭 It's done with love even if it's super simple.

uhmmm hi! this is my piece for @draw-just-draw.bsky.social for the canyon christmas exchange 🫣 i saw “chibi steddyhands doing whatever you want” and i was like.. i want them to have sex >_^ they all have matching heart tattoos on their butts u just can’t see izzys cause of the angle :p hope u like!!

We're back at home! Mum fainted and we couldn't wake her so we had to call an ambulance. It was so fucking scary. They said it was probably another stroke and we couldn't even go to the clinic because of insurance so we ended up in a sanatorium but when we got there they wouldn't even let me see her

Other nice things. Spending time with brother, he's 100% better and we've had a talk (again) about not doing anything to exacerbate his condition. There seems to be new treatment for our illness! New enough that it's not available in the country yet but it looks promising.

Mum update! We're back!!! Christmas at home woohoo! Don't ask me what's wrong with her because I have no fucking clue and neither do her doctors. Still need to go back for more urine and blood tests, abdomen ct scan, neurologist, psychiatrist, endoscopy, colonoscopy and 24 hs. bp test.

Mum update: She's improving slowly. The good: Heart is mostly fine, might need one more pill but no worries. She can pee though not regularly. Appetite stimulant is working as intended.

I hate having to ask for help, but I am losing half of my next paycheck and need to pay rent, bills, and loan payments. If you can help, that would be awesome. Shares help too. I know everyone is struggling right now. I appreciate your help. ko-fi.com/killerweasel

Mum update. She is responding well to fluids. She was dehydrated and sort of malnourished? She had stopped eating these last few days gradually and has lost a lot of weight. She has no appetite but can handle tiny portions of semi-solid food. She's confused and has big memory lapses.

Thank you all who donated to help with my mums care! I have some slightly positive news at least. Bp stabilized though it's still too low. She peed! (not enough to be normal but at least a little). Blood and urine results came back not so good but not immediate panic mode either I guess.

I hate to do this since I've been absent and not contributing to fandom in so long but if anyone can donate a bit to us I'd be EXTREMELY grateful.

Not dead but in the emergency room with mum again. She can't drink, eat, pee or walk. I can't even voice my suspicions in case that makes them real. Sorry disappearing but this is so hard.

The sweet sweet sound of having water back in (most of) the house. This shit is gonna end up costing close to $3000 by the time it's finished but I can do it slowly at least.

Roller derby Izzy commission by @draw-just-draw.bsky.social I love the 90’s vibes so much

House flooded, they are fixing the pipe again now. Mum's heart is acting up but no idea why, all her tests show she's fine? I'm so fucking stressed. This year cannot end soon enough. Sometimes I wonder if people think I'm making up the shit that happens to me, surely no one has THIS much bad luck😑

I'm alive. Brother is better. Mewemew got better after some complications. We had another health scare with mum recently. She is fine-ish? Having a bit more trouble recovering and extremely tired and sad. Her birthday is later in the month so we hope she can improve a little by then.

They found him! All his colleagues went around his neighbourhood searching for him. They did it instantly once I called because they knew something was off. We have this genetic thing where our bodies generate a sort of poison when under stress among other things and it can cause psychosis...

He's an extremely vulnerable person so police recommend filing missing person's report to start circulating pictures now. Heading there after I finish calling the hospitals. Do you think if I share the report and picture later you guys can share it and ask others to do so?

We can't find my brother, he never got home after work. He has serious medical issues and his phone is off. Please pray for us/send good thoughts.

Ok let me just vent for a sec before going back to the buckets. Mum's blood pressure keeps fluctuating like crazy and we don't know why. Mewmew has relapsed (probably stress), some random woman contacted me to tell me that I owe her $100 because she accidentally (?) paid my water bill for months...

I'm super busy and worried about mum's health so I'm not gonna be online much until she's better. But! I want to show off my card and stickers I got from @killerweasel.bsky.social ♥️♥️♥️ They have made me SO happy in the middle of all this mess🥹

JFC😨 I thought there was someone breaking in but I'm almost positive it was just Segis after checking (sort of) What am I feeding this boy?! He sounds like a full-grown man coming down from the roof! The ceiling was shaking!

Mum's doing poorly today, might need to rush her to the clinic again. For now I'll wait a bit and keep a close eye on her, she seems lucid but upset and worried.

Little bro is touring an art supply store in Warsaw and it's all just so🤩 First world countries are incredible! It's so full of stuff and so cheap!😭

Why are cats sometimes portrayed as indifferent? My cats want infinite pets, eternal cuddles. There's never enough! Mewmew has cleverly picked up on the fact that we were briefly concerned for his health and, despite possessing maybe half a brain cell, has figured out how to milk his situation.

WELCOME TO STEDDYHANDS HALLOWEEN COUNTDOWN! This is an event to celebrate our favourite pairing in a spooky atmosphere as we wait for the main night of horrors! 🎃 Two sets of prompts (below 🔽) 🎃 No requirements for levels of works 🎃 Both art and fics are welcomed

Mewmew is feeling tons better! I know because once again I have no peace. He's so clingy and annoying, I love him🥰

Day...uh... 4? I think? Of headache. Massage gun unfortunately doesn't work on the brain. Cute little brother has decided to skip all tourism and most food (yay ramen!) in Poland in order to save for a dehumidifier since our shit house is sinking into the earth and IT'S. SO. WET.

My nightmares are extremely realistic and semi-lucid. If they wake me up I can fall back asleep immediately but I just go back into the nightmare. Only thing to do is stay awake a little while so I break the curse.

Hey everyone, sharing this again and also letting yall know again that my kofi is pinned on my profile. I am so grateful to those of you who have been able to help so far. I am doing what I can locally to save money but my options are very limited so anything helps!

Fucking yes! Managed to refill all of mum's meds! No insurance because no fucking doctor will see her in time even though interrupting her medication schedule is very risky. I often feel like medical professionals are yelling: "hurry up and die" telepathically at me😑

i know i havent been posting much but if anyone feels like helping out i could do with a bit to get to the end of the month 🫠🫠 ko-fi.com/samhound

Cheese delivery guys asking after Mewmew's health makes me feel all fuzzy inside. Not everyone likes cats but cat loving people are so kind🥹 Vet is on her way! Mewmew had a bit of a rough night but seems better now, and is eating like a vacuum as usual.

Mewmew is not feeling well so he has earned rare lap time (he's generally too wiggly for me) might need to take him to the vet, I suspect a UTI. He's still energetic, hungry and LOUD as always so not *too* worried but😟

Well the good news is that mum feels so much better that she decided to cook today, the bad news is that she HATES cooking even if she won't admit it and so I've been on the receiving end of her aggression all day🥲

Couldn't do much today between the lack of electricity and the pain but I *think* I finally pummeled my aches enough with the massage gun. It's so strong it makes my teeth chatter! That means it must work surely? I feel at least 50% better and that's a feat considering the painkillers did nothing✌️

2x1 ibuprofen all month! Woohoo! Let's go dissolve our digestive tracts! Perfect timing since I've been taking so many lately. AND I got this news together with the news of a $15 discount on Carrefour as long as I drag my carcass there, ramen is back on the menu🤩

I have this recurring dream where [thing that I really want and can't afford IRL] it's on some shelves in a store and something happens that means I can get it for free. For years and years [thing] used to be art supplies, mainly pencils. Now it's ramen. Gee, thanks subconscious! I get it already!🫤

learning to embrace sucking is the greatest gift you can ever give yourself as a creative

Having a week when I REALLY want to be stretched on a rack. P-please😭 it would fix me! I know it would!

I measure my level of tiredness by the NYT games. If I can't finish any particular game alone, that means it's time to sleep. Except Thursday's crossword, that shit is impossible every single week if I don't use some hints.

Signs ups for Canyon Christmas 2025 are officially open! ❄️ This year we're all about stocking fillers, small, sweet treats to bring a little moment of holiday joy - the chocolate orange of fanworks if you will. Form below, anticipated questions below that! docs.google.com/forms/d/1Y_5...

This is what I drew for @hybridsignalzine.bsky.social Slime Olu wants you... to be mimic Izzy's food.