Thank you for those kind words in response to my last post. I'm leaving tonight, beginning the program tomorrow. 💜

CW: mental health I haven't been active or around much lately because I've been in the midst of a mental health crisis. I started a PHP several weeks ago and at some point this week I will be stepping up in care and heading out of state to a residential treatment facility for the next 30-45 days.

Universe, I am begging you to give me a break 🙃

I was thinking "disappearing" but "fading" works just as well.

Had my first day in more intensive treatment and I am so tired but so glad I am taking this step.

I'm taking a really big and scary step tomorrow and could use some good vibes sent my way because right now I'm pretty terrified. I know it's what needs to happen but it's not an easy thing to be doing.

Riv's got some plans cooking right now

'Cause I've been here so many times before Don't you think I look pretty Curled up on this bathroom floor But where you see weakness I see wit Sometimes I fall to pieces Just to see what bits of me don't fit

It really feels like everything I’ve ever worked for is for nothing and my entire world is crumbling around me.

Hey, universe, could you please give me a break? Please? I’m so tired.

I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak I'd share with you, could I only speak Just how much this hurts me

I can’t take much more at this point. I’m so far beyond exhausted.

What can I say? I'm survivin' Crawlin' out these sheets to see another day What can I say? I'm survivin' And I'm gonna be fine, I'm gonna be fine I think I'll be fine

Today is the 30th anniversary of Hackers

Recording something after getting the COVID vaccine and we’re ready with our dice and requisite three beverages

🩸🩸

I am so tired 😮‍💨

We're currently at 66 followers here. If we launch with 100 followers, I'll have confidence that we'll be able to fund, but it'll be rough. If we manage to get to 250, I'll breathe easily. I need help getting the word out to interested people.

Let's gooooooo!

Let's fucking goooooo!

Sometimes I just want to drive Until the streets run out I want to burn until there's Nothing left to burn about

Tonight we are back over on @entropyemporium.bsky.social with They Call Us Villains! Episode 22: Welcome Back to Hemlock It's the dawn of a new day and everything is as it should be. ☺️

And summer arrives With a length of lights And summer blows away And quietly, it gets swallowed by a wave

A mood

I'm not okay (I promise) no, really, it's fucking bad and I am actively going under and I'm so fucking tired

It's been FOREVER but we are back tonight with Neverember's Enigma. There might be boat races. There might be romance. There might be necromance. There might be parties. There might be drama. There might be crimes. Who knows! We'll find out together tonight!

I’m the kind of human wreckage that you love

Had the opportunity to bring Alistair's story to a conclusion today and I cannot wait to share the finale with all of you 💜 What an incredible table and what an amazing story we all got to tell together

I was gearing up to post a schedule for this week but this week is one of the (hopefully) last quiet ones. Or, at least, quiet in the way that I'm recording several different games and playing a home game, so the only day I'll be playing on stream is Thursday for Neverember's Enigma.

Sometimes when you are stuck on writing and the words won't just flow, it's a sign that there's a piece you need to untangle and I untangled a big piece today. The writing is finally feeling like the catharsis I need to navigate something deeply emotional and painful but that's what art is for.

Booked my MCR tattoo for September and while I've got a lot of exciting stuff coming up, I'm also looking forward to getting back into gaming on a regular basis because life has indeed continued to be life-ing and I am eager to balance IRL stuff with also telling stories with my favorite people. 💜

This storm front has my body unhappy and I am straight up not having a good time

We're having a time here these days 😮‍💨

We're missing TCUV tonight because post-concert crud took me out but that's given us a chance to get a little feral on the server and chat about some stuff and I'm super excited for the chaos that is on the horizon with this game when we make our triumphant return!

Playlist titles for characters and how some changed: Saint Soren: "You can say a prayer if you need to/Or just get in line and I'll grieve you" (now) but was "And will you pray for me?/Or make a saint of me?" Would be interested to see it change post game now that he's satisfied his revenge.

'Cause I've been here so many times before Don't you think I look pretty Curled up on this bathroom floor But where you see weakness I see wit Sometimes I fall to pieces Just to see what bits of me don't fit

Just saw MCR with @optimistiics.bsky.social, @roseycheeks.bsky.social, and @themackening.bsky.social and I could not be happier. A night I will absolutely never, ever forget, shared with so many of my favorite people. 💜

Hello BlueSky, yes it was my bday! But today I’m in a tough spot. After waiting on freelance pay that hasn’t come, my landlord is threatening me with eviction if I don’t get caught up in two days. If you can I’d really appreciate the support. Anything helps. #mutualaid ko-fi.com/candacethema...

I'm having a not great brain day and I could use some kind words and good vibes if you've got any to spare, especially if there's a moment that we've shared together at a table that lives rent free in your head. 💜 Sending love to everyone because jfc it's a nightmare out there right now.

A friend in Philadelphia is putting together a one-person back to school mutual aid drive and is accepting donations of school supplies and basic essentials for folks who need them! If you don't live in Philly but still want to help, there Venmo is @Elizabeth-Panagopoulos, cashapp is $epgops

Is anyone else eagerly awaiting cooler temperatures, pumpkin patches, ominous mansions, fog-laden fields of corn, autumn festivals, pumpkin pastries, Halloween, resplendent trees, the full moon in October, spooky films, and the heartwarming sound of crows in the distance?

Last night I got to experience seeing My Chemical Romance with @sbrownwrites.bsky.social and @optimistiics.bsky.social and it was literally life changing🖤Getting to hear a stadium full of people sing those words while seeing the performance of a lifetime... I don't even have the words. It was magic.

woah, we're halfway there woah, givin' fish to mayor #mcr

'what is happening at mcr' this

Fit check for MCR!

Will be responding to likes on recent posts soon but until then I am traveling for the weekend to see MCR in NJ tomorrow and we’re gearing up for a feral time!

I'm at 665 followers right now. Who wants to bring that up to a fun number? 🤘