spiraling-over-nothing type of day

Every now and then

yeah

Life is exhausting, sometimes you just need a couple friends and a second version of yourself and just take a nap in a massive cuddle pile. The benefits of being a plush doll, I am a blanket AND a pillow! (The Friends have no Bluesky to tag.) #FFXIV #Gpose #Lalafell

New Crow Time update [1/3]

It's been tiring but we're still here, happy pride yall #sonicthehedgehog

I guess today i'm older now. I definitely feel older then i am with how much my body always hurts/ but i'm also mentally probably pretty far behind. Time is weird.

Pushed to extreme ends over stupid things again... Should remind me never to trust anyone. cause heavens forbid i so much as consider myself likable.

I started learning more about how to use blender, My first ported item came to be this outfit. Felt cute in it. #FFXIV #Gpose #Lalafell

Finally had the drive to take any kind of picture... only took several mental breakdowns and isolating myself and making people worry for a few days. But at least i have a nice new haircut..! That's something ...Right? #FFXIV #Gpose #Lalafell

It's been over a month since i took any pictures, but motivation still eludes me...

loading up arcadion competitors' feral souls like

THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND!!!!!!!! @pringusmcdingus.bsky.social

And don't get me started on the NSFW community. I have the biggest beef with all of you. Every. Single. Playable. Race. Is. An. Adult. There's no such thing as "Anything Coded". Not Child, not Animal nor whatever. This game would not be allowed to be played if you could play as a Child!! [4/6]

from the Modding community. They are almost always excluded when it comes to that. The same goes for Lalafell and the Very Talls. The Segregation between the Small and the tall is, imo, disgusting to me. An entire player base is practically BANNED from hanging out with others, for being short. [3/6]

Just for not looking human enough. The automatic assumption that Lala players are PDFs or that Male Xaela are Groomers. It all makes me sick to the stomach that y'all can be like this. That being a Miqo is being basic and tasteless. The Hyur, especially the highlanders receive nearly no help- [2/6]

I feel like I'm oversensitive to the point of breaking down and crying over every small thing. Obvious jokes, tiny slip ups, misunderstanding instructions. Having started to try socializing more has made me feel more distant then ever And It feels like I'm repeating loops that made me fear people.

When two tall people ask for a cute umbrella picture in the rain, You oblige. It is the law. #FFXIV #Gpose

I've constantly been battling with the mental struggle of not being able to tell who I am, who I'm supposed to be. or Who I even WANT to be. Time away from everything didn't seem to make the answer any clearer, Pretty sights are only a fleeting comfort. #FFXIV #Lalafell #Gpose

Hey hey! Ho ho! Lalafell harassment has got to go! 💢 That’s it, thats the message for today.

Every time my #FFXIV sub runs out, I feel like part of me died. Even though i haven't done much on there in awhile it feels wrong just... not having it there.

honestly why can’t I be a little doll smh

I often find myself in a cycle not unlike that of winter. Sudden cold, followed by brief warmth. Then being tossed back into the cold, Feeling worse for knowing what the warmth felt like. #FFXIV #Lalafell #Gpose

I feel like the biggest fuckup... Ruined yet another nice thing because I'm an incompetent Dumbass. People really are better off without me around...

*sips tea* with @gwalafell.etheirys.social

Sometimes, You just need to sit and watch the sun over the horizon. #FFXIV #GPose #Lalafell

Gradually tweaking appearances is always an interesting task with many kinds of outcomes. Here's a very smug looking one. #FFXIV #GPose #Lalafell

lul

Sometimes you just need to stare out a window at night and feel sad. Maybe tomorrow will feel better. #FFXIV #Lalafell #Gpose

I feel like i don't do enough on here, so i'm gonna start trying to post Gposes I take in FFXIV. This one was a lazy one, Testing a new Shader after switching to linux and fighting with getting everything working for a few days. #FFXIV #lalafell #Gpose

The world is really good at constantly throwing signs that I'm not allowed to enjoy any part of life. It's pointless to try and reason with life, I'm stuck at the bottom as a dirty old punching bag. Maybe eventually I'll at least stop feeling it...

So the super crown gets used for a lot of… things; I personally however made an OC using it :-) “Princess” Poppy, a little toad with big dreams, and a disdain for her stumpy natural form. She’s a sweetheart, but not necessarily a hero, per se… #OC #Art #WeemosCircus

I think i'm officially at the lowest and most powerless i've ever felt in my life. I'm really struggling to have a reason to get out of bed, let alone the actual strength to do so.

trans rights are human rights

I feel so silly saying this but 29 is probably the most followers I’ve had in a while. Thank you so much! Have this post of one of my OC designs I’m really proud of while I’m at it. His name is Alabaster, he’s an android! #OC #Sonicoc #WeemosCircus

ぼっちちゃんとにじかちゃん

With A lot more people showing up from Twitter, There's so much more stuff to look at on my following page, Neat!

Dry bones doodle #nintendo #fanart #art

Something Something bragging right number. I should post more.

Y'know, excluding the obvious like lack of security in Housing, Food, Basic Comforts, and general basic survival stuff. One of the most annoying things about living your whole life in poverty is you can never experience something fresh and new without a stroke of luck.

Yknow, it's really been a long time since I made a human character. So, here's one! Meet Melanie, a short-tempered lass who's been training to become a magic warrior. Better not get on her bad side! #OCart #art #OC #ocs

Aging is super weird. The closer my own birthday gets, the more dread I'm filled with. To the point of shoving people away (With varying amounts of "success") just to not bring their moods down. With a week before my birthday i have never felt worse.