im realyl aleepy sorry to anyone i didmt respond to today ill do that inthe morning nightnight everybody ♡♡

every time i feel bad about pulling away i look at that post where he called me his supply and it reminds me of why i did it

okay everythings fine, i threw up some more, cleaned my mouth out with mouthwash, took some laxes, took a shower, and my weight didn't fluctuate after checking it! false alarm!!

i feel like a failure. tomorrow i get to see one of my closest friends but her ed is so much worse than mine and shes so much skinnier than me and i just know that she uses me to make her look extra thin because im so fat. i wish i could be like her.

i threw up until there wasnt anything left to purge but i still feel awful. i need to try again. there has to be more.

on my way home i saw this little puppydog in the street who was barking at cars :( i brought the poor thing back to his house (he hadnt gone very far) and im glad i found him when i did cause who knows what could have happened to him

When I'm trying to have a conversation with someone and they respond with only one word answers.. "How was your day?" "Good." Give me more!! Tell me all the details!! Yap until theres nothing to yap about!! I love you and I want to hear you!!

First class of the day is almost done!! I just finished my math homework, I hate trig identities 💔💔

Yuck, the walk to school was awful :') My legs felt like jelly and I kept getting dizzy. That's okay though, it'll get easier as my body readjusts to this lifestyle

I'm so glad I have last period off today. I go from health to spanish 3 to honors precalc and then I get to go home! And I always finish my work in health early so I get to do my homework in there!

i think with school starting up again im gonna have to eat more than ive been eating. staying under 200kcals is gonna ruin me mentally, i just cant focus like that! i think im gonna make some bacon for breakfast (140) and then have a roll for dinner (130) whichll put me at 270 for the day

Anyway, goodmorning everyone! I get off of school early today which is a relief :) I'm very very sleepy still though so hopefully we're not doing too much today in my classes

its 4:30am. i just woke up from a horrible horrible nightmare. i check my favorite persons blog. theyre referring to me as (narc) supply in the same way youd talk about cattle or objects. im genuinely so fucking pissed its not even funny. is that all i am to you? supply? fuel for your npd?

"you said goodnight two hours earlier than usual do you hate me??" nooo baby but i am starving myself so im just a lil bit tired 🥹🥹

cinnascars.straw.page i made it!! im very tired from how little I've eaten recently so it doesn't have the mosttt information buuut it's a good start!

almost forgot to officially do this for the day: + 6oz raspberries - 88kcals - Walking pad - 90kcals (2/3rds of 135) = -2kcals

I put away dinner leftovers without eating even a single piece, everyone cheered!!

Every time I worry about whether or not this is worth it, I remember my little sister joking to her friends about how she can always hear me "stomping around on that treadmill" and it instantly makes me lock back in

So many of my mutuals have straw pages and it makes me want to make one for myself.. I might do that after my bath, but I'm a bit worried I'll get no gimmicks and it'll make me sad (；∀； ) Even if i don't, it'll still be a fun little project to do i think!!

This looks like fun!! Without downloading any new pics what's it like dating you?

hair is washed and im in the bath!! i feel so comfy and warm

im absolutely dripping sweat... i think im gonna wash my hair before i take a bath

24 hour fast followed by 88kcals of raspberries and now im gonna burn off that energy and then take a bath!

theres absolutely no way... im 30 minutes until my fast ends and i just weighed myself at 119.4lbs.. yesterday i was 122.8....

my favorite person is fasting right now for religious purposes and now im wondering whether to wait to break my fast when he does or not...

my grandma bought me raspberries, thats the perfect food to break my fast with!!

i want everyone to be worried from how much i've lost in such a short period the next time they see me

Bug Battle

my favorite person themed their entire profile based on a character that genuinely triggers my ptsd because my ex abuser loved him so much 🥹🥹 they dont know that though and im not gonna tell them because its such a silly thing to panic over

im so used to associating boredom with hunger that i want to eat right now without even being hungry. i think unlearning this is gonna be the hardest skill to master but im gonna do it!!

does milk and/or coffee count as breaking a fast? im starting to get really hungry and im hoping some coffee will suppress my appetite but i cant drink it without milk #edblsky #edsky

fasting is gonna be a little bit harder today cause i get to stay home but ill just keep myself busy with allllll the schoolwork ill have to catch up on!!

I’m so bored when I’m not walking but I can’t just keep walking constantly

im bored and sleepy

i wanna fast again since last time i couldnt even make it 24hrs... hopefully itll go easier cause of school tomorrow!!

three miles on the treadmill, it says thats -340kcal but im gonna log it as -227! i ate one pack of microwave bacon today which waaaas 140kcals, putting me at -87kcals for the day

ive already gone over the amount of calories i needed burned by a bit but im lowkey having fun so im gonna keep walking for a while!!! hamtermaxxing...

mr chopped you deserve the world ｡°(°¯᷄◠¯᷅°)°｡ #homicipher

had to stop walking cause the cops are here for my sister again

i dont trust my walking pads estimate for calories burned so i always take 2/3rds of the number to be safe

and now im gonna rewatch an anime while walking on my walking pad

i lost the charger to my smart watch which means i cant calculate calorie loss as easily right now BUT i ordered a new one! everyone cheered!

i NEED to weigh myself but the only scale in my entire house is in my parents bathroom... and i dont have the money to go buy myself one. and even if i DID my parents would get pissed if i owned one

im soooo bored idk what to do. im stuck up in my room but i already finished putting up all of the posters i own and i have no one to talk to. aaand todays the last day of spring break

ive been too afraid to go downstairs and eat because moms in a bad mood. i feel lightheaded

im going to regret this in the future arent i

my stomach hurts so bad i think i have food poisoning:(

i wish i was pretty. i hate being ugly. i hate it.

im pretty sure my fp hates me (theyre taking a nap) they wont respond to me and it has me worried (they had a long day at school and are taking a nap) i miss them so much i havent heard from them in forever (they said goodnight an hour ago and are taking a nap) #bpdsky

i don’t know what i’m doing ever and it makes me want to scream