i forgot how amazing bandori music is love it so much even tho i stopped playing for months

i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die

this bitch needs to stop misinterpreting my emotions "calm the fuck down" i AM calm i just asked a fucking question

im losing motivation to cut ugh

im stuck im so fucking stuck why cant i just leave you for once and stop feeling miserable

GENUINELY how did i even fall for her in the first place fucking bitch

"I'm so stupid and uneducated" *gets insanely good scores* *top 4 in the entire grade* *bunch of medals + certificate* *stacked extracurriculars* fucking liar

i don't want you to die. i am a coward. and i love you too much to let you go.

how— how do you tell someone that the reason you're sad is because you love them?

i loved you

so do you love me or not?

she needs to die she needs to die she needs to die she needs to die she needs to die she needs to die

AAAAAAAAAASSSAAAASCN SCN SCBSCHSCAASCICAUAVBVJAILCSAJVDAKJ,CAKJCNA,

ok so you just confessed to only keep being friends with me for your own benefit huh am i not funny enough for you

what a fucking bitch how did i even fall for her

idc if it's deep if it bleed im happy

got em out and holy SHIT are they amazing

i should just die or some shit augjaishka

i dont want to do anything tomorrow and the day after and the day after and the day after and the day after and the day after and the day after and

let's see if i can make my medical mask nearly filled with dried blood by the end of this month i use em to wipe the blood

shouldve cut when i was half awake this morning

im unsure how to feel about everything now

do i really have to wait until my new cuts are slightly healed to continue cutting because my left arm sucks ass when i do it

im disgusting

IM GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF IM GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF FUCK FUCK FUCK

not bad cutting sesh today

please let me go back to the time where i weight 48kg oh god

52kg im a fatass

should i keep the blood or clean them

shoot my head off rip my face out

what if my psychologist had been lying to me all along and that i'm neurotypical and that i'm just overreacting everything

god bless people who cut deep because how'd you do that without passing out 🙏

when im crying but then i realise it's not that deep and shut up immediately

fuckass screw wont come out of pencil sharpener

i have a love hate relationship with adobe premiere

i got an extension yayay

i hope i can get an extension on this

i feel lightheaded im gonna pass the fuck out dude

im tired asf rn but gotta stay awake for the work

i have stuff to edit can my eyes stop itching

almost 2 day clean

i should stop cutting

one of my friend gave me a green music box that plays senbonzakura i love it 💖

i bought 2

i opened the sugar jar to sweeten the tea but then found out it was infested with ants

this tea taste kinda bad why did i even bought it

ive been trying really hard recently! right? right??? i shall give you permission to pat my head

im gonna draw ishmael from limbus since my friend asked me to and also i got a free blank canvas

IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF IM GONNA KILL MYSELF

i may be a stupid idiot with mental issues and a horrific academic record, but i still want to share all the things ive turned up researching the things that im interested in!