Exhausted over the fact that i never manage to fit into a community. Tired of always fucking it up with people I really grow a liking to. Burnt out from disappointing. Desiring to just stop doing this stuff altogether again. Feeling like a parasite.

"Nooo! I don't want to!!!" I scream as @roseamongthorns.bsky.social drags me by the boots out my office as it is once again time for monthly assigned sortie commanded from a mech myself, instead of having a cozy hot cup of tea in my command post, in accordance to the 'Leading from the front program'

Just a little experiment

almost forgot to commemorate today by reposting Zizek’s endearingly cynical (yet heartwarming) take on the nature of love. happy Valentine’s Day everyone!

Obligatory valentines post

Gotta keep em well trained, right fellas?❤️

You told her you weren't into this. You hate knives. 'No' is never enough, she just keeps poking, prodding. With that meandering, singsong voice of hers, she wears you down. After one drink too many, you relent. She presses the blade to your lips, and you drool. If she wants this, so will you.

CW: suicide Handler, drunk, depressed wailing on her desk about yet another birthday of hers forgotten. With a trembling hand she gazes upon the warped reflection in her glass. Reflecting upon herself and what she means to the world. What is even to miss about her? Birthday and all of her. (1/8)

"Houndslop, what's up with that?" Crickets chirp as the open mic comedy night in the officer's mess turns out to be not the success she expected. The hound on stage nervously pulls her collar, swiping through her cards. "Handlers, amirite" The ominous click of a revolver being cocked in the audience

I finally blocked my ex

I'm taking appointments now!

Date idea

Did you really believe I would only scold handlers? Oh no I haven't forgotten about you hounds. Let's see how much of basic training is still present in your stim-fried muttbrain~

Classify me like an animal~<3

You call yourself a handler and here we are once again with a lackluster performance report. Hounds out of line, meager sortie success and slouched shoulders are not the signs of a successful leader. Last warning. Get your shit together, Major! Or you will be thrown to the dogs~

I have received confirmation for my job interview and that means I will be moving to berlin this year!

Without downloading any new pics describe your gender

So after the name is now more accurate to what I want to present here, a new profile picture follows. Aint those butts and hooves cute? #ponyplay #trans #nsfw

You may worship me, call me a Goddess and surrender your life to me but this is what actually plays in my head: youtu.be/UzHnQN8u6zs?...

So this is an example of what we call “foreshadowing” because these where taken a couple of years ago and I still hadn’t decided if I was going to keep my parents’ name

So you want to be mechsploited? Stuffed into a giant mech built for war and forced to battle other cute girls. Completely stay under the heel of your handler. Brainwashed into nothing but a mutt between collapse and the happiness of being with Her. Well then you better meet my mechspectations

Years to train a sub into the perfect model of a devoted servant. Behavior and mindset in order. All flaws eradicated. So much time and energy invested to reach this point. A trophy. Dropped from a noose for a quick buzz shortly after reaching this point. Just to do it again. Breaking the toy.

Working on a new comic with a new character: Bridget! 😌😌😌

It's all training. Conditioning. Brainwashing, if you so please. Plenty of methods to make a hound good. Plenty of options to reward them. The chance to improve on oneself is a gift from Handler that should not be disregarded as cruelty.

Some selfies from yesterday’s photoshoot

Your snout's missing between the cheeks 🖤💜🐴 #ponybuttmonday #nsfw #trans

✦ High pray drive ✦

4 pairs of handcuffs cuz why not

Darling, all I ever wanted was your heart and there's only one thing I could ever think about when you show it to me~<3 (You are strapped to an operating table)

Did I handle the look ok? (Still needs some fine tuning but all the main bits are finally here!!)

It's so pretty out. Perfect weather for a walk, wouldn't you say?

I was gifted a new coat for the look from a very good friend of mine and I have to say it looks absolutely insane

As promised myself and @dykehound.bsky.social had a wonderful time grilling out. Nothing makes Sartha Thrace feel good the way grilling with Handler does

Finally got myself a copy of the gospel 😌

You think Handlers ever take casual days for themselves?

I'm sitting at that 6 7

Hound: *short shlorp shlorp shlorp shlorp shlorp shlorp shlrop* Handler, infuriated as she yanks the hound's head back out of the vat by the hair: "STOP DRINKING THE WATERBOARDING WATER!"

Adulting drains so much energy sometimes. All this stupid decision making and putting effort and energy into managing all this nonsense. I'm just gonna say it... I need a domme in my life I need a domme in my life I need a domme in my life I need a domme in my life I need a domme in my life

"Fire, please", said the Handler to the hangar mechanic with a cigarette in between her lips. Unfortunately, her forgetfully still active comm transmittered directly to her pilot still hooked up in the mech. 5000$ worth of ordnance later, the hound realised this was not an order directed at her.

This hound had the honor of being refereed to by Colonel @syntheticobscurity.bsky.social as "Her little ordinance" and in blind excitement, it did a Discord status about and in it, misspelled the most important word "Handler" In view of this, Colonel had it atone via handwriting Thank you Colonel~

I've been worried about you since our last session, darling. You've been showing some worrying tendencies lately. Let's talk about that, okay? Gosh, I'm so sorry to hear that. Now, now, honey, it's going to be alright. Look, I usually don't hug patients, but you're different...

finally..!!!

This btw

Handler (drunk, depressed, to another): "She only loves that stupid mech of hers. 9 months of brainwashing and it's always just 'when do i get back into my mech?', 'did they repair Biscuit already?', 'can I sleep in Biscuit tonight?'. What am I doing wrong? She used to be like this about my boots!"

If we're on a date and you: -Fail to maintain eye contact under pressure -Stammer when the conversation gets too intense -Blush when I order your food for you This is no longer a date, it's a kidnapping.

For all those who all of those who are stimulated by a more audio nature. This is how you do a proper shine. Next time I won’t have to be doing it

This was meant to go up yesterday, but it got too dark so didnt have enough light. Anyways, this is a proper shine. Learn how to do it and maybe next time I won’t need to do it myself

Bathroom is properly labeled now.

This little cutie here has asked me be trained as my maid. They did so well for first time kink! Helped them learn a few things about kink and maybe themselves. All you other victims that i might get my hands on in the future will however receive less of my motherly care but rather pure cruelty~<3

What a precious creature she is. Her eyes not censored out of shame but with the knowledge that there's merely a crumbling identity left in her head. The remnants shall be expunged with a firm tug on her choking collar. Until nothing is left~