Struggling.

I think I will try and make some time to have a big cry later tonight.

Note the use of space and void in this next piece. The artist demonstrates a comprehension of the medium and the audience, and enraptures their attention throughout the audiences reading. The bidding starts at 6 Million.

Did it hurt? When you fell from my butt hole? Do you have any injuries from 360-no-scope reverse flipping out of my butt hole? Wait where are you going? I thought we were flirting! Are we were gonna split this bill? Can I call you? I’ll call you!

Absolutely no memory of the walk home from the supermarket, sort of “came to” in my hallway like “huh? oh” Unsettling but not a cause for concern, happens sometimes when I’m thinking so hard that my body just autopilots me to my destination whilst my brain is cogitating. 😅

If anyone would care to help me out if a bind I would greatly appreciate it. ko-fi.com/laufeyjardot...

I think if you have a .co.uk website it would be reasonable to assume my order will be shipping from there or perhaps Europe at a push. Alas, it turns out my order is not here in the time I expected because it is shipping from… America.

I don’t want to formulate words yet, but my friend Alice Wong, @sfdirewolf.bsky.social of the Disability Visibility Project, has passed. Here are the words she left behind: www.instagram.com/p/DREMDNBjnq...

Woke up feeling a lot of difficult feelings and resigned myself to just swimming in that all day and hating myself. But instead I chose to listen to a @kraehenherz.bsky.social voice note despite my intention to ignore it for a while and isolate. I’m very glad I chose different.

Today is over. Go the fuck home. Go to sleep. There is no more today. Cease it.

One of those days where I feel like everyone is humouring me when I say I am a man. Sure, they might not think I’m a woman, but they see me as a secret third thing because that makes them feel better.

Paused my workout as the washing machine full of hours old new clothes started smoking and after investigating I fell to the floor and was very close to passing out for the first time in my life, vision went dark around the edges. Cool :)

Good night

Eating a pasta bake with my top off, sexiness levels absolutely off the charts. (I’m waiting for the goop to dry)

@lesbianspacemerc.bsky.social can u not

Wow, I totally missed that the entirety of imgur.com is inaccessible in the UK without a VPN since September.

I don’t think it’s fair that I don’t have a folding chair, and that I can’t take that folding chair (that I do not possess) and dash it epically and great force against various surfaces whilst screaming very loudly. Worst thing that ever happened to a person past, present and future.

No results from the experiment after a full week. I guess I’ll extend it a few days.

There should be a remedy for loud thoughts keeping you awake at night. Something new - I can’t do any of the fun ones you’re thinking about on account of my agonies and character flaws. We need to workshop this. 💡

So not in the mood to work out today. Annoying.

Oooohh I’m so hot and sexy, ooo yeah I bought a water filter jug this afternoon, oooo yeahhhh you like that huh? 😏

goop nite

just checked in at the democratic bisexual big tent and it was dry as fuck, sad

“as ever, as always, good luck with all your future endeavours - ta ta!”

turning a dial labelled “james”

oh hello, wave of anger, nice to see you again you fucking prick ass loser

posting during the two minute silence, you can’t stop me

Office day, arriving before 9am - I’m rarely on time these days, let alone early, nice. Let’s hope we won’t have a repeat of last week’s eight-hours-painfully-holding-in-a-meltdown.

Goof Nife

“Why aren’t they banning trans men from sport” They were before, and they are now, I’ve watched my mutual (@geekyjules.julessherred.com) go through this for months whilst people chat shit about shit they don’t know about

arms look pretty big this evening. looked down whilst I was at my desk and smiled, not had that experience before. and nice to smile about something part of my physical form overall for a change. cool 👍🏻

440KG more than last weeks total weight lifted, slightly longer session cos I had the energy for my bonus sets for a change Cool 👍🏻

Thoughts in your head too loud? Work out! Thoughts in your head too loud? Work out again! Thoughts in your head too loud? JUST KEEP WORKING OUT

What I want: to be cosy, warm under some blankets, cuddled tightly and headache free What I have: a meeting about TCP and UDP

s l u m p 😮‍💨

hello

freshly shaved head, showered, gooped up, clean sheets, new pyjamas good night

shaved

This is the future leftists want

Bought some practical and some nice things for myself to try and help with the dysphoria and general brain-body connection efforts. And also some more weight plates.

Something really weird just happened with my brain for a split second and it was kinda scary (?) but I literally can’t describe it in words. It was just very strange.

“now that you’re a man you’re useless and stupid” isn’t the compliment you think it is to trans guys

shaved

im normal

i want a new pfp but i don’t have anything hot to go, this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to a person in the history of the universe

shhhhh. look. it’s okay

Cis people theorising amongst themselves about transmasculine oppression that amounts to “they don’t get any hate because of course a woman would want to be a man”? I’m not religious but if anyone has any holy water to douse these shits, hmu

Going to do something nice for my body - it’s time to shave my head.

What do you mean I should consider engaging in positive instead of exclusively negative reinforcement for my behaviours? What’s that? Sounds fake.

No results from the experiment. I guess I’ll extend it a few days.