who else is staying alive so we can be old people who don't give a fuck. why is that people get real old and suddenly they choose chaos. i don't ever want to be a mean old person but idk maybe i'll start vaping and shoplifting when i turn 80

not the older butch lady that works at my Whataburger telling me she was out on her motorcycle yesterday before the rain. Sherry let me be your ol lady we'd be so cute

how your email finds me

did i have to get Lux another aesthetic flower cat tree? yes he deserves it and this is a girl house where the cat sits on flowers

put your clothes back on it's time to discuss our agrarian fantasies. what's your crop rotation look like. is your root cellar stocked for the winter. do you have a favorite heirloom bean variety

tonight's movie was Lone Star. maybe the best movie aboutTexas? John Sayles you done it again

the longer time unfolds the more i realize how painful it was to be married. in the future i just want to be with someone who can remember the date of my birthday without me reminding them. or my favorite color or song i'm not anyone special. but being constantly forgotten about hurt me a lot

fun fact you can treat people the way you want them to treat you and it won't stop them treating you like shit

if i knew photoshop i would make one of those bootleg shirts that said Her Name is Sarah Paulson

i get big long lash extensions only to wear my thick ass glasses all the time. i'm channeling Dorothy Malone in The Big Sleep if you get it you get it

one of my friends who is also a hot big girl is in Europe and told me "i'm a 4 in France but a 8 in England" and i was like yup that tracks. i told her to let people know she's a Texan because British people love that shit

Big Dawg Werner Herzog making his lil instagram videos about Fitzcarraldo lore and the haziness of memory make me so happy

I fucked your dad in Reno Just to watch him cry

manifesting this for 2026 tbh

A movie that takes place where you're from

my dad came over to install a bird feeder out back so Lux can watch the birds Lux was very upset he could not eat the bird seed as my dad was filling the feeder up

i'm going down there half but i'm coming back whole

Balsamic vinaigrette all over my titties

i know languages are hard but i have to take a small centering breath when i hear someone pronounce it Loxy Tahn or Lockitan

one of my niche skills is that i am very good at bureaucratic annoying phone calls. calling doctors, FMLA administrators, insurance, utility companies etc.. applying pressure in a gentle way to make those calls productive can i make that into some kind of job? without being a legit social worker?

oh you think your doctor is going to request some referrals for you like they said they would? that "someone will give you a call" you stupid slut. no one is going to call you

me trying to choose between prosciutto and moratella at the deli: it really is one battle after another

how to be less sad get a cat & give it the best life. if you can't have a cat get an orchid from the grocery store. they are easy to take care of. when it blooms a small part of you will bloom too. play Old Town Road for your cat or orchid. you got the horses in the back. you're going to be ok

i am very happy not having any children but my mom was a Southern Living magazine subscriber and a Martha Stewart devotee. that lady loved a holiday. loved a lil craft, loved a theme. she made the holidays so magical & sometimes i wish i had kids i could do that for

Japanese poster for POSSESSION (1981) Starring Isabelle Adjani and Sam Neill Directed and co-written by Andrzej Zulawski - BOTD in 1940

the whole performative male thing is funny and dumb but there are absolutely men who are like "real talk y'all women should be treated with respect" while treating the actual women in their life like shit

so the MTG everyone has been talking about is not Magic: The Gathering i am assuming

manifesting a Pierre Laborde bag for next year

i think about André Leon Talley saying this at least once a day and i seriously mediate what i can do to address it in my own life because my eyes also starving for beauty!

A young merchants daughter asked her father to gift her the feather of Finist the Falcon; a magical feather which brought the man-falcon to her, and the pair fell in love. The girl's elder sisters grew jealous of her. They placed knives in her window so that when he flew to meet her, he would be cut

i just learned about Harmonized Brain centers recently and it sounds like such a scam. maybe not idk but the whole neural biofeedback curing a long list of brain and mood disorders is fishy to me

i would never ever gaslight a man because i am pure in heart and mind but if i did i would just be like "what's Lord of the Rings. is that a Fortnite thing"

i will never get tired of Rick Owens putting fat people in his clothes. i think as fat women sometimes we think the only aesthetic for us is some version of feminine or hyper feminine which i love but also i want to look like a Rick Owens snake priestess from outer space

friday night plans

Neil Lane gives me the vibe of someone who has been in LA for so long and has been in close proximity to the entertainment industry that i bet he has seen some wild shit. like he knows people who know people. you know what i mean anyway i want his giant book about his jewelry collection

i wanted an agua fresca and i said make me whatever flavor you want and they made me what i think is a strawberry horchata and it is so good

i only watched a little Castlevania but i have a niche interest in women who dress in a way inspired by Alucard

i have talked to a few of my lady friends about being into older men when we were in our 20s but now the younger men are starting to pop up as we're pushing 40 which is like weird? but also fun and good? i love being a hot (slightly) older woman

#SOTD testing out Fugazzi's Angel Dust and i am not feeling it. it has what i call a headache note- i think it's the bergamot. it's nice but it smells like a perfume you'd buy your mom at the Macy's counter in 2007

got this rodeo queen shaded up today

Posting this clip from Inherent Vice for reasons youtu.be/aY0R9--eZXQ?...

headphones died while i'm getting my leg tattooed AMA

good morning honey bunnies love y'all

much like Kreayshawn i also have the swag and it's pumping out my ovaries

A reminder that’s easy to send flowers to your crush on here instead of being a DM pen pal. Show them you mean it! www.socialflowers.com

it's such a cop out to be a "i'm sooo bad at names" person you're not bad at names. you just don't care enough to pay attention. or you can't focus enough to remember. and now you're too embarrassed to be respectful and say hey, could you please tell me your name again? because you forgot

trying out Room 1015's Cherry Punk which has been on my perfume bucket list forever and dang y'all it is good it's cherry and black leather and i'd say i like it more than Lost Cherry by a mile. this is a cherry for the goth girls who smoke cigarettes and are mean to men

establishing my dominance at TJ Maxx by doing the Eastern Promises fingers to throat gesture to anyone to gets in my way

i love Tom Hardy & saw an interview where he talked about using "spell" as an acting technique, which is such a magical & strange thing to say so i went down a lil rabbit hole and he is referencing the Laban-Malmgren modality. which i always thought made a lot more sense than solely method acting