may have told the nurse “that’s diet food from the 70s”

I am violently crying to the point that there is bloody snot coming out of my nose. How did I somehow manage to break a phone less than a month into owning it. God damn it. Thank goodness I have one that works only on Wi-Fi so that I can keep in touch with people even if it charges super slow

I'm at the point where I am genuinely panicking. I don't feel good and I have $5 to my name right now. Please help. please. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

having problems with my phone so I really need help. I might not be reachable because I cannot get any device I own to charge. One keeps saying it's overheated and the other is old venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

Today on nonsense in Mormonism: My bishop just asked me how we could get me back in the workforce. I was literally fighting for my life in May. I still can't breathe completely and I'm in the ER or the urgent care every two weeks. How am I supposed to get a job?

No updates on the screenshots. Rent is covered and so the only things I want to be able to do are pay down some debt and get quarters for laundry and get some more paratransit tickets in case I have to go to the doctor again. Anything helps.

Here is what we're looking at for December. I already have somebody who agreed to pay my rent directly on the rent cafe website. I've been using cash app and their loan program for food venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

Failed a transfer and hit my forearm luckily my right not my left on something that was bad enough that my skin is scraped and it looks like it's going to bruise. This body is exhausting.

I had some broccoli and greens around noon and I just vomited and it's very obviously still greens. It's been 6 hours and there is still solid food in my stomach. Something is wrong

So I have a reasonable accommodation in my apartment complex to where I can get deliveries and most packages that aren't too heavy brought directly to my apartment door. Today's security officer who is not one of the ones we normally have because of the holiday decided to refuse my accommodation.

Do I have the energy or the emotional bandwidth to figure out what to say to beg for help today. no no I don't. But I've updated a little bit of the wish list. So that's there. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

It's so funny to me when someone in my life suggests that I become like a content creator or something never mind the fact that I'm supposed to limit my screen time but are you going to buy me the computer or the camera. Because I don't think I can figure out how to edit videos on my phone

I feel so guilty crowdfunding and having a wish list while the world is in absolute chaos. I realize that my survival and comfort are just as important as anyone else is but still. The guilt is eating at me.

I was so excited to eat Thanksgiving/racist harvest festival food today but I actually haven't managed to eat anything. I've spent all day curled up on my side with a puke bag nearby.

Is bibasilar atelectasis going to kill me? Probably not, but good god, having low lung volume is so bothersome.

@jblainefoster.bsky.social More things from the wish list update because this one once again came from an unnamed person: New pair of headphones. A tie. Really cheap jewelry (Don't worry I wouldn't put expensive jewelry on my wishlist anyway but thank you to whoever bought it)

All right so it looks like I'm going to be going to the urgent Care today so that I can get looked over before the holiday tomorrow. I really do need help. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

I don't have the energy to do the screenshots to update what my balance is look like but here's just a reminder that I'm going through some crap and still don't have any income. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

Okay so I ran out of something that I need to basically use everyday right and so I used a little bit of the fundraising money I still have on hand to order it and some food and the delivery driver that decided to pick up that order is doing six deliveries right now.

Current Favorite Coffee Drink: 6 oz light roast coffee 8 oz hot chocolate 2 tablespoons cherry sugar free syrup 2 tablespoons coconut creamer Fill the rest of my tumbler with ice

@jblainefoster.bsky.social okay so today on people didn't put their names on the gift receipts I have obtained: Mushroom bouillon concentrate for my upset stomach A weighted stuffed animal for the anxiety because my last one lost its head And a box I haven't figured out how to open yet

Told my medical team what I was feeling and they said to not use screens for a bit cuz it might be neurological because my glucose monitor says things are fine and so is my blood pressure. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

“I asked ChatGPT” “I asked Claude” I asked this horseshoe crab and he said your ass wouldn’t have lasted two seconds in the Triassic

Hey friends My hands are shaking up right now that I cannot get my phone to take screenshots. But I've been using every donation of money I've gotten to try to pay everything down. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

I began randomly trembling about half an hour ago and I can't figure out what's wrong. My legs are almost violently stiff despite the medication and my chest hurts. My blood pressure is fine but I can't figure out how to safely check my blood sugar with my hands shaking

I am being given a new outfit by my mother for Thanksgiving and I am nervous about it. Place your bets now about whether or not she is sending me a dress. Mind you, I had a whole ass beard the day before my surgery, which is the first time I saw her in almost a decade.

We are living in such a messy timeline. I had to spend like an hour talking with a friend and showing tesearch to tell her that getting an abortion because of her blood clotting disorder isn't murder. She's not sure if she's pregnant she's in a state where it's legal to get an abortion.

I swear if my medical team says I have to go back to the emergency room because I'm puking again... I am so tired of them wanting me to go to the freaking hospital

Fell and bit my lip :/ there's no blood but one side of my lip is super swollen now

Got some more packages today. Admittedly I dropped one of the little ceramic dishes that I was sent within minutes of taking it out of the box so I have three of those now, and a cutting board and some toothbrushes, and the cookies were for my CNA because for some reason he likes Famous Amos

I was able to order food for Thanksgiving although I scheduled the delivery for closer to Thanksgiving and then I am doing with the leftovers a slow deposit so it hasn't hit my bank yet. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

No update to the screenshots which means we are still in rough waters. Any help would be very very appreciated. I'm still not feeling good but I'm trying. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

"You'd feel better if you were working." Correction I would be working if I was feeling better. But how am I supposed to get a job that I can literally do in the dark.

Had to go down to the lobby to get gifts from the wish list. shout out to my friend Kathy who I actually have to message on Facebook because she is not over here and the person who sent the things that are birthday cake flavored. appreciate y'all. Still having diarrhea and nausea but I'm alive.

So no changes to the screenshots but I went on Walmart and saw how much it would cost me to get what my family normally eats for Thanksgiving but just for me so not too expensive but still more money than I have. Only PayPal works right now. PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen

got all of the payment apps downloaded onto my new phone and holy s***. Primary goal is to pay all these down. I'm going to start the process of arguing with Wells Fargo tomorrow. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

I have a new favorite meal. It's a green carb balance tortilla, pasta sauce, grated cheese (I don't actually know what kind of cheese but I jokingly call at church cheddar because it says distributed by the Church of Jesus Christ of latter-day saints thing on it, and turkey pepperoni.

$38 needed like ASAP please? paypal.me/thelongestroad and then the $170 towards radiation therapy - please help me out there too ❤️

i had a few so i sent a few, you can too #MA we are the "public" part of #publichealth

got all of the payment apps downloaded onto my new phone and holy s***. Primary goal is to pay all these down. I'm going to start the process of arguing with Wells Fargo tomorrow. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

I thought the stool that I picked to use so that I could safely use the counters at my kitchen would work pretty well but so far I've fallen off of it twice. It's too late to return it and I can't give it away until I get a replacement but I probably shouldn't have picked one with wheels.

Trying to figure out whether or not I can go to a friend's wedding because it has a dress code. Like I don't know if I can afford a well fitting suit especially with my body type and I don't know what kind of bag to carry my medical supplies in? Like how do you dress formally?

crowdfunding update. Someone messaged me about paying rent directly at my rent portal so now the goals are debt related and then I need a new comforter and the kitchen stuff! venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

I wish I had someone on my visitor's list who wasn't Mormon that was tall enough to grab my freaking coffee maker off the top shelf in my kitchenette. My current CNA is a member of my ward and he put my coffee maker on the top shelf. I was just barely able to scrape up enough money to get some pods

I need to put on pants and go to the lobby of my building but God I'm so tired of a little bit awake for a few minutes but the front desk called me and said I had more packages. Love you all for the help but oh my god I'm tired.

Kati still needs $350 for food, Rx medications, and to replace their broken glasses. Ko-fi.com/katimcf

Crowdfunding update because I had to do some updates to the wish list both removing items that somebody bought elsewhere and adding some clothes. Current concern is next month's rent. venmo.com/code?user_id... cash.app/$CAugustMcMu... PayPal.me/AugustMcMullen www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/...

Putting women's clothes on my Amazon wish list so that my Bishop thinks I am making an effort to detransition. You can buy them for me if you want but they are literally just there for show. he says I have to make an effort to ask people outside of the ward for help and a dress more femininely.

Got a letter in the mail yesterday saying that I should be sent food stamps today. I don't trust it, and am wondering if we are going to end up being asked to give it back so if it arrives after business hours start today, I am too scared to touch it.

Things I have obtained from the wish list: A container of quinoa although it's small enough I might want to add more to the list 12 grain and vegetable bowls Vitamins Yogurt snacks A vest which I believe I may have ordered but it got stuck in customs at some point