Cool cool, this is all that’s on my brain right now. I want to lay there and adore my beloved with big love bug eyes but then also growl mine while I try to maintain enough composure to stay in control.

We survived another Christmas No matter where you’re at right now, give yourself a gentle hug just for getting through it Don’t feel guilty about what you couldn’t do Try not to be upset about people who didn’t show up for you Being chronically ill at the holidays is rough. Give yourself grace.

We are sleepy and overwhelmed this evening but still cozy. My beloved gave me this hat and neck wrap and they bring me a lot of comfort and also warmth. There are still a few hours of time to #joinin . spend your evening hours with your digital friends (like me)!

Thank you @unexploredcast.bsky.social for keeping me company this Christmas. The universe had the perfect timing and this was the next episode. #joinin with me to listen too this bunch of goofs living their best silly lives. Don’t forget the snacks while you’re listening. Lunch and a show.

Breakfast is complete! I had a shake and made my wife mulled cider (pro tip: put mulling spices in a reusable tea strainer). Now it’s board game time, one of my favorite things to do and share with others. Here is the game stack for today. Come #joinin with us!

Realized I didn’t share what #joinin was! For everyone who's not feeling it today, Who is alone, who wants an escape or even just to say hi: come join us! click on #joinin come join our digital family Christmas Day. We would love to have you.

Good morning #joinin friends. I’m starting my day early as usual. We stay just a hotel every year when we travel back home and this year ours has a waterfall (so peaceful)! Everyone else is still sleeping, so I’m downstairs coloring and playing my switch. I need to find some caffeine!

My wife’s SDiT (service dog in training), has a larger bag than she does when we go away. He needs his pajamas, various harnesses, boots and backup boots, and his favorite blanket and stuffy. He may work, but he gets a lot of downtime too.

There are a few days left in this year. I am 53 out of 60 for my book reading goal for 2025, and 850 out of 1000 hours for book listening. I have approximately 200 hours into my favorite podcasts as well. Good things I have approximately 20 hours of driving before the end of the year. #booksky

I often don’t have folks to share all of the little quips I absorb from podcasts with anyone. But I’ve been listening to @unexploredcast.bsky.social and frequently texting my beloved about all the silly goings on. I also may have texted her “what in the fresh hell is this”. Deliverance, OH is wild.

Yes. Give me your solstice orgy energy.

Happy solstice - tonight is the longest night. The light is creeping back in, too slowly to notice it just yet. And maybe, so could the hope. Another world is possible ❤️

A blessed winter solstice to you all!! This season of cold rest will continue, but as the light returns, may we all prepare ourselves for quiet growth and gentle steps out from under the snow.

Readiness turns chaos into noise and noise can be ignored. Calm isn’t found. It’s built. It comes from preparation, from repetition, from facing what you avoid before it faces you. Get ready, calm will follow. Tonight on the first night of yule.I sit in calm and silence, processing the last year.

For real same though. 😆

I have my new Yule pajamas, and also small things for my loves. No Yule cat eating us this year. 🎄 🧦

One thing I pride myself in is saying no, or this doesn’t feel good, or other variation of boundary setting. So when I say yes, it’s a resounding yes.

when you start learning a language where every noun has one of three genders assigned to it, depending on how it ends, and each sentence that noun is used in changes gender according to context and amount… and u see people online complain about they/them pronouns 😆 (learning languages sets u free.)

Started a new book and the dedication is: To those who hate running but thought being chased would always be hot. Yes. Take me down. (with words or literally). 🥵

I haven’t been going to the gym, or doing much but work and try to balance my mental health. this past weekend was a good weekend was much needed. I got to play board games with my loves, sleep in and wake up to love and cuddles, and spend a whole day adventuring with my sweet wife. #polylife

Someone said the phrase “you dodged a bullet there”. No actually, that bullet, it ripped right through me, and has left me irrevocably broken. That bullet took things from me. Left me with frailty instead of prowess. Apathy instead of warmth. The scar tissue is thick, painful and isolating.

According to my coworkers my face today is brought to you by “sour milk and emo music you listen to you when you’re sad”. Usually, being open with my emotions is something I’m proud of. However, today I feel embarrassed and vulnerable.

I have purchased many rolls of wrapping paper. I am wrapping all my unplayed board games, that way when I say I want a new game I have to go open one of these. happy yule to me?!

Why are you polyamorous? Wrong answers only: So I have built in board game and DnD friends. Also, I won’t be blamed for all the hair ties and Bobby pins around my house. Because it motivates me to wash my sheets. Lastly, I’m a sucker for buy one get one deals. 2 for 1 on the pretty girls?!

It feels good to be able to be both. Go to customer meetings, lead teams but also have the knowledge and drive to get dirty with said team when it’s needed. I will never ask anyone to do something I haven’t or won’t do. Today was hands and knees on the stockroom floor with power tools.

My work gift to coworkers this year, is a deck of affirmation cards each based on their personalities. We got sweary self care, uplifting unicorns, affirmations for the badass, and one deck called “just listen bitch”.

We never grow out of needing a safe space. It might sound silly to some people, but responding to life w/ power & purpose ONLY happens when we've intentionally created safety inside our head & heart-- which, make no mistake, is an every day challenge & project in trauma recovery.

You know what gives me butterflies, when I see the ”xyz is typing…”. like yes, tell me the things. When your name pops up my heart soars.

I am *usually a top heavy switch outside of my well defined D/S power exchanges. However, in the last few months, I have been finding empowerment in giving up some control. Being safe enough to surrender. Being seen enough to want to. Still working on the “saying what I want” thing. 🫣

Also, less wholesome, more spicy. Being between my love and friend while they both tease me until nearly crying, not giving me what I want until I can find my words and take what I want. Menaces, the both of them in the best possible ways. I’m just a delicate bug, however if you bully me, I’ll cum.

Haha. The other night when I said I wasn’t going to eat dinner my metamour turned to me and said “don’t make me tattle on you to our girlfriend”. Then another polycule person said “You’re not getting out of this one”. You better believe I drank that shake on my drive to see said girlfriend.#polylife

Despite frigid temps, I woke up this morning feeling warm, safe and so loved. Also, incredibly fulfilled in more way than one hehe. My brain is trying to be present but also being a planner I know in the future there will be a few weeks apart. Finding it tough to keep my heart and brain in line.

I am incredibly fulfilled by this level of intimacy. The hand on my thigh while we are eating, moving hair out of my face, cheek kisses. It’s all so incredibly focused on me, and that person wanting to closer and love me. If this doesn’t exist for me, there isn’t usually much that follows.

A swear just, but for saying “it’s just a thing”. Must include the accompanying shrug.

Listen. I have LOVED being the middle spoon recently. Literally it’s the best sleep I’ve gotten in months, safe and secure between two people who I know love me and will protect me and also, I don’t have to worry about stealing blankets cause I am the human space heater. It’s a win win win.

That playfulness starts before you even see each other. It begins with curiosity, anticipation, attention. A build up of passion, a fire to be stoked. Attention that isn’t just for your body, but for your energy, your heart, and your tells. The slow, subtle exchange where tension and safety mix.

Imagine hating me but I’m just a little bug, sitting at my table in my matching bluey jammies. Having snackies and apple juice and swinging my feet cause they don’t touch the ground 🙃

Something seemingly innocuous, but made me take a pause this morning. As I was gathering my stuff to leave my beloved’s I went to move a piece of hair off the bed, except it was both of ours. One bright and fiery red, one shimmery and bold silver. Twisted.intertwined.Curled around the other. 🥰

Picked up primarily two player games at PAXU this year. My wife suggested I wrap in christmas paper all the unplayed games I have, and when I want a new game go get one of those. LOOK LIKE I HAVE AALOT OF WRAPPING TO DO 😅

Benefit of sleeping between two cuties, you’re both big and little spoon. One of those cuties and I were joking that we are running the bases backward, we started at 3rd . Tonight we got all the way to 1st. 😆

I was asked tonight what I wanted, and my heart and body immediately knew the answer. But my brain said, hold up, lets be super awkward and hide until two beautiful woman basically have to pull the words out of me. I have some work to do on why, I can’t just say what I want. It will be slow goings.

also sensory play. Deep pressure too. Like yes lay on top of me with your body weight, no it doesn’t hurt. Like arguably it’s not even kinky amy more. It helps balance out all the other intense stimuli.

I make a very specific sound when my brain is being mean. I then burrow my head into the closest semi soft thing I can find. It’s to the point that my beloved pretty much can pick it up by the sound of moving to burrow and then taps my chin until I’m not hiding and makes me look at her.

Hard agree with this!

It’s just me and six dittos. We can be anything we want. Going to be organized chaos.

That skin to skin, leg between leg, head on chest, and nuzzling is so good.

I pride myself in being clear about my needs people say okay sure.They know what they’re getting and yet I’m too loud, quirky, inflexible, emotional. So I make myself fit.I’m learning,that there are people that want to learn my language.That want all of me.That’s still hard for me to process.

The Piano Guys Griz One Republic Simple Plan Garth Brooks (Listen my music taste is wide and varied 😆)

10 years without my Grammy today. I find myself doing more things like you everyday. Making food to care for others and bring joy into their lives, looking for any chance to be around friends and family and most of all learning to show other grace and kindness. I think you’d be proud.