i felt like my hair didn’t turn out right , but i got so many compliments at work today . does it actually look that good ?

at work today when a security guard stopped me and grilled me for a hall pass , insisting that i am a student , not staff 😭

binge eating is how i s3lf h4rm and i can’t fucking stop it’s pathetic

i ate a fucking donut for staff appreciation week i just want to reach inside my guts and rip it out rn fuck everything

i feel like this every day when it’s time for me to leave work …

i need a cigarette

having adult money means doing what i want

yall . who is this ? i want to know if me and my bf are stupid or not

MY PACKAGE FROM CHLOE CAME IM SCREAMINGGGG ( ignore my house being in literal shambles pls )

goodnite

screaming crying throwing up

i am never fucking eating again

so did we all gain weight or is it just everyone on my feed rn including myself

my mom is out of the hospital and staying with my aunt so i can finally get some things done because i know she’s okay

i gained 10 lbs since my dad died on march 3rd and honestly i thought it would be worse i can work with this

i’ve probably hit a new hw since my dad died

the best

i spotted this car yesterday

last day hash bash shopping haul ( can u tell im running out of money )

also thrifted the cutest gay sweater when we were shopping

today’s haul . three packs of the 400mg infused jerky . foreign lime pepsi zero sugar , oh yes babyyyy i did good today

h🅰️sh 🅱️lunt

my bf treated me to $100 worth of VS today and i got the free promo tote for the first time ever ! it’s an accomplishment for me hehe , i also treated myself to some pink crocs i’ve been wanting FOREVER , and some yarn to finish a sweater i’ve been crocheting ! <3

amongst all the grief and awfulness in my life , my partner and i decided to still go ahead with the hash bash treasure map since we bought some up this year , here is our haul ! not pictured are our garlic knots from a pizza place and chips & salsa from a mexican restaurant ! i had an AMAZING day

so far this year - three chronic illness flare ups ( january to february ) - uncle died january 2nd - dad died march 3rd - put my cat down march 18th - mom was taken to hospital by ambulance for severe health issues march 19th - papa heart health issue march 20th

after losing my dad two weeks ago and my pet turtle on the same day , i had to take my family cat to say goodbye yesterday afternoon . my heart feels like it’s been shattered . i feel like i can’t go on , but i have no choice . we are going to run out of money and lose our house if i give up .

i have binged a few times due to stress and grief but i’m going to get it together and stop with the excuses i deserve better than that

i just got in my dads car for the first time in a long time . i noticed he still had the handmade seashell necklace i made him ten years ago hung from the mirror . i absolutely lost it .

thank you all for your condolences about my dad , he was the funniest , most big-hearted person in my life and i feel lost without him 💔

my dad died yesterday

im going to my first real protest today . they are trying to build a new ICE detention center near my home . i am afraid , but proud to be exercising my first amendment right to stand against something so atrocious . wish me luck and safety for my first protest ever 🥲

i just saw my ex when i was buying a diet coke 🤮🤮🤮

i just made $32 in one hour of d@shing 🤑

bro who likes 5sos here ….. i would like to chat ..

i bought a bunch of ingredients to make healthy meals and snacks so i can lock in

i haven’t been counting c@ls i need to get it together i had a fucking dream that i gained 15 lbs

leg press then stairmaster now treadmill IVE REACHED A GENUINE FLOW STATE

i’m officially the old ass lady in the gym that wears baggy sweats and a concert tshirt from 12 years ago ……

good morning i accidentally woke up an hour before i needed to so i worked out for that time instead of going back to sleep 💪 im locked in guys 💪💪💪

bought 4 packages of the valentine nerds gummy clusters ( best flavor of all time ) to eat before workouts to stabilize my blood sugar ! so excited !

spoiled by my partner 🩷

me and bf were just d@shing and one of the orders took 49 minutes and we made a whopping $4.00 with $0 tip

paper due tonite yikes

the students at my job just did a ICE walkout i’m so proud of them

showering for the first time in a week who clapped . ?

been eating at maintenance for months because of everything that’s happened but i’m locked back in and gonna keep losing :)

my partner’s mom better not talk to me when i go to retrieve my shit from her house because i WILL unleash on her